Perspective

2006-08-02T11:13:00.000+08:00

Today, I told my mom that I failed Psyres2 (thesis).

Hindi ko rin maiiwasan ito sa kanya. First, wala na akong ibang klase aside from that next term dahil expected na this term would have been my last. Anong lusot ko diyan kapag tinanong niya sa akin kung anong nangyari at hindi ako kasali sa graduation on October 14? Nasabi ko sa kanya before na yun ang date of graduation. Second, my mom was the one who picked up the call from my thesis advisor. Nagtataka siya kung bakit ako tinawagan ng propesor. Had she not been sick today and have gone to work, baka tinago ko pa ito sa kanya sa simula kaso aangat nanaman ang guilt ko. Masyado ako maraming tinatagong guilt sa loob ko kasi ayoko ibunyag ang mga sikreto na nagdulot ng mga ito. Kahit ilabas ko man ay makakatanggap pa rin ako ng sakit.

Huling beses ko nilabas ang sama ng loob ko dahil sa guilt (halatang hindi ko maalala sa ngayon kung ano ang katumbas ng salitang ito sa Filipino) noong Sabado, pasahan ng thesis. Umiyak ako sa labas ng faculty room dahil sa takot na babagsak kami. Iniisip ko na ako ang may kasalanan, at ganun pa rin ngayon. Hindi ko maasahan ang thesis mate ko na maging equal sa blame. Siya ang pumapasok sa call center tuwing gabi, hindi ako kaya hindi niya maasikaso iyon. Siya ang bigla nag-asawa dahil binuntis niya ang girlfriend niya. Naiinis ako dahil napunta sa akin ang bulk ng trabaho; parang ako na rin ang gumawa nito mag-isa. Pinili ko na makipag-partner sa kanya dahil alam ko na mahihirapan ako tapusin ito mag-isa. It should be noted that I would never have guessed that those things happened to him will occur. 2 subject lang tapos Practicum ang binabalance ko aside from this tapos ito pa rin ang nangyari. I won't even add my auntie and cousin from the US there.

Oddly enough, despite the disappointment, hindi ako umiyak ngayon. Wala ako maramdaman na luha para pigilin sa pagdaloy. Hindi pa ata tapos magrecover ang tear ducts ko over last Saturday. Naalala ko nung Sabado na tumawag ang nanay ko sa cellphone habang umiiyak ako. Sabi ng kasama niya na nakausap ko later that day na napansin ng nanay ko na umiiyak ako sa kabilang linya pero hindi niya tinanong sa akin kelan man kung bakit ako umiiyak nun. Hindi rin niya alam na pasahan ng thesis namin noong Sabado. I wonder if she has put 1+1 together now kaso yung nga, may sakit. Yung sa kasama ng nanay, sinabi ko sa kanya na may sama ako ng loob over something.

Hindi ako pinagalitan ng nanay ko. I don't know if her reaction would have been the same if she were feeling better. She asked me kung final yung desisyon. Sabi ko sa kanya na I asked my advisor about it and tried to convince her kung pwede pa maghabol na mas well-written version. Insuffiecient ang last three chapters namin dahil may hinabol pa akong data tapos nagkaproblema pa sa computation and interpretation. Hindi na pwede, sabi ng advisor. Ang magagawa namin ay mag-appeal sa thesis commitee na ituloy from Psyres2 at hindi magsimula back from Psyres1 kaso chances are slim since wala kaming valid reason. Buti na lang at nakauwi na sa bahay ang ate ko, kahit na ayoko rin iamin sa kanya na bumagsak ako, because she made my confession easier. Bumagsak na rin sa thesis ang ate ko before kung kelan Thesis2 for similar reasons. Binangit pa sa akin ng ate ko na may call centers na tumatanggap ng college students (hindi ko pa sinasabi sa kanya yung tungkol sa partner ko). Subukan ko raw para mabayaran nanay namin sa tuition. Ok lang sa 'kin na maghanap ng part-time job, kahit graveyard shift pa ako ilagay dahil sanay ako maging gising sa mga oras na iyon. The better to be away from my sources of distraction. Kaso, naaalala ko yung output ng partner ko. Baka hindi ko maasikaso thesis namin nito.

At times like these, I cannot help but feel pathetic. Kulang pa ako sa social support nito. Ang mga bisyo ko lang ay maglaro ng video/computer games, mag-internet o magbasa ng nobela buong magdamag tapos matulog buong araw to the point of oversleeping. Kahit gumising ako ng 6 pm dahil nagstay up ako hanggang 7 am, nagawa ko matulog before 12 am dahil may pasok ako the next day. It's definitely not healthy. Kahit natulog ako ng 7 am, hindi pa ako kumakain ng agahan so in a day, nagagawa ko magmiss ng 2 meals (at ito ang sagot kung bakit pumapayat ako)! My mom is alarmed at this of course pero ginagawa ko pa rin. May nabasa ako na oversleeping is actually bad and it can even shorten one's lifespan ata in the long run; I think it's bogus until more suffiecient support emerges. I can confirm however na you feel lethergic pagbangong mo after oversleeping. I'm an escapist, that I admit. I distract myself from reality with playing games, participating in message board discussions, surfing the internet or reading then sleep for long periods to make time run faster. It has actually disoriented me with dates since I don't have a calandar (excluding the ones in my cellphone and laptop) in my room. Kahit ma-limit yung game and internet usage, kailangan mailayo sa 'kin ang mga libro sa bahay which is a harder thing to do because my mom and sister also reads. Kayang-kaya malimit ang internet and PS2 access ko; wala na kaming ibang gaming consoles, kahit handheld man lang. Nakakapag-internet lang ako kapag naka-wireless connection kami o hindi ginagamit ng brother ko ang PC niya (which has a more direct access thanks to a phone line running through his room). Addict sa computer din ang kapatid ko to the point na hindi ililipat to wireless kapag wala ang ate namin (ayaw niya makinig sa 'kin) kasi mas mabilis 'pag hindi nakawireless. Yung sa games, tanging TVs sa kwarto ng nanay ko at sa brother lang meron. Manood lang ng Koreanovela ang nanay ko sa kanya at magkulong ang kapatid ko sa kwarto niya ang solusyon, which also happens often kaya mas madalas pa rin ang pag-internet ko. Halos wala akong offline PC games na naka-install.

It appears that there's a lot in my life that needs to my overhauled =_= (yes, I know that I suck at ending stuff.)

2006-07-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

It's been more than a month since my last update. Can you blame me when I almost always hit the sheets everytime I go home? I realized this noon that I'll be reaching 100 hours doing office work for my OJT next week, which means no more waking up at 6 a.m. then head to Makati CBE before 8 for until, at least, next month. Suprisingly, I find myself preferring to work in an office than go to school and sit through boring lectures. Of course, I am yet to be placed under a nasty boss and face deadlines in work settings.

Most students rejoiced when classes were suspended last Wednesday and Thursday. I, on the other hand, still had to go to work. Actually, I really don't have classes during Thursdays so suspension announcements for that day and Tuesdays don't matter. As for last Wednesday, I always go to the office every morning since my class starts after lunch. When I learned that classes have been suspended, I decided to prolong my stay in the office until 5 (although my actual log out time was around 5:45 p.m. thanks to a task). I reasoned out that the weather may clear out by the afternoon hence it might be easier to go home later. I was wrong! Now I have experienced working while classes are suspended for students and going to the office during non-school days due to suspension.

I doubt I'll be updating anytime soon. In other news, one of my aunts living in the U.S. and her daughter are in the Philippines since yesterday. I'm thrilled to see them again after... *thinks* 3 years. The funny thing was their arrival time was early morning so when the got to our house (they're staying with my family until they go to the province next week because we're the ones living closest to the airport), I was still taking a bath. I first saw them right before I left the house. Now, I'm just killing time while waiting for my appointment with my Practicum adviser than eat out with the balikbayans afterwards. Tomorrow, I have my weekly community service for Practicum.

2006-06-07T14:09:00.000+08:00

Don't you just love it when you get a free ride to school dahil sumabay ka with someone? Don't you hate it when you're at the school gate and is about to enter when you discover that you left your wallet? This happened to me today. Bwiset!!! Buti na lang at kumain ako ng tanghalian sa bahay (after lunch pa ang klase ko ngayon) pero walang consolation yun sa 'kin compared to unintentionally your money and ID. I feel vulnerable. Minadali pa kasi ako ng kapatid ko na umalis ng bahay para ipaayos yung CPU ng desktop namin. Sa mga nagbabasa ng blog na ito, may desktop kami plus yung laptop ko; dapat off limits siya dun sa 'kin. Itong isang kapatid ko ay notorious sa pagsira ng PC dahil sa download na may kasamang 'di kanais-kanais o may ginalaw na hindi dapat. Sa ngayon, kadalasang yung pangalawang rason ang dahilan. Kakalkalin niya ang kopyuter kung sa isip niya ay kaya niyang i-optimize yun. Kung ipapaayos niya uli ang PC, dapat sumabay na lang siya sa nanay namin pumasok kahit na maghintay siya ng isang oras sa opisina. Ang tanga-tanga ko rin ngayon kasi nadala ko pa naman yung handouts sa other subject na walang naman meeting tuwing Miyerkules (eh 'di dapat mas magaan sana bag ko) at naiwan ko naman yung survey questionnaires na ipapasagot ko. Plano ko pa naman simulan ang distribution nun at 150 pa ang hindi ko pa napapasagot >_<

2006-05-22T16:15:00.000+08:00

Sa ayaw ko o sa hindi, unang araw ng pasukan sa amin ngayon. Ganyan talaga kapag trimester. Okey na sana ang araw ko ngayon kung umabot pa ako sa bigayan ng number sa pilahan ng adjustment. Sinabihan ako ng secretary na bumalik bukas. Bukas? Eh Lunes at Biyernes lang pasok ko. Kung nakapag-adjust ako, naging MWF 'yan.

Tulad ng mga nakaraang termino, nagkaroon ng pagbabago sa propesor na magtuturo sa isang subject kanina. Yung prof naman na pumalit ay yung prof ko sa Developmental Psychology, Sikolohiyang Pilipino at Social Psychology. Ang subject: Clinical Psychology. Pang-apat na beses ito kaya natatandaan pa niya ang pangalan ko. Maliban na lang sa tatlong tao, kilala niya ang lahat sa klase daahil naging titser na namin siya noon, depende sa subject. Kung sa mga nakaraang termino ay nababagot ako tungkol dito nang nalaman ko na siya ang magtuturo (ang daming pinapabasa tapos ang hirap ng exam tsaka magkakasunod pa na term ko siya naging guro), ngayon ay okey sa akin kung siya ang magtuturo. Nasanay na ata ako sa kanya at alam ko ang dapat kong gawin para pumasa. Sa bagay, hindi pa niya ako binabagsak sa final grade kahit na mababa ang iskor ko sa mga exam niya. Pagtiyatiyaga ko ito; nakakahiya ng bumagsak kung kelan last term ko na.

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Nakakainis nguni't nakadama ako ng matinding sakit sa tiyan noong Sabado ng hating gabi/Linggo ng madaling araw. Hindi ko malaman kung food poisoning ba o ulcer ang sanhi (sa palagay ko ay ulcer). Ang sakit sobra! Gusto kong matulog nun pero hindi ko makayanan ang sakit. Nakainom na ako ng dalawang tabletang Simeco pero 'la epek. Doon pa sa ikatlong inom gamit ang ibang gamot bago nagsimulang mawala. Hindi ito ang unang beses na nangyari sa 'kin ito. Nangyari rin ito nung death anniversary ng tatay ko at 2nd term last year, nang pauwi na ako ng school. Ito yata ang pinakamalala. Akala ko aabot pa ito sa doktor, lalo nang sinabi ng nanay ko na "Pag hindi ka pa gumaling, dadalhin na kita sa ospital."

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Napanood ko na ang Da Vinci Code noong Biyernes, pagkatapos ko magbayad ng tuition. Bilang isang tao na, sa maniwala kayo o hindi, ay hindi pa nakakabasa nung libro, ang masasabi ko ukol sa pelikula ay hindi tugma ang hype na dala ng kontrobersya sa kung gaano kaganda o kapangit nito. Alam ko na bago ko pinanood ito ang mga punto na nagbigay ng attensyon mula sa Simbahan at mga relihiyoso nguni't nagtataka ako kung bakit nagkaroon pa ng ganitong kalaking kontrobersya. Marahil ay mas madaling isipin na hindi totoo ang isang bagay kung ito ay pelikula kesa libro. Oo nga at salungat ang mga nabanggit sa Da Vinci Code sa tinuturo ng Simbahan pero hindi pinoproklema ni Dan Brown na tama siya. Ginamit niya ang mga yun para magbigay ng rason sa siyang nagdulot ng buong gulo sa kwento. Napasobra naman ata ang reaksyon ng Simbahan at ng mga relihiyoso with their sermons, books and documentaries that one can't help but be more suspicious about them. Baka napa"bilib" ako sa hype kaya ganito ang reaksyon ko. Daqhil ito ay film adaptation, hindi maiiwasan ang pagbabawas at pagbabago sa eksena. May narinig ako na may mga parte sa libro na maganda raw pero hindi naisama. Hindi ko alam kung mas magugustuhan ko ba siya kung nasali pa sila.

May mga tao na pro-banning dun sa movie (what about the book? It's been out for... what?) dahil blasphemous. Gusto ko silang sabihan ng, "Is it non-fiction? If it is, go. If it's not, then don't. Use common sense." Doon naman sa banning ng pelikulang ito sa mga cinema sa Maynila (nanood ako sa Makati dahil ang pinakamalapit na sinehan sa school ko ay nasa Maynila tapos yung pinakamalapit sa bahay namin ay SM), kaya siya rated R dahil sa nudity nguni't may napanood na akong ibang pelikula na mas malala sa nudity kesa rito pero sa SM lang hindi mapapalabas kung umabot noon pa ang policy ng SM. Blasphemy lang talaga. Hindi ako debotong Katoliko, hindi rin ako atheist nguni't sa palagay ko ay wala pa ako sa level ng mga agnostic. Hindi lang ako nagsisimba regularly, ilan buwan ang nakalipas mula nang huli ako nakapagcommunion, hindi ako nagdadasal maliban na lang kung ako ay obligated o kung may malaking problema ako. Kahit ganun eh hindi ako against it. Nakakabagot ang hype, parang sa Star Wars prequels.

2006-05-14T20:18:00.000+08:00

Although I enjoy the cooler temperature since Friday, I'm disappointed at the timing. We were supposed to stay overnight in Nasugbu yesterday but due to the rain and zero visibility along the way, we canceled our plan and went home. Bad trip! We were planning to celebrate Mother's Day with that plus it would have been my get-away this break since classes will start on the 22nd but it didn't push through >_<

I don't watch Pinoy Big Brother on a regular basis such that I forgot to catch yesterday's eviction night. Apparently, Fred and Jaoqui were the ones who got the least votes thus lumabas sila. I can now imagine my brother teasing Fred (if he's still going to their school this year) and/or Jaoqui's younger brother, who happens to be my brother's friend. Yes, my brother knows the two of them, albeit as mere acquaintances, because they all came from the same school. He doesn't watch PBB though. Well, if you are an avid follower of the show then you would know about Fred and Jaoqui being schoolmates. According to my brother, kakagraduate lang ni Jaoqui ng high school nung March (hindi ko napanood yung episode nung pumasok siya). Si Fred naman ay incoming senior tapos magbusmate pala sila ng kapatid ko. Nagulat ako (but nothing beats my brother's shock when he learned about them being housemates because he didn't know) kaya tinanong ko sa kanya kung saan sa baranggay siya nakatira. Nasa kabilang dulo raw. Pinakita pa ng bro ko yung listahan ng friends niya sa YM at Friendster para i-prove na "friends" sila ni Fred bago pa siya pumasok (magtataka kami kung lumabas na online raw siya eh nasa loob pa siya ng Bahay ni Kuya at that time nguni't di namin napansin kung nangyari iyon). Pinakita rin niya sa 'kin yung pictures ng kaibigan niya with his Kuya Jaoqui via Friendster. Magkamukha sila! Naku po, mangungulit ata talaga yung kapatid ko pagdating ng pasukan!

2006-05-09T06:23:00.000+08:00

I would have blogged earlier if it were not for my bro wanting to use it and the awkward location (my parents' bedroom ^^v). Anyway, my mom decided to buy a new laptop last Saturday, and it's the one I'm using right now. Nakakagulat siya in a "Is this for real or am I dreaming?" kind of way because I never expected it. Akala ko sa July pa niya balak bumili in time sa pagdating ng auntie ko from the US; very late Christmas present niya ito eh mas mura raw kung galing pa sa America yung kompyuter tapos bitbit ng nagbabalikbayan. Syempre, tuwang-tuwa ako kasi may sarili na akong laptop. Dahil bago, syempre gusto makigamit yung bro ko. Ok lang sa 'kin ngayon pero pagbalik sa eskwela, ako ang gagamit dahil akin ito! Nagsimula na ako mag-install ng additional programs pero wala akong MS Office - mahal daw ng latest version na licensed. Ganun rin ang sabi ng Information Technology Center (ITC). Hihiram nga ako nito tapos kung meron din, isang licensed virus scan program. Sa mga nagtataka kung bakit nasa kwarto ng mga magulang ko yung laptop, sa kwarto ko nakikitulog ang lola ko at ako naman ay dun sa nanay ko habang nandito pa lola ko sa bahay =P

I can't believe I almost forgot about Mother's Day. Mukhang hindi lang ako sa pamilya namin ang nakalimot dahil walang nagpapaalala. Nagiguilty tuloy ako sa nanay ko at wala pa rin ako naihanda. Pakiramdam ko na I should make a lot out of it lalo na't biyuda ang nanay ko. I'm very thankful for my laptop, my dog and other stuff but the most important thinng I am thankful about is bringing me into the world, followed by raising us. Wala pa ako nagagawa kung 'di magpasalamat sa kanya at samahan siya magsimba. Ito na lang muna sa ngayon at feeling ko pupunta rito ang kapatid ko para gumamit eh ayoko ko marinig 'yon mangulit habang ina-update ko itong blog ko >_<

EDIT:
Made some changes.

2006-05-04T07:29:00.000+08:00

After 10 million years...

Actually, mga 5-6 months lang ako nawala. Matagal na rin yun! Sabi ko hindi lalagpas ng Abril eh Mayo na pala >_< So... eto, mukhang back to blogging na ako. Syempre marami nang nangyari tulad nung Pasko, New Year at Holy Week. Masaya naman ang Pasko ko - nasa Subic kami ng pamilya ko. Hindi pa kami nag-out of town ngayon bakasyon maliban na lang nung umabot kami ng Tagaytay nung Maundy Thursday. Sa ngayon, nakikitira ang lola ko.

Pagdating naman sa mga nangyari sa 'kin sa school, hindi ko masyado hilig pagusapan nito. Ang ok pa na ibahagi ay ang nang nalaman ko sa thesis mentor namin na kinasal lang recently (by this time) ang thesis mate ko ^^v Ano ba naman 'yan, halatang hindi kami close ng partner ko. Baka akala niya na nasabi na alam ko dahil natatandaan ko pa na nagtext sa 'kin na hindi siya makapunta dahil nagpa-ultrasound. Hay, ang pangit ng nag-asawa kasi nabuntis ang girlfriend.

Sa ngayon, kapag online ako, madalas ako pumupunta saMangaHelpers. Kung mapag-isipan ninyo na hanapin ako dun, ako yung "Ayah" na global moderator. Maliban sa usual gawain ng mod sa isang message board, nag-uupload din kami ng mga raw at scanlated manga chapters for download dun sa server. Sa ngayon, puro sikat na shounen titles ang meron kami nguni't balak din namin mag-expand pa sa mga iba pa kung may willing na translator. Ironically, hindi ako nakakaintindi ng Niponggo. ~~Halata ba ang shameless plugging?~~

Sa mga nagtataka, mula sa isang napakadilim na layout, naging napakaliwanag. Nung napagisipan kong gamitin yung lumang layout ko (version 9), medyo down ako. Dapat ngayon, mas maging ok naman ang pakiramdam ko. Kung hindi kayo masyadong knowledgeable sa mga manga at anime, ang mga characters na featured sa layout ko ngayon ay sina (from L-R) Rukia, Ichigo at Renji ng "Bleach". Sa mga nakakaalm naman, plus points kung nakita ninyo si Kon XD Nakakatuwa na nasa layout mismo yung 'retro perspective' eh tempted akong ilagay sa title bar iyon kung gumagana sana ang strikethrough. Ito na lang muna sa ngayon at susubukan ko palitan ang background color ng archives ko.

2005-11-24T11:20:00.000+08:00

YAY! TAPOS NA ANG THESIS PROPOSAL NAMIN!!!
Nakakastress sobra. Kahapon kasi yung deadline eh alam naman ninyo na 'pag stressed ka talaga, hindi mo mararamdaman na gutom ka kahit alam mo na matagal na mula nang huli ka kumain. Breakfast (not brunch) at dinner nung 8 pm lang kain ko kahapon eh 'di ako yung tipong nagsiskip ng meal nang ganun katagal. Wala rin ako ininom na kahit ano between meals.

Dapat ma-relieve na ako at naipasa namin yung thesis kaso kinakabahan ako kung tatanggapin ba ito marereject. Alam ko na ang thesis namin ay less than perfect. Please Lord, sana pumasa kami!

At dito nagtatapos ang entry ko.

Postscript (dated Diciembre 2, 2005):
At 1 p.m. today, me and my thesis partner had our discussion meeting with our reader. To our surprise, she said that if the revised chapters 1 & 2 of our thesis have improved next week, the highest possible grade she would give us is a 3.0! HALLELUJAH!!! (Remember that in our school, the highest grade is 4.0, not 1.0) We are very happy about that since we were scared we would fail. The rationale behind our thinking are 1) We think the chapters are too thin, namely due to the lack of related literature; 2) To us, our thesis needs more substantial content. We regard ourselves as not-so satisfactory writers when it comes to research papers and the like; 3) It was mostly rushed.

Our reader said that our topic is good and despite the limited content, we managed to justify our thesis. The main problem would be the test that we planned to use. Because it is old and most probably obsolete, we have problems searching for related lit. Her suggestion is for us to look for a newer, similar test. We hope we would be able to find one immediately since all the suggestions she pointed out revolved around it. We only have a week to work on all of that. I hope things continue to go well ^_^

2005-11-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

This blog is no longer in an indefinite break! Hopefully, I'll be back by no later than April. I need to concentrate on my studies, especially on our thesis. I haven't written anything in a month and I don't think I'll be writing in here anytime soon. However if I do have the time, especially by Christmas break, and have something post-worthy, I might publish it here ^.~ To those who read my blog, thank you =)

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My Hiatus Sign (check entry above)
Character: Shinn Asuka
Anime & Episode: Gundam SEED Destiny episode 43 "Contradicting Voices"
Screencap is from: Gundam SEED Net
Program used for editing: good ol' MS Paint!
Font: The main font is called FStein. I believe it's a take on the font used on the covers of R.L. Stein (of "Goosebumps" fame)'s horror books. I don't know where my bro ther got it. In case you're also wondering, the smaller font is called... Small Fonts!XD I think this one is already available in MS Paint.

PLEASE DO NOT STEAL MY HIATUS SIGN!!!
even if it's crappy
P.S.
At oo, gising pa ako nitong oras. Alam ko na hindi nakagitna yung "Hiatus" at nakalimutan ko ilagay yung "Made" dun sa baba >_<>

EDIT: Thanks Jena for correcting me on R.L. Stein's initials.

2005-09-23T16:26:00.000+08:00

It's been two weeks since the second term began and I feel that starting next week, things WILL get very serious. I need to make up for last term's disaster. I've also finally got myself a thesis mate last week (and at the last minute too. Phew!) and had a meeting with our mentor a while ago.

About my thesis mate, it's a guy. We're not close and I hope the situation does not turn into that of Syun's. It would have been better if there was a third member in the group but at least I'm not going to do this alone. I really don't think I can write a thesis on my own kaya bilib ako dun sa isa sa 'min na nagsolo talaga. Napansin ko rin na iilan din ang mga grupo na dalawa lang ang miyembro. Yung iba raw gusto nila silang dalawa lang.

Naging kaklase ko dati sa ibang subjects ang thesis mate ko pero hindi kami masyadong nag-usap noon. Ang first impression ko kasi sa kanya eh tipong slacker. Paano naman eh lagi siya papasok na mukhang nakapambahay with the shorts and slippers plus the long hair na laging nakalugay. As my mom would probably put it if she meets him, mukha siyang marumi/madungis. He seems to be the kind na ok na basta pasado. Later, nalaman ko na kaguild niya pala sa Ragnarok yung kapatid at pinsan ko. Small world! Hindi ko alam kung adik pa rin siya sa paglalaro since I don't think he and my brother & cousin keep in touch after nagquit yung latter two ng RO. However, I think he'll put some effort in writing our thesis since he suggested our topic: motivation towards academics ng grantees of the Student Financial Assistance Program. Hindi pa ito yung final topic namin but it's a start. I would've start checking theses with similar topics (working students, scholars) today kung walang klase dun sa Psych lab since nandun ang mga 'yon. Our mentor also suggested that we should set an appointment with the director of the program and talk about concerns involving the grantees which may be used for our study. Kung hindi pa kami satisfied diyan, sabi ng mentor namin na baka gusto namin talakayin ang mga estudyante na young parents din, particularly young fathers dahil may study na raw about young mothers.

Never ko naging prof before ang mentor namin pero I haven't heard any negative comments about her. Mabait daw sabi ng thesis mate ko (naging prof na niya dati yung mentor namin). Mukha naman. Sa labas ng Psych department, may listahan ng mga grupo with their topics, mentor at reader. Sa dulo ng listahan, may table kung saan nakalista kung ilan groups ang bawat prof ay mentor at reader. Dun sa mentor namin, kami lang ang hinahandle niya for mentoring. Ang tingin ko dito ay pressur... este, motivation to do this thesis very well. Gusto niya na every week, may meeting at a particular day at time para malaman ang progress namin. Mukha talagang babantayan kami nito. Kung may kailangan kaming gawing iba sa timeslot namin, i-text namin siya na hindi kami makakapunta tsaka magsched na lang ng ibang araw o oras ng meeting para sa linggong 'yon. Naku, needed pressure indeed.

Dun naman sa subjects at profs ko for this term, wala pa akong masabing negative. I can't complain na nagbigay ng surprise quiz kahapon yung isang prof ko since pinaalam niya sa simula ng term na maari siya magbigay ng surprise quiz anytime. Surprise quiz nga at ganitong kaaga na meron na. Yung mga tanong ay tungkol sa lesson na 'di pa tapos i-discuss pero expected ka naman magbasa in advance. Sa subjects ko ngayon...

...napabasa ako ng dalawang Greek tragedies. Hindi lang summaries binasa ko, pati rin translated scripts. Both tragedies were not boring
...may papanoorin ako bukas sa CCP at may papanoorin ako sa UP Diliman sa Linggo
...magrereport na kami sa Lunes. Tapos na ako magriserts =P sa part ko
...napasabi ako na agnostic ako nung una but I don't think that I really am. Being a Deist (kung tama na tawagin ang tao na naniniwala na absentee god si God ng ito) is more like it
...kung anu-ano ang naisusulat ko sa Filipi3; ang korny ng mga gawa ko

Dito magtatapos ang entry na ito. Sisilipin ko kung available na for download ang chapter 277 ng Naruto manga. As for the Gmail invites *points below*, tuloy pa rin ang offer ^_^

2005-09-13T14:29:00.000+08:00

According to Blogger, I now have 100 posts (does that include my unpublished drafts? I have a bunch ^^'). So... this is my 101st. Before I forget again, I have some Gmail invites up for grabs! For those who are interested in getting a Gmail account, you can send me an e-mail stating that you want one. My e-mail add is at the "Credits" section of the sidebar. Just hover your cursor at the 1st line right under the "Credits" heading. I'll need your current e-mail add so that I can send the invite to you. You'll have to introduce yourself first though or I might delete your e-mail, thinking that it's spam. That's all for now ^_^

2005-09-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

Since it's my birthday today, I thought that this blog's layout needs to be changed as you can see. So there, this is my new layout. Too bad I didn't make it, unlike Bom. Actually, I could have changed my layout last week but I had some problems with the coding. Then, there was course card distribution *points to post below* and I was too down to bother fixing this. I still feel that there's something wrong with the layout. BTW, the person featured in here is no other than Gackt.

Somehow, the mood of this layout kind of reflects what I've been feeling for the past months. From the pale one I used for version 8 with its light blue and white, this one is dark (again!) with a bit of red for contrast. I knew beforehand that my grades are going to be low, but I didn't expect to fail. I think last term is my worst in overall academic performance. My highest are three 1.5's! Of course my mom was mad at me for having a failing grade. She told me that I lack focus on my studies, which is true. I'm at the point where not only was I not interested in studying, I also had nothing to counter it. What I meant was that there are those who may not be interested in studying yet they force themselves to because of pressure from their families. I'm not saying that my family wasn't reinforcing me to do well in school; I guess my stubborness is greater. As to why I'm feeling that way, well... I am frustrated with the schoolwork I'm getting. I've tried to do my best for years yet I still get a low grade in some that I've put a lot of effort into? Sure life is unfair but it is still unacceptable for me. I am also overwhelmed with the schoolwork. I thought I can handle the trisemestral system; heck, I survived 7 regular terms (and a summer term to lessen the workload). It's high time for me to straighten my priorities, studying habits and time management. This is all I've figured out so far.

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Wow, I can't believe I'm 20. T-w-e-n-t-y. Technically, I'm not until by 11 p.m. GMT+08 because according to my parents, I was born between 10:30 and 11 in the evening. The idea hasn't sticked yet because I'm still the lazy ol' me who wants to get away from responsibility. Transformations don't happen overnight although my notion of a 20-year old is, aside from the occassional slacker, is more mature than what I currently am. I could be exaggerating a bit about myself at this point since I still have the guilt and may be criticizing myself too harshly. In fact, I wasn't too excited to celebrate it up to now. I barely have anything planned!

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Shuro is in Japan right now and won't be back for a year. I wasn't able to say goodbye to her though. Even if we're not close, I'm sure I'll miss her. I'm happy for her since she wanted to go there, even if it's not the first time she's been there. The difference is that aside from the length of stay, her purpose of stay is that of an exchange student. I also want to visit Japan, however it would most probably be as a tourist. But first, there's the cost of going there, back here and staying there. Tokyo and (I'm not sure about the next), another Japanese city were ranked among, if not in the top 3, the top 5 cities in the whole world with the highest cost of living. If I'm not mistaken, Tokyo is at the top position.I don't know if we have what it takes for allowing me to stay there for a year even if I go there to work (as an entertainer? I don't think so). Plus there's the language barrier. Not only will I need to learn the language, I'll need to be able to read and write their 3 writing systems (hiragana, katakana and kanji). Maybe I might barely survive there without learning kanji but who knows?

As to why I'd want to visit Japan, I am fascinated with it: the landscape, the culture, etc. In fact, I want to travel to other countries for almost the same reasons. Being a fan to several anime, manga and Japanese-produced game titles adds to my eagerness of being able to go there, although I've read that these 3 things aren't as widespread to what an outsider thinks unless you're in a particular part of Tokyo. An hour stop-over there during a flight to/from the U.S. is definitely not enough!

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Looks like this is all I could type right now. Classes are back on Monday and I'm trying to savor these few days. It's funny that I'm at my 9th layout change on the 9th day of the 9th month of the year. It's also past 9 a.m. too ^_^ Shortly, it will be this blog's 2nd year in existence. Yay!

Oh, and for those who are still curious to what I look like in person, I'm won't put my grad pic w/o the censor bar right now. However, I can be seen in one of Bom's recent posts. No, not Ayame ^^'

2005-08-31T16:30:00.000+08:00

AS OF THIS DAY @ 3:50 P.M. GMT+08, I HAVE REMOVED THE LINK TO MY PICTURE. I WANT TO SAY "THANK YOU" TO THOSE WHO REPLIED ABOUT IT, HOWEVER IT WOULD BE SOME TIME BEFORE I POST MY PICTURE AGAIN, THIS TIME WITHOUT THE CENSOR BAR. I AM DOWN RIGHT NOW DUE TO MY ABYSSMAL FINAL GRADES IN ALL SUBJECTS AND WOULD MOST LIKELY BE DELAYED BY A TRIMESTER. I DO NOT EVEN THINK THAT I COULD ENJOY MY BIRTHDAY NEXT WEEK WITH ALL THE GUILT THAT I AM HAVING. I WILL ELABORATE MORE ON MY CURRENT SITUATION WHEN I AM FEELING A BIT BETTER AND HAVE ORGANIZED MY THOUGHTS. I AM CONFUSED OF MY ACTIONS DURING THE PAST COUPLE MONTHS, WHICH MAY HAVE ORIGINATED FROM SOMETHING EMOTIONAL IN NATURE.

REST ASSURED THAT I AM STILL PHYSICALLY OKAY AND WOULD NOT ATTEMPT TO MAKE MYSELF DRUNK, HIGH ON DRUGS, SLIT MY WRISTS OR ANY OTHER FORM OF SELF-MUTILLATION... ANYTHING EXTREME THAT WILL HURT ME AND/OR OTHERS. I DO NOT THINK THAT MY SITUATION IS THAT BAD TO PUSH ME TO DO ANY OF THOSE. I SELDOMLY DRINK, DO DRUGS NOR HURT MYSELF PHYSICALLY; I CANNOT SAY THAT I ALSO DO NOT HURT MYSELF EMOTIONALLY). IT IS JUST THAT I AM HAVING A HARD TIME DEALING WITH THE MATTER... OR I THINK OF IT THAT WAY BECAUSE I DO NOT KNOW HOW I WILL BREAK THE NEWS TO MY FAMILY LATER. I WISH CAN GO THROUGH WITH THIS WITHOUT ANY OTHER COMPLICATIONS.

THANK YOU FOR READING,
AYAH

POSTSCRIPT:
FIRST, I HOPE NO ONE HERE IS SKEPTICAL THAT I WOULD NOT DO ANYTHING HARMFUL TO MYSELF. IT HAS BEEN THREE HOURS SINCE I CRIED AND I AM VERY THANKFUL TO THREE OF MY CLASSMATES WHO WERE THERE WITH ME AT THE TIME. SECOND, I AM SORRY FOR ANYONE WHO IS BOTHERED WITH ALL CAPS AND/OR THE RED FONT COLOR. IT HAS BEEN AN EMOTIONAL DAY FOR ME. THIRD, I WILL CHANGE THE LAYOUT AS SOON AS I COULD CORRECT WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE CODING. I TRIED CHANGING IT YESTERDAY BUT IT DID NOT LOOK AS GOOD AS PLANNED.

2005-08-17T11:08:00.000+08:00

For a limited time only, I'm posting a *gasps* picture of myself! I had to cover up my eyebags though. I guess you guys would have to settle with the fake smile instead *flashes a grin that's not forced* XD Yes, that's a grad pic. No, I haven't graduated yet. If I ever graduate *crosses her fingers*, the earliest would be on June next year. Also, I'm not the one who scanned the contact print (but I do have the ones that are not chosen for the photo package). Somebody else scanned it for our yearbook's online verification. I haven't finished my verification since I am thinking of changing my write-up =P As for how recent that picture was taken, it was taken last July 2. I know because I had a post dated July 1, 2005 that mentioned about the pictorial.

There, that's proof that I'm not photogenic AT ALL (check the fake grin!). It's already a studio picture but it looks >_< Why am I doing this? So that the people who come here would more or less have an idea of what I look like. As long as I (or someone I know) am not putting my whole name, address and/or contact numbers here, then this is ok with me. As you may have also seen/read, I also took the precaution of covering my eyes. Yet in truth, I do have eyebags in that picture and in the rest of my grad pics. Right now, I still have eyebags ^^' and it would stay that way until the end of the month.

Oh, and you won't find this picture in Friendster. If you ever do, moreso without the censor bar, it could be that:
a) someone uploaded the uneditted one there
b) someone pasted my eyes from another RL pic of me over the censor bar
c) I have a lookalike and you thought it was me

2005-08-09T12:56:00.000+08:00

Minsan, nagtataka ako sa sarili ko kung bakit nakakalimutan kong gawin ang mga mahahalagang bagay tulad ng paghanap ng thesis mate. Yep, malapit na ako magthesis; sa Setyembre na nga ang simula. Nang hinanap ko ang sagot, iniisip ko na ayan nanaman uli ang hiya ko sa tao.

Hello? May blockmates ka naman a!

Oo, may blockmates nga ako pero hindi ko sila ka-close. Bakit? I guess iba ang takbo ng isip ko sa kanila. I mean, iba ang hilig ko sa kanila, may mga bagay na hindi ako makarelate, etc. Alam ko grade ang nakasalalay but do you think makakayanan ko ba makatrabaho sila for... ilang buwan ba 'yun? 7? Tsaka by this time, may ka-grupo na ang mga 'yon.

Napaisip ako na I'm such a lone wolf subalit ayoko gawin yung thesis mag-isa. Alam ko na hindi ko kayang gawin ito mag-isa. Sa totoo lang, minsan social loafer (taong hindi masyadong gumagawa ng kung anu-ano sa group work dahil alam niya na may iba diyan na pwedeng gumawa ng trabaho niya) din ako. Nguni't kung mas matindi sa social loafing ang kagrupo ko *memories of 2nd year HS pops up*, napipilitan ako gumawa ng lahat. Speaking of the devil, alam kong may kasalanan ako sa mga kagrupo ko in one of my classes... or two. In times like this, how I wish I have Invisible Woman's powers.

Damn, ayokong humarap sa katotohanan. See how immature I am.

At napapagaya na ako sa blockmates ko and some of my fellow psych students here who always change the font style in their blog entries and e-mails (yung makabulohan anyway. A lot of them are popping up dahil nagkaroon ng issue sa department) to emphasize stuff.

2005-07-28T17:01:00.000+08:00

Random musings:

I need to study more diligently and take my education more seriously. I'm always cramming papers and projects, however tinatamad ako tapusin ang mga sinumulan ko after some time kaya minsan wala ako naipapasa. It's amazing that I've come this far with such bad studying habits.
Dahil wala ako maipasa minsan, cut ako ng cut ng klase. Kung anu-ano ang namimiss ko tuloy like surprise quizzes.
After graduation, I'll probably look for a job and work until makakapag-masters ako. Pagkatapos ng masters, trabaho uli I guess.
I want to read more for recreational purposes. Napupurga na ako sa required readings. Kung may mahabang oras talaga ako, magbabasa ako ng works ni Neil Gaiman, preferably the Sandman series (to appease my short attention span). I still haven't tried reading any of his works eh naiintriga na ako tungkol sa mga sinulat niya since High School.
I also haven't read any of Dan Brown's either pero mas gugustuhin ko unahin si Gaiman. I'll have to borrow first though. In the meantime, baka yung Shopaholic series ni Sophie Kinsella ang basahin ko. At least yun meron kami. Baka sa term break ko gawin.
I believe that one of the obstacles concerning literacy is the prices of reading materials. Who wouldn't be turned off buying an expensive book other than the Harry Potter series? Ang mahal ng mga bilihin ngayon!
Still on the subject of reading, I'm also thinking of trying any of the following: Catcher on the Rye (dahil may kopya kami sa bahay), Animal Farm... basta yung mga tipong required novels sa Literature class in HS (other suggestions are welcome, kahit nasa Pilipino tulad ng Maynila sa Kuko ng Liwanag, or hindi tipong required sa Lit class). Yung pinabasa sa 'min ay The House of the Spirits ni Isabel Allende, The Little Prince at To Kill A Mockingbird. Parang gusto ko basahin uli ang To Kill A Mockingbird =/
Na-realize ko sa Litelec na interesting ang Paradise Lost at Inferno. Sayang at wala akong tiyaga magbasa sa poetry na pang-epiko sa haba (ayaw mag-absorb at himayin ng utak ko ang Paradiso *gets stressed*).
Dapat nagluluto ako. Iniiwasan ko kasi ito.
Dapat nagmamaneho ako ng kotse, kahit practice man lang. Alam ko kung paano magmaneho ng manual nguni't hindi ko ginagamit ang kaalaman ko for months.
I should listen to more music; hindi ko lang masasabay ito tuwing nag-aaral ako. I'm one of those people who can't study na may kasabay na radyong naka-on.
Ang dami naming movies sa bahay, hindi naman ako nanonood. Motivated ata ako kung may kasama ako. The same goes with the tons of CDs ng mga iba't-ibang series. May Friends kami, Will and Grace, 24, Alias, Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, Simple Li... nevermind, kahit koreanovelas and some Japanese dramas!
Feel ko ang dami magagandang panoorin sa ETC but I don't have the time. Even if I do, I want to watch a show from the start. That's why some of the series that my peers watch (usually those in Studio 23), hindi ko masyado pinapanood.
Kung malaki lang ang memory ng computer namin o may pambayad ako sa burned CDs (don't get me wrong, hindi ako ang bumibili ng ibang CDs namin sa bahay), puro anime at manga laman n'yan.
I want to try doing cosplay but I need someone whom I'm comfortable with to accompany me. Yung taong yun dapat magcosplay din!
Try ninyo basahin ito. Tinatamad ako gumawa ng sariling reaction tungkol sa HS yearbook namin.
I want to go around the world before I die.
If I am to die, gusto ko yung 'di ko nalalaman, kahit seconds before my death, na mamamatay na pala ako. Ayoko nga lang ng grisly death or anything that'll have my body mutilated in some way.
Ayoko pa mamatay!!!

2005-07-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

Taena, bagsak ako sa practical test namin for a major subjuct! Tapos pakiramdam ko na babagsak din ako sa written exam. I DON'T WANT TO STUDY PARTS OF THE BRAIN! But yeah, Psychology kinuha ko so I have to deal with that. What I didn't like with the practical exam was that:

1. Puro real brains ang ginamit for identification of the parts so imagine, if you will, the stench of formaline reeking.

2. 20 secs lang per station (brain) ang alotted time to answer eh per station umaabot ng 3 parts ang ipapasagot.

3. Arteries and cranial nerves are tiny yet they are part of the things that need to be identified.

4. Kung sa illustration ang utak ay naka-sideview (lateral) with the front (anterior) at the right, yung sa mga mismong utak facing left yung anterior. Pampahirap ito sa pag-identify ng mga kulubot sa utak (yes, they have names at iba't-iba ang coverage nila!).

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Kahapon, may rally sa Makati. The day before that, may rally din sa Makati. Sa palagay ko, useless ang rally. I dunno, para sa 'kin gasgas ang magrally for something this big. Konti na lang ata nakikinig kay Cory dahil sa Hacienda Luisita incident and probably din dahil daw kay Kris 0_o Tsaka kung magbitiw man si PGMA, either through resignation or impeachment (mas gugustuhin ko na magresgin siya kesa ma-impeach dahil gastos sa Kaban ng Bayan ang trial), I don't think na gagada na ang sitwasyon dito sa Pilipinas. Sangayon ako sa "Tigil na ang rally, balik na sa trabaho" because it takes two to tango.

I'm not updated up to the minutest detail when it comes to current events. I'm generally not interested in politics. Correct me if I'm wrong pero dun sa wiretapping scandal, nagtanong lang siya kung ano ang standing niya sa poll at hindi siya nagpautos na i-rig ang eleksyon. Problem is, was the full content of that tape aired to the public? Was the complete transcript published to the public? Of course there's the jueteng scandal but it seems to me that everyone's referring to the wiretapped one.

Like I said, I'm not fond of politics, but the issue is so alarming even I got something to say about it.

2005-07-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

*Currently sabog*

Wala pa kami sa mismong thesis writing subjects yet I feel that we've started doing it already >_< Bom, ilalabas na raw sa wakas ang HS yearbook namin sa 23. Definitely looking forward to that! And to think na kakagaling ko lang sa college yearbook pictorial 2 weeks ago. Malapit na rin daw ilabas ang contact prints ng grad pics. Bilis! Ang fear ko lang ay marami akong shots na nakapikit or pangit ang ngiti. I'm not photogenic, pramis. Sabi nga sa 'kin ng photographer na mahirap makuha ang smile ko.

Bilang karagdagan sa entry na ito (it's shorter than usual, don't you think?), here's a random product of boredom I did some time ago. I didn't draw it (it's from a fancomic); I just editted the text. Ok, I'll have to go back to Death Note now. Sayang lang at inunahan ako ng younger bro ko on this one XD XD XDD (don't mind the typos and spelling. Oh, and I'm leeching this from Friendster kaya quiet lang ^.~).

What else... the current situation is fucked up. I don't want to elaborate this because I'm sick and tired of what's going on. 'Pag nasa better mood na ako baka pag-usapan ko pa ito.

2005-07-01T06:50:00.000+08:00

Hindi ko akalain na sa araw na ito, makikita ko for the 1st time since High School grad ang isa sa classmates ko nung HS. Ganito kasi ang nangyari:

Pinapasok ako ng nanay ko ng maaga dahil hindi namin alam kung sobrang trapik ngayon sa daan. May mga araw kasi na matindi talaga ang trapik eh tinanghali ako ng gising kanina. Bale, umalis ako ng bahay ng 'di pa kumakain ng agahan. Sa awa ng Diyos, hindi matrapik kaya naisipan ko kumain muna sa McDo. Nang pumasok ako sa McDo, syempre naghanap ako ng pwesto. Biglang may tumawag ng pangalan ko. Lumingon ako at nakita ko ang dating klasmeyt ko. Laking tuwa ko't nakita ko siya muli pagkalipas ng halos tatlong taon kahit na hindi kami close (pero may pinagsamahan naman ng konti). Pero sa pagharap ko sa kanya, agad ko tinago ang gulat at sinubukan ko mag-act cool. Nagpalitan kami ng "Uy! Long time, no see!" at tinanong niya kung san na ako nag-aaral ngayon. Sinagot ko siya ng "Sa Main" (dahil may mga taga-CSB na sumasagot ng "Sa La Salle" kapag tinanong mo sa kanila 'yun). Hindi ko na tinanong sa kanya kung san siya nag-aaral dahil napagalaman ko sa uniporme na suot niya =b Dinagdag niya kung anong ginagawa ko sa McDo at sabi ko sa kanya na kakain pa lang ako ng agahan eh 'eto, naghahanap ako ng lugar. Nagyaya siya na samahan ko sila ng kapatid niya at BF ng nasabing kapatid. Tinanggap ko naman ang alok.

Nang nakabili na ako ng pagkain, nagkwentuhan kami. Tinatanong ko sa kanya kung alam niya ang nangyari sa yearbook namin. Ang sagot niya ay tulad sa nakalagay sa latest entry ng kaibigan kong si Jena (yung tungkol sa yearbook namin, hindi yung sa disunity ng batch namin).

Ako: Naku, hihingi ako ng refund.
Siya: Pero naaalala mo ba nung 3rd year tayo, tsaka lang nilabas ang yearbook ng big sis (mga 4th year nung 1st year kami) natin?
Ako: Oo.
Siya: Baka hintayin ko pa ng isa pang taon.

Ok, ako rin maghihintay ng isa pang taon nguni't kung wala pa rin ang HS yearbook namin by then, magdedemanda na talaga ako ng refund.

Umabot ang usapan namin sa batchmates namin; kung san nag-aaral yung isa o kung sino na-kickout kaya nag-aral sa ibang school. Basta mahabang kwentuhan habang kumakain ako. Kutob ko baka may nasabi pa ako na dapat hindi tulad ng bagong cell numbers ng ilang tao (ang babaw ko noh?). Sayang lang at umabot rin sa oras kung kelan kailangan kong pumasok. Wala lang; hindi ito madalas mangyari sa 'kin.

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TGIF! Bukas ang scheduled pictorial ko. Sana matino ang kalalabasan ko dun at hindi pa naman ako photogenic >.>

Being the Naruto fan that I am, napapasali na ako sa mga fangirls for the latest bishounen revealed sa manga... si Sasori! ~~Sayang lang at kontrabida siya.~~ Tsaka, pinalabas na pala sa Tagalog dub (ABS-CBN, M-F, 5:30-6:00 p.m.) sina Itachi at Kisame. Yehey, may Akatsuki na!

2005-06-27T13:24:00.000+08:00

Nakakatamad talaga gumawa ng schoolwork on and after a 3-day weekend. In my case, it's really bad. I have to deliver my speech tomorrow for my English 3 class yet I still haven't started doing my Powerpoint presentation on it; the PPT is my visual aid. I also haven't revised my outline ever since it was last checked eh ang dami ko palang dapat ayusin. Sa Wednesday, may ipapass pa naman kami ng group ko na paper eh 'di ko rin nasisimulan yung part ko ^^v Instead, nagblog ako ngayon.

I tell you, I got it (my laziness) really bad over the past few days. I realized that I'm easily distracted whenever I'm using a PC with internet connection. Eh anong pinaggagawa ko sa kompyuter? Download MP3s (sa bahay lang), and search for anime and/or manga related stuff. Huli kong pagsearch for the latter, umabot pa ako to American cosplayers =P Ang say ko about it are:

1. The Japanese are generally better-looking cosplayers than white Americans (I don't see a lot of African American cosplayers) even if the anime/manga/game characters they dress up into are not Asian in character design, and for the women's case, the characters they are cosplaying are of the opposite sex.

2. There are exceptions to #1, mostly on cosplayers who are bigger than the ones they are cosplaying. Then, there's some caucasian cosplayers who are really good in physically transforming themselves into the character they are portraying, which makes me believe that they are more suited cosplayers for that particular character/s than anyone else, even an Asian.

3. The worst, most disgusting cosplay I've ever seen are those of overweight men dressed as sexy females (classic example: ManFaye - a guy cosplaying as Faye Valentine of Cowboy Bebop)

4. In cosplay, you can make underaged characters drink (the Japanese did it, the Americans did it, too).

5. Is it just me, or a lot of Americans currently like to cosplay as Naruto characters? Some are even up-to-date with the manga that there are already those cosplaying as Naruto characters that are yet to appear in the anime + the new outfits I presented in my last post (seen Naruto and Gaara ones).

6. Cosplayers dressed as Uzumaki Naruto have an excuse if there are more than 1 of them present. If 2 = Rasengan, 3 or more = Kage Bunshin no Jutsu. I got the idea from the captions of group pictures featuring only Uzumaki Naruto cosplayers. ~~What about Rei of Evangelion then? Clones?~~

7. When it comes to posing, Americans make more hilarious ones, intended or not. They can also make a yaoi pairing more "real" by having cosplayers kiss each other on the lips ^.~ I'm yet to see one between the Japanese.

After saying these 7 points, I'm still too lazy to go back to work. So help me God D=

Tsaka, maganda ang Batman Begins. Napanood ko siya last Friday.

*Removes avatar for technical reasons*

2005-06-16T12:30:00.000+08:00

I'm bored so I decided to put some Naruto manga scans (actually, they're scanlations ^_^) here. The reason why I used the scanlations instead of the raw scans is because the quality of the outcome from scanning on the translated ones are better than that of the raw. The choice of pages were due to the fact that these pages showcase those characters who had their outfits modified/changed on their (re)appearance, starting from chapter 245. Sorry if I wasn't able to crop these pictures nor resize them ^^;; Natutuwa lang ako sa mga bagong suot nila. Hindi na naka-puruntong yung iba XD As for the other characters, some didn't get a costume change at all while others are yet to reappear =)

NOTE: The following hyperlink texts contains minor spoilers for chapters 245 and 247, and not-so minor spoilers for chapters 248 and 253. All of these chapters are not yet animated.

Naruto
Sakura
Shikamaru & Temari
Gaara
Team Gai

Credit: Naruto Chuushin

MGA KARAGDAGAN (nung sumunod na araw):
Kahapon ko lang napansin na nawawala ang design sa suot ni Kankurou, but basically he still looks the same. Nakakanibago nga lang 'pag nakikita ko siya na walang face paint at hood. Sina Konohamaru at yung dalawa niyang kaibigan, alam kong may konting pagbabago rin sa suot. Basta si Ebisu, naka-flak jacket na rin. Si Gaara naman, may isa pang suot: isang robe. Ewan ko lang kung nakapatong ba 'yon dun sa suot niya sa scan na nilagay ko o mabilis siya magpalit ng damit dahil sa isang page suot niya yung robe after a couple of pages, suot na niya ang isa pa.

Ayos na rin pala ang PC namin tsaka hindi pala natuloy ang pagdissolve ng last class ko tuwing TTh kaya balik na uli ako sa dating sched ko.

2005-06-14T16:49:00.000+08:00

After three meetings wherein I had no classes in the last subject of my TTh schedule (actually, I didn't attend the first, then there were no meetings during the second and third), my last class has dissolved. What will become of me? Well, I adjusted to another class. Goodbye lunch break; starting this Thursday, I'll be having classes from 9:40 a.m. to 2:30 p.m. STRAIGHT. I will definitely need to eat heavy breakfast.

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I'm pissed at my brother since the weekend. In less than a year, our computer needs to be reformatted again. How many times would our PC need to crash because he attempted to install a graphics driver before he stops doing it once and for all? If he thinks he's a computer expert, he's wrong. He may know more about software than I do but he's only in second year high school! He's not qualified to tinker our PC that far. Now everytime we turn on the computer, the screen is blank. I don't think our mom would have it fixed immediately. Guess I'll have to extend my stay here in school just to type then go to an internet cafe to print.

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Time flies so fast that I need to pass the requirements being asked for the yearbook on our before Saturday: Info Sheet, payment (50% would do), write-up, three 3R or 4R pictures in landscape format (kaartehan lang), etc. I haven't paid yet because the schedule for payment corresponding to our college are Thursdays-Saturdays. I don't have the 3 pictures yet; I'd probably pass 2 that were taken by a cellphone (that is not mine because my cellphone doesn't have a camera) or digital camera, which would have to be printed, and 1 old picture, probably a baby pic. I also don't have a write-up and if I still don't have it by Friday, I'll be using one of my testimonials.

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It's org recruitment over here and I'm thinking of joining an organization. When I was wandering around campus, I saw a banner basucally saying that it's org recruitment. What caught my eye is one of the sponsors: it's being sponsored by Tantra, a MMORPG that I recently stopped playing. I actually received an announcement of their campus tour in my e-mail last week but I was still surprised seeing their booth in school. I even saw one of the GMs. I know that's one of them because I was present when he introduced himself as so during the Games and Gadgets Convention in Megamall last January. The reasons why I stopped playing this game are

1. No load.
2. Its top-up cards are not as widely distributed as RO's, MU's or Khan's as far as I've seen.
3. My brother recently uninstalled the game; what more now that our PC needs reformatting? As much as possible, I'd rather play at home than in an internet cafe.
4. The lag is terrible, even if we use DSL. Ok, so we tried playing it on PLDT myDSL and Tantra is being powered by Bayantel. Do you think there's a conspiracy going on?
5. The bugs. I know that the other MMORPGs available in the local market are older, but how many months should it take before a bug can be fixed?

If I didn't have these problems on Tantra, I might play it again during weekends. I see it as a good game with poor management. Right now, ABS-CBN Interactive, Tantra's local distributor, is concentrating at getting new players. However, they are neglecting their old ones. I started playing that game last November, during closed beta. I know I just said that I'd rather play at home, yet I experienced playing Tantra in 2 different net cafes and I was the only one playing it. All the other gamers in these shops were playing DOTA. I played until I had summer classes. Now that it's pay-to-play (P2P), I don't see why I should spend my money if I don't see any improvement. Sayang talaga.

2005-05-31T16:54:00.000+08:00

Hindi pumasok ang last period prof ko ngayon kaya napag-isipan ko na magblog na lang. Anyway, sabi sa 'min ng 1st period prof sa TTh sched ko, magkakaroon nanaman ng palit sa prof dun sa klase na 'yon dahil nagkaroon ng reshuffling sa kung sinu-sino magtuturo sa ilan mga major subjects sa Psych. Err... ok. Wala sa amin ang nakakakilala sa replacement niya dahil bago. Sana hindi marami ang ipapagawa sa 'min nung bago tulad ng papalitan niya. Sana rin ay malinaw din siya magturo, 'di tulad ng isa sa mga naging prof ko dati (na wala na sa La Salle) na hindi namin maintindihan ang ipinapaliwanag niya. Ang masama pa nun math subject ang tinuturo niya eh mahina ako dun. Tungkol naman dun sa isa ko pang prof na naging prof ko uli for the 3rd consecutive term dahil sa reshuffling, mukhang totoo ang kasabihan sa Psych students ng DLSU-M na hindi ka makakagradweyt ng La Salle nang hindi mo naging prof yung tao.

Iniisip ko na lagyan ng permanent link 'tong blog na ito. May mga post ako noon na kung saan nababanggit ko ang nasulat ko dati. 'Pag ganun, nilalagyan ko ng link ng buwan kung saan matatagpuan yung entry na binanggit ko (naka-set sa monthly ang archives ko). Kaso mukhang dapat naka-enable yung title field para magkaroon ng permanent link. Hindi naman ako kadalasan naglalagay ng pamagat sa posts ko. Tapos naisip ko rin na hindi ko madalas magagamit 'yon dahil hindi ko natatandaan ang lahat ng sinulat ko sa blog na ito. Circa September 2003 pa ito. I also checked out my old entries at 'di ko alam kung bakit pero ang pangit ng labas nila sa screen. Meron mga sulat na lumalagpas sa "body" ng blog, meron naman yung magkadikit-dikit ang lahat ng lines to form 1 very long paragraph instead of the original several shorter ones. In short, nevermind >_<

Ano pa ba... napa-adik ko ang kababatang kapatid ko sa Death Note kagabi. Pag gising ko ng 5:30 a.m. kanina, nakita ko na nagbabasa pa rin siya nun sa kompyuter. Hindi pa siya natutulog nun dahil hindi niya mababa. Nagustuhan daw niya. "Ang tatalino naman ng mga tao dun!" wika niya. Hehe, 'yun ang isa sa mga appeal ng Death Note. Sa talino ng dalwang main characters doon, ma-iintriga ka kung sino sa kanila ang mag-outwit sa isa.

Hehe, sabog nanaman ako dahil sa dami ng ginagawa ko lately. Palipat-lipat ako from one unrelated topic to another. You see, I type as I go. Wala na talaga ako masabing iba pa, maliban na lang na katabi ko ngayon si "Mahusay", isa sa mga kabarkada ko (syempre batchmates ko nung High School ang nakakakilala sa kanya). Teka... nandito rin pala sa computer lab si Syun. I also tried answering this World View Test, and this is what I got (credit goes to Ava):

Existentialist - 69%
Cultural Creative - 69%
Modernist - 63%
Idealist - 63%
Postmodernist - 56%
Romanticist - 56%
Fundamentalist - 44%
Materialist - 38%

I guess this is all for now ^_^

2005-05-27T15:48:00.000+08:00

Recap ng mga pangyayari, starting with my last post:

May 16 & 17: The last 2 days of my summer classes. Actually, last 2 meetings ng Relstri. Wala na kasi kaming meeting sa Philper since Saturday, May 14. Hindi naman ako pumasok nung last meeting namin sa Philper kasi tinatamad akong pumasok ng Sabado ng hapon. Wala kaming meeting sa Relstri nung araw na 'yon dahil community service ng iba. Back to May 16 & 17, tipong last few lectures tsaka binigay yung mga tanong na pipiliin namin sagutin sa final paper namin.

May 18: Dumaan ako sa DLSU para magsubmit ng final paper. Pagkatapos, pumunta kami ng nanay ko sa West Ave, Q.C. para sunduin ang tita ko. Nang dumating kami sa West Ave, nagtanghalian muna kami bago kami pumunta ng Cavite. Naghahanap kasi ang tita ko ng mga gumamela na itatanim sa bakuran niya. Same goes for my mom kung may magustuhan din siya. Buti pa sila, may greenthumb. May nabili silang mga halaman pero hindi gumamela.

May 19: Showing ng Star Wars Episode III-Revenge of the Sith. Nagyayaya ang utol ko na samahan ko siya manood. Tinanggi ko dahil tinatamad ako tsaka gusto ko mag-enjoy ng konting panahon ko na nasa bahay ako ng buong araw. Nanood na lang siya mag-isa. Siya naman ang maka-Star Wars sa amin. Sa murang edad ay iilan beses na niya napanood ang Episodes IV-VI. Nakakanood ako ng Star Wars dahil sa kanya.

May 20: Course Card Distribution for summer term sa La Salle. Hindi ako nagpakita for the same reason kaya hindi ako nanood ng Revenge of the Sith. Sino naman ang magtiyatiyaga maglakbay ng isang oras (traffic included) para lang kumuha ng 2 course cards tapos uwi? Not me.

May 21 & 22: Nasa bahay pa rin, naghahanda ng gamit para sa pasukan. Kung nasa harap ako ng kompyuter sa bahay, either naglalaro ako ng Lineage 2 (private server nga lang kasi walang official local servers tapos pay-to-play yung international) o nagbabasa/nagdadownload ng manga scanlations.

May 23: 1st day nanaman. 1st class (MWF sched) - laking gulat namin sa klase at ang prof na magtuturo ay hindi yung nakalagay sa EAF (enrollment assessment form) namin. Worse, it's my Devpsyc & Sikopil prof who've I ranted about for 2 consecutive regular terms. 2nd class - Chinita prof na may mga chismaks sa iilan sa faculty. Warning daw 'pag pumili na kami ng mentor sa thesis. Makwento. Nagwarning din about sa pagpili ng kagrupo sa thesis. 3rd class - isa pang Chinita prof. Pinasagot kami ng 2 tanong bilang pang-introduce ng bawa't isa. 1st question was "What is my weirdest behavior?" Sabi ko may pagkaOC ako pag nagsusulat. Mahaba ang diskripsyon kung ano talaga ginagawa ko dun sa particular na OC habit ko kaya next time na lang =P 2nd question was "If I were to have a mental disorder, what could I possibly get?" Sabi ko paranoia.

May 24: 1st class (TTh sched) - 'eto pa, iba nanaman ang dumating na prof sa nakalista sa EAF. Siya yung prof ko last (regular) term na nagpagawa ng 5 research papers. 2nd class - ang ganda ng elective ko, Catholic Literature! >.> Ano tatalakayin namin? The Divine Comedy (Inferno, Purgatorio at Paradiso) ni Dante Alighieri, Canterbury Tales ni Geoffrey Chaucer, Paradise Lost ni John Milton, some poems, psalms, prayers in latin... kung may idea kayo sa at least 1 of the 1st 3 titles na nabanggit ko, sana gets ninyo yung coverage. Mukhang ok naman, compared to taking Tolkien, or Drama and Theatre. Gusto ko sana yung kay J.K. Rowling kaso full na (tandaan na sa July na po ang Harry Potter Book 6: The Half-Blood Prince ^_^). Bakla ang prof. 3rd class - 'Sus, isa pang baklang prof! Mas mataray nga lang itong isa. Ang arte ng accent; naalala ko tuloy yung Artapre prof ko. Katakot.

May 25: Simula na ng lectures. Wala pa naman masama nangyari, lalo na sa 1st period. Sinusubukan ko bumawi sa impression dun sa 1st period prof ko by reciting in class. Mahusay naman daw ang mga sagot ko sa mga tanong niya. Nagkaroon ng libreng concert featuring Parokya ni Edgar nung ala una ng hapon. Syempre sponsored ng Rexona (Let's do the funk! LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY FUNK!!!). Mas gusto ko pa rin yung last time na nagconcert sila sa DLSU, mas marami pa sila kinanta nun.

May 26: Pinaalala pa sa akin ng 1st period prof ko yung single-n experiment namin noon by making it into an example. Wala lang, didn't expect him to remember me although grupo namin ang laging nasa receiving end ng criticisms niya dun sa research papers. Pinaalala naman sa 'kin ng 2nd period prof ko yung mga bagay-bagay na dapat natutunan daw namin sa Litera1 at Litera2 nguni't ang huling beses na naranasan kong tinalakay ang mga 'yon ay nung nasa mataas na paaralan pa ako. Dahil maraming naturn-off sa 3rd period prof namin nung 1st meeting, may mga drop. Hinihintay ko na lang yun madissolve. Outside academics, napagalaman ko na gumamit daw ang Bayo ng art para sa designs ng pinakalatest line nila without permission of the artists. Meron pa ako narinig na nagrip-off din ang Session Road ng kanta. Tapos ang Gravity, ang kompanya na gumagawa ng Ragnarok Online sa South Korea, ay kinasuhan ng stock fraud. Kung hindi mababayaran ng Gravity ang damages sa isang taon o kung kelan man mahatulan ang kaso, it's bye bye Ragnarok dahil madadamay nito ang lahat ng official servers ng laro sa buong mundo, kasama ang Pilipinas. Basta hanapin niyo na lang sa online news dated around this week or last week about Gravity's case.

May 27: Wala pa rin masama nangyari sa 1st period. Hindi ko pa pinahiya ang sarili ko such that mapapahiya niya ako sa klase (gets?). Nagpropose naman kami ng topic na pwede ipang-thesis sa 2nd period kaso na-disappoint yung prof namin dun sa isang grupo (hindi kami 'yon). Buti pa yung isa pang grupo, approve na kaagad. Sa 3rd period, sinasagot namin kung true or false yung ilang statements about mental disorders and the people who suffer from them. Nagregister din ako para sa yearbook.

Bale, ito ang nangyari sa 'kin XD

2005-05-16T16:04:00.000+08:00

Straight from one of Ayah's diskettes, here's a reflection paper she wrote recently. Why? "Because I can," (Prieto, 2005) <- ang hindi makafigure out kung saan galing ang quote na ito ay hindi nanonood ng commercials sa local TV channels =P Eto, may time ako para magblog eh wala ako malagay. Teka, LPEP ng CBE nga pala ngayon. Bukas ang last day ng classes ko dahil wala kaming finals sabay pasukan nanaman uli sa Lunes ;_; So here's the reflection paper. Mahaba po ito kasi dapat at least 3 pages sa short bond paper ang required tapos 1.5 space.

Community Service at the Home for the Destitute and the Dying

^- I know it's a lame title

Some of the students from Mr. Raymundo's RELSTRI M72 class, including myself, had their community service in the Missionaries of Charity's Home for the Destitute and the Dying in Tayuman last May 8, 2005. It was a whole day affair, beginning at 8:00 a.m. and ending at past 3:00 p.m. In most of the participating students' cases, we met with our facilitator, Mr. Bong Quiamno, and assembled in the McDonald's branch beside DLSU on or before 7:30 a.m. of that Sunday. By 7:30 a.m., we went out of McDonald's, crossed Taft Avenue, and went to the LRT station. We rode the LRT going to Tayuman Station and when we dropped off there, we rode a jeepney going to Immaculate Conception Parish. Beside the parish is the Home for the Destitute and the Dying.

This was not the first time that I have been into a home for the aged. When I was in fourth year high school, our organization held their Christmas party in Hospicio de San Jose. In my visit to Hospicio de San Jose, our organization focused more on the elderly residents. I had the opportunity to talk with some of them. One that sticks to my mind from that visit was that of this grandmother whose children and their families are in Cebu. All of her children migrated there; however the old woman had a hard time traveling so the children decided to have their mother housed there. What striked to me in her story was that her children and their families manage to visit her there once in a while, during holidays. Of course, there were also stories from the other old people about them being disowned by their own families thus ending up there. The old people in the Home for the Destitute and the Dying more or less shared the latter.

It is still unthinkable for me how people could possibly throw out their own parents to the streets literally, especially that the occasion for the day of our community service was Mother's Day. I felt guilty that I was not spending the whole day with my mother, more so considering that she is a widow, but she told me that my education should go first. I would have chosen the other available schedule for community service for summer term had I not have another class aside from RELSTRI for this term. I am aware, nonetheless that there are a lot of possible factors why those people ended up in such a miserable place like the Home for the Destitute and the Dying.

For me, that place still lacks some amenities even if the residents there are living a simple life. When I looked inside the wards, it seems that the electric fans are too few to ease everyone from the scorching heat. It is a hassle for a hired help or a volunteer to drag plastic chairs with an occupant who cannot walk on each one of them when things like wheelchairs have been invented and are in use for decades. The one that raises my concern the most is that the residents who are mentally unstable are living alongside those who are not. Our facilitator explained that putting them in an institute that handles their kind of problems would aggravate their condition more.

If the facilities were not an eye-opener for me, doing simple chores do. That is how I initially got to interact with some of the elderly. Rendering service for others makes me feel good about myself because I do not useless. I finally got to converse with one of the elderly residents when I assisted her back to her ward. Her name is Salvacion and according to her, she has been living there for many years. I was too shy to ask why she ended there in the first place because I do not want to make her upset and it is rude in my part, bearing in my mind that we just met. Instead, I asked for her opinion about the facilities and treatment that she is getting in that place. She told me that sometimes the services are good, while in other times they are bad. She also told me that some of the people she is living with are mentally unstable and she is uncomfortable with that.

After our quick chat, I was informed that one of the old men had just died. Hearing this news knocked to my head the fact that this place is primarily a pre-departure area. Death is inevitable, yet if one is to die with not so satisfactory living conditions and services that are for the sake of a monthly salary instead of out of love, to me, it makes the last moments of these people's lives miserable. I went to the chapel to see the deceased. He was already lying in state in a simple wooden coffin that was painted in white. I feel sorry for the deceased that he died in a place where people like him are there because they have no home and no family to take care of him. Even when the whole activity ended with the processing, I did not see any mourners in that small chapel.

The community service also introduced me to a very interesting old woman named Basilisa "Sally" Berzuela Ces. We were amused to hear her tell her life story in fluent English, a story that moved me to try to help her somehow. She was a teacher in Bicol who could have published some textbooks had the publishers' conditions were good enough for her. The publisher wanted to buy her manuscript but in doing so, they would get most of profit. The royalties she would get had her works been published are meager. Around twenty years ago, she broke her pelvis in Manila and was not able to return to her family ever since. She also talked about her husband whom she hated. Our facilitator suddenly suggested that he might try to help her find her children. I also want to help except that I do not know anyone whom I am close to from that region. What really caught my attention is that she wanted to write a book about living in a home for the aged. I told her that she should pursue this idea because her situation is unusual for Filipinos, given our family-centered orientation. I wanted people to become more aware of this phenomenon. Lola Sally told me that she would do so if she had lots of paper and a typewriter. However, the nuns operating the nursing home would probably not allow having a typewriter donated in accordance to their principles. I am still looking forward to having this idea materialize.

This activity made me more aware of the reality in a nursing home here in the Philippines. While my previous visit to one was geared towards entertaining the elderly living there, this visit was closer to what really happens inside. What I have just said in this paper needs to be done and I want to act upon it. I feel sorry for the aged in these homes yet at the same time, they are fortunate that they are not wandering on the streets. It saddens me that there are people who could be so ungrateful but I am not one to generalize that. In the end, the people in those homes humbly wait for their time to finish but in their hearts, there might still be an emotional burden lingering.

2005-05-04T16:00:00.000+08:00

This is basically a continuation what I've posted yesterday.

At the rate and time span that we're having for summer classes, I hope nobody is thinking of having midterm exams. That's one less criterion to base our final grade, whether we like it or not. Also, it seems that the deadline for paying the tuition fee for incoming freshmen is at hand. I'm seeing more and more people lining up at the university's business office. Oh, and people with their x-rays. Before I know it, baka LPEP (freshmen's orientation) na pala.

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I don't know if it's just me pero ang dami kong nababalitaang mga namatay na lately. Kaso puro hindi ko kilala. Araw-araw, may namamatay nguni't kung gagawin mong tig-individual case, iilan na ang mga balita recently. Hindi ako nanonood ng news pero minsan nagbabasa ako ng dyaryo. Kanina, nalaman ko na wala na ang lola nung isa sa mga kaibigan ko sa high school (hindi ko muna ilalantad kung sino siya). Oo, parte ito ng buhay; sa katunayan nga eh ito ang huli. Kahit na ganun, nakakalungkot isipin tuwing may mabalitaan ako. Hindi ko sinasabi na sana walang kamatayan. Hello, overpopulated tayo (dito anyway).

Sa aming pananampalataya (kami ay Katoliko), naniniwala kami na may buhay na walang hanggan pagkatapos ng kamatayan. Ang problema ay mapapatunayan ba ito? Hindi kaya ito isang kathang isip na nilikha upang ma-comfort ang mga minamahal sa buhay ng taong namatay? Nakasalalay sa inyong paniniwala ang mga ganyang bagay. Hindi pa ako nakakakita ng multo nguni't ang ate ko nakakita't nakaramdam na, kasama na raw diyan ang aming ama. Hindi gaanong maganda ang relasyon ng ate at tatay ko. Hindi naman nanakot ang aming ama. Nagpakita rin siya sa isa sa mga kasambahay namin. Nung nangyari iyon, kung hindi ako nagkakamali rito, kakamatay lang niya nung araw na iyon. Hindi na siya nagpakita muli. Naabutan pa ng ate ko ang ama namin sa kanyang huling sandali; nahuli naman ako kaya iniisip ko na swerte siya kahit na nag-away sila noon. Kahit na hindi pa ako nakakakita ng multo, naniniwala ako na meron ngang multo at karugtong nito na may buhay na walang hanggan. Sana walang mananakot sa 'kin; ok pa kung magpapakita o magpaparamdam ^^

Ayan, napaaga ako sa pag-usap ukol sa ganitong bagay. Pang Okt. 31-Nov. 2 ang diskusyon ko rito.

2005-05-03T15:57:00.000+08:00

*Wonders if there are people who are wondering why I haven't updated this blog with a new entry despite the period being summer vacation*

I've just begun my second week of summer classes *damn space bar!*. Nakakanibago ng pakiramdam ang pagpasok sa ganitong panahon dahil karamihan ng mga estudyante ay hindi nag-eenroll sa mga ganito. Sino ba naman ang gustong isakripisyo ang bakasyon nila para mag-aral, lalung-lalo na kung trimester system ang ginagamit ng paaralan mo? Eh 'di mga gustong magbawas ng kanilang workload sa kolehiyo. Hindi ko pa muna isasama ang mga nagsummer dahil may bagsak. Yung iba nga eh may subject na tuwing summer term lang ino-offer, tulad ng mga taga-BS Psych (buti na lang at AB ang kinuha ko =P). Yung subject na 'yon na kanila lamang ay nag-iinvolve ng immersion sa isang komunidad. Ibig sabihin niyan ay kailangan nila manunuluyan doon. Ako? May binagsak ako dati. Inulit ko na siya kaya ang kinukuha ko ngayon ay ibang subject naman. Para hindi sayang ang pagbiyahe ko papunta at pauwi nang 6 na beses sa isang linggo, kumuha pa ako ng isa pang subject kaya 2 ang pinapasukan ko. Sa katunayan nga eh kakatapos kong magreport para sa isa sa mga subject na 'yon. Ang masasabi ko lang ay I need to improve. At least lumalabas ako ng bahay at nakakapagpalamig man lang. Grabe, ang init!!!

Kapag pumasok ka ng summer sa DLSU-M, advisable ang magbaon. Wala ka masyado makakain sa canteen tsaka 30 minutes lang ang break, kung magkasunod ang mga klase mo. Dapat lagi mo dala ang official receipt ng enrollment mo sa summer at hinahanap 'yan ng librarian tuwing papasok ka sa library at tuwing maghihiram ka ng libro, kaya hindi rin ito dapat iniiwan sa bag 'pag sinurrender mo sa baggage counter ng library. Hinahanap din ang O.R. tuwing gagamit ka ng computer lab (sa LS pa lang ako nakagamit. Hindi ko alam kung bukas rin yung iba). Unless ma-PR ka, maganda kung may kasama kang kakilala sa klase kasi cross-college ang section. Maghanda ka rin ng maraming barya kung yung kinuha mong subject ay maraming pinapabasa dahil araw-araw kang magpapazerox. Ito pa laman ang mga practical na bagay na natutunan ko.

Nakakanibago talaga ang summer term. Biglang tahimik ng campus. Wala masyadong tao kaya mukhang ok tumambay sa tambayan ng mga athlete at pep squad; wala nga lang ako oras. Walang concessionaires sa canteen, kakaunti lang ng mga available photocopiers, lagi kang pinapahanap ng O.R. Sa mga pinasukan kong klase, full siya tapos puro kayo galing sa iba't-ibang kolehiyo ng unibersidad. Kayo-kayo lang din ang kumukuha nung subject (well, dun sa isa kong pinasukan). Alam ko yung iba gusto pa rin mag-enjoy ng bakasyon nila kahit basahin nila ito pero... wala lang, I think people should try to experience this kung ang ginagawa lang din nila buong bakasyon ay tumanganga sa bahay. Iba talaga ng dating. Kung ayaw ninyo ng summer classes sa school, workshop na lang. Yun, hindi ko pa sinusubukan kaso isang taon na lang ako sa kolehiyo. Basta productive.

2005-04-05T11:04:00.000+08:00

I don't know why this always happens to me but once more, I made an entry, click the "Publish Post" button and that "Cannot find server"/"The page cannot be displayed" message occurs. Is it Blogger's or DLSU's internet connection's fault? I haven't blogged using our home PC for some time now; I usually blog in school. Then again, an error also happens sometimes whenever I go to another site such as Friendster when I click on a profile or a bulletin board message after I have logged-in. I guess I should copy and paste my entry on Notepad or MS Word before I publish my post. The same goes with long HaloScan messages because HaloScan truncates messages when they exceed 1000 characters.

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(Original Message... well, what I remember of it anyway ^^')

It's funny that my blog's name is Perspective (I now think that it's a lame name for a blog) yet I don't usually give commentaries on current issues. I probably would have done more of those if time had not flown so quickly. So... here's my say about the pope's passing:

While I did not get teary-eyed on the news, nakakanibago ito ng pakiramdam. Syempre nalungkot ako nguni't nangibabaw ang paninibago ko sa sitwasyon. Pope John Paul II was already the pope when I was born and 2 decades later, it is unusual for me to hear that such an important figure had passed away. I know that he is old and he is suffering from different ailments, the most prominent being Parkinson's disease, but he continued his mission of leading his flock in such a state that it did not run into my mind that his time on earth would end at a more rapid rate then I thought. He was a very respected person and very influential, much more than Santa Claus I hope. I may not be a devout Catholic but I would have like to have met him in person had he still been alive. Of course, his passing is not the end of all. In Christian doctrine, we have eternal life after we die so following this notion, he should be transcending to that state.

While others continue to mourn over his death, I wonder about what his successor would be like. Would the next pope be Italian or not? Would he be able to rise above his immediate predecessor's shadow given the latter's popularity among the people of the world? Would he be able to tighten more the bonds between Christianity and the other faiths? Would he be as traditional as the previous popes, or would he welcome the radical changes that liberal Christians lobby for such as artificial contraception and female priests? I do hope that whoever gets elected as the new pope is capable of handling the burden that the ones before him had left. I pray that he will do his job well especially in these troubled times.

EDIT:
It seems that Blogger's "BlogThis!" feature in its navbar (the bar on top of blogs hosted by Blogspot) works more reliably than going through the main website when posting. It could also be a coincidence.

2005-03-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

Once again, nagtayp ako ng entry tapos 'pag pindot ko ng "Publish Post" button, nagka-error. Gusto ko sana magmura dito kaso Good Friday ngayon.

Ang pangit at ilang linggo na ang nakalipas pero ang latest entry mo ay tungkol pa rin sa away ninyo ng ate mo. May pasok pa rin kami dito. April 12 ang latest na may pasok dahil finals week na nun eh hindi ko pa alam kung kelan ang last exam ko. Pagkatapos nun, may 1 week vacation ako dahil may summer class pa ako. Nag-enroll ako sa summer term para magbawas ng load sa last term ko, which would be on January-April 2006. Matagal na kami ok ng ate ko. Oo, at hindi kami close ng ate ko. Nakakalungkot pero hirap ako magkonek sa kanya at 6 taon ang agwat namin. Prep pa lang ako eh 1st year HS na siya. Tapos, bihira ko na rin siya kung makita kahit na nakatira kami sa ilalim ng iisang bubong. Kung wala siya sa trabaho (systems analyst siya sa isang American company na may office din dito sa Pilipinas. Ang sinusunod nila doon ay schedule ng mga Kano sa U.S. kaya kahit Biyernes Santo, may pasok pa rin siya), may date siya ng BF niya o kaya gimik. Minsan nga, naiimbita siya sa kasal ng kaibigan niya kaya wala siya buong araw. Nasa edad na siya kung kelan ang mga taong kasama niya ay nagpapakasal na kung magpapakasal.

Binasa ko ang blog nina Gemie at KC at pareho ang sentiments namin sa isa sa prof namin. Biruin mo, this is a test question:

1. Ang pagtatanong ba ay maihahalintulad sa "Impormal na interbyu"
a) totoo
b) totoong-totoo
c) hindi totoo
d) hinding- hindi totoo

So it's a 75-item test na ang time alotted for answering is only 30 mins, but that's not what I'm upset about. Pinapaulit sa 'min ang pakikipagkwentuhan kung kelan Holy Week! Due pa naman ito on or before Monday. Ang baba niya magbigay ng grade! Nanggaling na ako ng Bulacan, nagbayad ng 156 pesos pang-toll (roundtrip na 'yan), ginawa ko ito ng solo (may additional points raw kung solo mo gagawin tapos sa probinsiya. May plus points din kung recycled paper ang gagamitin sa hard copy), bumili ng tape recorder at blank tape para sa subject niya tapos isang malaking itlog ang makukuha ko?! Where's the additional points? Nung nakita ko ang score, cancelled out ang bonus points ko sa minuses. Ginawang right minus wrong ang transcript namin! Nakakaasar talaga tapos ang laki-laki ng porsyento nito sa final grade namin iyan. Paano ba kami papasa sa subject niya kung ganyan ang pinapagawa?

2005-03-07T11:34:00.000+08:00

Nagalit sa 'kin ang ate ko kanina. Hindi ko kasi siya sinasagot. Nagmukha akong walang pake kaya sinabi niya sa 'kin "WALA KA NA IBANG INISIP KUNDI SARILI MO!" (syempre, pasigaw 'yan). What else does she expect from me na kanyang ginising by shouting "NAKAKAINIS KA!"? Lagi na lang ganyan ang away namin that it pisses me off. Nothing new. I admit that I did something wrong and that's sleeping late when we all know na may klase ako ngayon at maaga ang pasok ko. Ang plano eh sasabay siya sa 'kin papasok tapos dapat nasa opisina siya by 8. Nagsisimula ang klase ko ng 9:20. Nagising na ako ng 7:30. Kung ganyanan lang dapat hindi na niya ako hinintay. Gastos nga sa gasolina pero ayoko naman lumala ang away. Maliit itong bagay nguni't sa palagay ko lagi nacacarry-over yung inis niya sa 'kin sa huli namin away sa bago kaya ayoko talaga siya makaharap 'pag galit siya. Kulang lang talaga ako sa pakikipagkapwa-tao *sighs*.

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Here I am, still busy, still procrastinating. Well, it's not as bad as the other terms because most of things I need to do are group works. Kailangan may mapasa akong input o lagot ako sa mga kagrupo ko. Feel ko nga mas tamad pa sa akin yung ilan sa mga kagrupo ko.

Sa katamaran kong pagbutihan pa lalo ang mga ipapasa ko, nadiscover ko ang Anime-Source.Com (sabay daw pinagsabihan ng mga anime/manga otaku "Ngayon mo lang nalaman 'yan?"). Daming info; kahit listahan ng upcoming anime meron. Wah! Gusto ko mapanood yung Tsubasa (Reservoir) Chronicle anime. Miss ko na ang pagbabasa ng mga scanlations nito at ng XXXholic bago sila na-license ;_; Nadiscover ko ito dahil naghahanap ako ng scanlations ng Death Note. Maganda raw ito, sabi ng mga nabasa kong fan reviews in some of the forums na nadadaanan ko besides the ones na naka-link sa blog ko (naka-link = member ako doon). The nice thing about the website is that you can view the scanlations without downloading them. Dami rin interesting titles na available din dun tulad ng Full Moon wo Sagashite, Kimagure Orange Road, Monster, My-HIME (lahat ng nabanggit ko so far may anime na; yung last 2 ongoing pa, see Memento), etc. Sayang at hindi ko naabutan ang Full Metal Alchemist manga T.T Para sa'kin, ang gusto kong subukan ay ang Death Note, FMwS (dahil pinag-iintriga ko na ito since last September at maganda raw ang anime, sabi ni Syun), Pretty Face (dahil nasimulan ko na siya basahin ito bago ko pa nalaman ang site)... I'll definitely check out the other public ones 'pag natapos ko na basahin ang mga ito at ang Yami no Matsuei scanlations na nakasave sa kompyuter ko matagal na. Sa mga nagtataka, hindi ako nakakanood nito dati nang may AXN pa ang Destiny Cable. Kailangan ko rin hanapin uli yung pinagdownload ko ng Mantantei Loki Ragnarok scanlations at nawala ang mga iyon nang i-reformat ang PC namin. Hehe, mukhang handa ako para sa bakasyon ^_^

2005-02-22T14:29:00.000+08:00

Damn.

May natayp na ako kanina tapos nang pindutin ko ang "Publish Post" button, error ang lumabas. Putcha.

Anyway, I'm annoyed that there are still ALOT of things I must do and that I shouldn't have left home kung magcucut din pala ako ng klase dahil kahit pumasok pa ako eh marked absent na ako. Tsaka pinahiya ako ng isa sa mga prof ko. Bwiset!

2005-02-04T14:08:00.000+08:00

Sabi ko nga ba't matrabaho 'tong term na ito. Ngayon lang kasi ako nakapag-blog uli. Ok, so maybe I do have a bit of time in between such that I joined more fanlistings but that, adding some other stuff in here (can you see the difference?), reading this webcomic, answering a couple of Friendster surveys (himala! I seldom do that), checking/replying/forwarding my e-mail are all I do when I'm online. No MMORPG playing nor forum lurking/posting. Matagal ko na gusto masubukan ang MegaTokyo, VG Cats, Penny Arcade, 8-Bit Theatre and even The 10k Commotion kaso I need LOTS of time reading them from the beginning up to the latest strip. If you guys know any other good webcomic, please give me the link at the Haloscan comment at the end of this entry. It's the ellipsis/"..." if it's empty, exclamation point/s if someone already replied ^_^

Harassed na harassed ako for the last two weeks doing a couple of major papers with my groupmates (complete with abstract, introduction, review of related literature, etc... alam ninyo 'yan! Sa Research study at survey, NOT an experiment, kami kumuha ng data), some pagtatanong-tanong with transcript, and a project proposal na laging pinaparevise. Next week, may isusubmit pa akong take-home exam na essay type, some assignments, rewritten major papers (hindi ako nagcram pero hindi rin ako natulog para hintayin yung parts ng iba at tapusin yung dalawang 'yon na kung ibigay eh isang linggo lang ang preparation tapos ipaparewrite pa yung buong 1st paper?! Ang dami raw mali such that ayaw magbigay ng grade ang prof ko sa 1st paper) plus do another pagtatanong-tanong, this time with a group of people instead of individuals. Wait... pagkwekwentuhan na ata 'yan. Absent kasi ako sa 1st class ko kahapon para tapusin yung 2nd major paper ko tapos yun ang sabi sa 'kin ng isa sa mga kaklase ko roon nang nagtanong ako sa kanya kung may assignment na binigay. Hindi rin mawawala ang pagbabasa ng readings at mag-aral for short quizzes. Dapat nga masimulan ko magbasa ng libro na gagawan ko ng reaction paper sa Litera2 at pangmidterm ko 'yon.

Given the circumstances, I think that I won't be able to update this blog for some weeks. Ang midterms namin is around this month kaya malabo na ang sunod ay sometime within the third or last week of Feb. Hmm... makigamit na nga ng Bloglet since this blog isn't powered by Blog Drive na kung saan automatically may ganun. Gamitin ninyo ha!

2005-01-12T14:16:00.001+08:00

I never thought that the 1st week of classes could be so busy! Pramis!^_^ It's the start of the 3rd term over here and I submitted 2 assignments in 1 subject, read 4 chapters total for 2 subjects and had a short quiz awhile ago. I wonder if there are those who'll say "I had worse in my 1st week!". It isn't that bad but when you're still hungover from Christmas break, you'd go "What, quiz kaagad?!" on something you've just read and hasn't discussed yet in class. I know that's how some teachers chack if you've been reading.

For this term, I'm taking up 5 majors and 1 floating. My major subjects are: Experimental Psychology (Expsych), Experimental Psychology - laboratory (Expsyla), Methods of Research 1 (Metres1), Cognitive Psychology (Cogpsyc) and Sikolohiyang Pilipino (Sikopil). My only floating subject is Literature 2 (Litera2), which tackles world literature as opposed to Litera1 (Filipino literature). Given the majors I'm taking now, I'm guessing that there's less memorization involved compared to last term. If you're taking up Developmental Psychology (Devpsyc) and Theories of Personality (Theoper), you should recall the different theories that goes under each subject and they're A LOT! Thank goodness that I haven't taken up Biological Psychology given the teacher who's teaching last term and this term because I'd be memorizing brain parts and their functions. The brain as an organ isn't exactly what I'm interested at in Psychology. Add a Statistics class with its formulas last term and I'm pretty busy with those last trimester.

However, I'm also guessing that we'd be much busier than last term. With names that have the words "Experiment" or "Research" in it, it shouldn't be surprising if we do a lot of activities that involve both. Last week, my Metres1 prof sent us out of the classroom to perform a short experiment. We were asked to smile at 2 strangers, 1 male and 1 female, in separate occassions and see if they smile back. Being the shy and not-so cheerful girl that I am, it wasn't easy for me to do that. We should be away from each other when doing it. Nakakaconcious lalo na kung guy ang ngingitiin ko. Try as I may, I know it's a fake smile that appeared on my lips. Last Monday was a bit easier. We were sent out again but this time, to interview strangers. Dapat hiwalay kami nanaman. The questions were "IF you smile at a (male/female) stranger, do you think that person would smile back at you?" and "WHEN you smile at a (male/female) stranger, do you think that person would smile back at you?". Note that the 2 questions are actually different. I asked 1 guy using the IF question twice, 1 for male and the other female. I also asked the same question to 1 girl in the same way. I asked the WHEN question to 1 guy and 1 girl in the same manner I delivered the IF question. If experimentation and using other methods of research are to be done by groups often, I hope there's no social loafing involved so help me God. Social loafing BTW is when people slack off in group activites because they believe that someone's doing the job anyway.

Unlike last term where I have at least a couple of blockmates in a major, this term I barely had any blockmates in the same section with the exception of Sikopil. Thank goodness that I have my kabarkada Tina in 3 out of the 5 majors I'm taking. It was originally 4 but Tina decided to drop Sikopil because she was afraid of the prof. Me? I survived being under that prof in Devpsyc so I guess I can do it again. Besides, I don't know where to adjust. The reason why he's my prof because the other section for Sikopil taught by another prof was already closed when Tina, my blockmates and I enrolled. So ngayon, sumasama ako sa mga kasama ni Tina na Psych majors, some of them from the batch right ahead of us na nagshift to Psych. It's weird but right now, I feel a bit more comfortable sa mga kasama ni Tina na Psych majors din (kasi kaklase ko rin sila sa halos lahat ng sections na kinuha ko) kesa sa blockmates ko. Hindi na ako maka-relate sa blockmates ko. It also happens that I share the same 1st name with one of my classmates this term. Buti na lang at may nickname siya so yun ang tawag namin sa kanya. Wala akong nickname per se.

Yung teacher ko sa Litera2 reminds me of a couple of my lit teachers back in High School - young, bubbly, hindi boring (yung subject matter ang boring), etc. To complete the "back in High School" feel, kaklase ko rin ang 2-3 sa batchmates ko nung High School. Dalawa sa kanila hindi ako comfortable up to now. So... hanggang dito lang muna. Sorry kung bitin kaso malapit na rin magklase.

2005-01-05T13:55:00.000+08:00

Maikling post muna.

Una sa lahat, Happy 3 Kings sa lahat ng dumadalaw sa blog ko. Pasensya na sa iba na 'di ko kilala personally pero naka-link sa 'kin at hindi ko man lang kayo nabati ng Merry X-mas at Happy New Year sa tagboards ninyo. Hirap ako makagamit ng kompyuter tuwing bakasyon at may kapatid akong adik sa Tantra at R.O.S.E. Kahit ako ay nawiwili rin maglaro ng mga ito. Welcome nga pala kina Mae_noodle, Riddler, Mrcx, Ella, Aaron, Ralph at Mark. Yung KC d'yan ay isa ko pang blockmate pero hindi niya alam tungkol dito. Si Funyak, kaya pala hindi na nag-uupdate sa isa niyang blog ay dahil sa nakalimutan niya ang password doon so gumawa siya ng LJ.

Unang araw ng pasok ko ngayon ngunit 2 klase pa lang ang napapasukan ko. Baka sa Biyernes pa akong magkukwento tungkol dito kaya nasabi ko na "maikling post muna" sa taas. Ayun, mga 1st impressions. Sa sched ko tuwing MWF, may break ako na one & a half hours maliban pa sa isa pang 1 hour break. Dun ko balak magblog uli. Iniisip ko nga kung maging student assistant kaya ako para pampalipas oras kaso qualified ba ako? May bagsak na ako, may minor offense pa dahil nawala ko ang ID ko + 2 beses na "reported" na naiwan. Stupid rule.

Nagcheck ako kanina ng grades ko sa My.LaSalle tapos dun sa subject na binagsak ko last term (see previous entry), naging 1.0! Ano ba talaga? Syempre mas gugustuhin ko na uno kesa sa wala. I mean, paano ba ako babagsak dahil lang sa dalawang reaction papers na hindi ko naipasa in a non-writing class? But I still have doubts about it until I receive my transcript through snail mail; sa bagal eh patapos na ang term bago ko makuha ang transcript ko of the previous term. Naalala ko tuloy yung grade ko sa International Studies. Yung nasa course card: tres. Sa mail: dos. Kahit gusto ko na tres ang grade ko don, it's too good to be true na ganun ang grade ko. Besides, nang i-compute ang pre-final grade ko, dos talaga ang lumabas.

So... ito muna ang update sa buhay ko. Ang dami kong pwedeng ilagay dito ngunit wala akong oras. Hanggang sa muli.

EDIT (at a later time as well):
I WAS supposed to post yesterday, January 7, but everytime I log-in to Blogger, an account other than mine appears O_o That happened in one of the computer labs in school BTW. My brother wants me to accompany him in the G2 Con later so my next entry would probably be on Monday on the earliest. I just hope that not all the PCs in school would foul up on me. I don't think I'll be able to update tomorrow (Sunday, January 9) because I'm planning to download episode 13 of Gundam SEED Destiny. I'm liking this sequel more so far than its predecessor and I've been waiting for this episode for 2 weeks since no episode was aired in Japan last week. New Year is a big deal to the Japanese. In case you guys don't know what I'm talking about, its predecessor is Gundam SEED, which is currently being aired dubbed in ABS-CBN (M-F, 6 p.m. GMT+8) and Cartoon Network (M-Th, 7:30 p.m., same time zone). In Japan, SEED Destiny is aired every Saturday, 5:30 p.m. Philippine time. Fansubs appear as early as Sunday.

Added to the list of bloggers is Lance who grew up outside the Philippines but has returned here so I decided to speak in straight english for this update. That doesn't mean I'll be speaking in straight english in all my upcoming posts ^_^

2004-12-20T15:48:00.000+08:00

Babala: Ang mga sumusunod na talata ay naglalaman ng wikang 'di angkop sa mga bata. Patnubay ng magulang ay kailangan.

Paggising ko sa umaga ngayon, nadarama ko na ang puso ko ay tumitibok ng mas malakas na para bang may gustong ipahiwatig sa 'kin ang bawat tibok.

Kors kards ngayon. Kors kards ngayon.

Nangamba ako. Shet! Kinakabahan ako! Patay! Ayokong bumangon. Paano ba naman eh hindi ako makatulog kagabi dahil sa takot. Napansin ko ang nakakabulag na sinag ng araw na siyang dumaan sa bintana ng kwarto. Anong oras na ba? Sana isang panaginip lang 'to. Bigla kong nasilayan ang cellphone sa tabi ko. Inaabot ko ito at tumingin sa oras na lumalabas sa screen nito. 8:30 am... shet!! Naalala ko na alas otcho hanggang alas nuebe y medya ang labas ng tatlo sa course cards ko. Hindi ako makakaabot sa oras dahil alam ko na matrapik na sa South Super Highway o sa Roxas Boulevard kaya nagtet ako sa isang kaklase ko.

ei! fvor nman. pwd pkha ng cors crds ko sa mjrs ntn xcpt 4 dvpsyc. kunin ko syo mamaya. tnghali kc ako ng gcing. thx!

Bumangon ako sa aking higaan, inayos ito at nagtupi ng kumot nang nagreply itong si klasmeyt:

ok =)

Ayos. Itinuloy ko na ang mga ritwal ko sa umaga: maligo, magbihis, kumain ng agahan at umalis ng bahay.

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Nang pagpasok ko sa silid aralan, napalakas lalo ang tibok ng puso. Wah! Siguradong mababa ang makukuha ko dito. Teka, may tumatawag yata sa 'kin. Kinausap ako ng isa sa mga kaklase ko sa subject na 'yon.

kaklase: Kamusta?
ako: 'Eto, kinakabahan sa grade ko dito.
kaklase: Bakit, hindi ka ba pumunta sa pre-final?
ako: Punyeta, huwag mo paalala sa 'kin iyan! Oo.
kaklase: Ah.

Dumami ang mga tao nagsipasok sa kwarto't naging SRO. Hinintay ko ang pagdating ng prof ko. Bawat sigundo, bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Ilang sandali na lang at sasabog ito sa kaba. Sana hindi siya dumating. Sana hindi siya dumating. Maya-maya, isang malaking lalake ang dumating. Sana hindi mababa ang grade ko. Sana hindi mababa ang grade ko! Umupo sa harap ang prf namin, inalabas ang course cards, tinanggal ang rubber band at nagwika, "Ang grade niyo dito ay final na. Hindi na ako mag-eentertain pa ng mga pagbabago dito. Napag-usapan na natin 'yan nung (isang) Sabado." Putcha! Konti na lang at hihimatayin na yata ako sa anunsiyo niya. Nagtawag na ng mga pangalan ang prof ko. Parang gusto ko nang kumatok sa langit at humiling ng himala. Nanginginig na ako kahit na hindi malamig ang silid. Naririnig ko ang mga kaklase ko banggitin ang grado nila kung sila ay pumasa. "Yes! Tres ako," "Ang baba naman, dos singko," "Uno lang ako," atbp.

Nang tawagin na niya ang pangalan ko, boom! Akala ko may bumato sa ulo ko't napatungaga ako sa prof ko. Heto na 'yon. Breathe deeply. Calm down. Unti-unti akong tumayo sa aking inuupuan at dahan-dahan kong lumapit sa harap upang hindi makabangga ng tao sa masikip na silid na 'yon. Sa mesa ng titser, inilapag ng prof ko ang course card ko na nakatalikod. Tinignan niya ako mabuti bago niya inabot sa 'kin ito. Masama ang kutob ko. Hindi kaya... Umalis kaagad ako sa kwarto ngunit bago ako lumabas sa pinto, nasilipan ko ang laman ng kahon na nasa taas ng katagang FINAL GRADE.

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Sa mga sandaling iyon, gusto kong maglaho. Hindi ako makapaniwala. Dalawang bilog ang nakasulat sa loob ng kahon. Pakshet!!! Paano 'to nangyari? Kahit sa mga sandaling ito, hindi ko maisip na bagsak nanaman ako. Ang masakit pa ay hindi ito isang major kundi isang floating. FLOATING!!!

Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit nagkaganito ang grade ko. Nakuha ko na ang tatlong course cards na pinakuha ko sa kaklase kong isa at ang isa pang course card para sa natitirang major. Dapat masaya ako dahil may dalawa akong 3.0 at dalawang 3.5; lahat ng mga 'yon sa majors pero hindi! Oo at mababa ang midterm exam grade ko sa floating na 'yon. Oo at hindi ako nakapagpasa ng dalawang papel. Wala akong ideya kung gaano kalaki ang epekto ng mga papel na iyon sa grado ko. Ang buong akala ko ay kung may ibabagsak man ako ngayon, doon sa isa ko pang floating.

Tama ang mga nabasa ninyo, may kutob ako na bagsak ako doon sa isa ko pang floating subject. Bakit ko nasabi 'yon? May dalawang papel din ako para doon na hindi ako napasa. Ang sa alam ko, mas malaki ang mga epekto sa grade ang mga ito kesa sa mga papel sa nabagsak ko. Sa ngayon, hindi ko alam kung bagsak na rin ako doon; hinihintay ko pa ang pagbigay nito kaya nagawa ko pang magblog. Hindi naman ako bagsak sa midterm grade ko dun sa isa samantala yung iba ay mababa talaga. Pero hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit bumagsak ako sa isa.

Ito ang pangalawang bagsak ko ngayon sa kolehiyo. Talagang hindi ko maitatago ito sa nanay ko't kailangan ko magsummer kung hindi ako pwede magoverload sa huling term ko. Kung bagsak din ako sa isa, ano kaya ang mangyayari sa 'kin? Kickout na ba ako? Bihira ako magcut ng klase. Nung nagcut ako, hindi ito para sa maglaro ng Ragnarok sa mga com shop pero para tapusin ang gawain ko sa ibang subject. Isang beses lang ako gumimik ng gabing-gabi (as in umuwi ako ng alas dos ng madaling araw) para mag-inuman at mas lalo hindi ako nagyoyosi kaya malabo ang magcut ako ng klase upang tumambay sa Agno. Ang sakit isipin na ang dahilan ng problema ko ay kapapabayaan sa pag-aaral ko. Hindi ko magawa na bigyan ng pantay-pantay na pokus sa lahat ng mga asignaturang kinukuha ko. Matagal na bagay ang pagiging mataas ang marka sa isa habang mababa sa isa pa ngunit sobra na ito. Alam ko na lahat ng tao na nakilala ko, pati na ang sarili kong pamilya, ang hindi makakapaniwala sa sinapit ko ngunit ito ay totoo. Itong taong ito ay bumabagsak. Oo, ang tataas ng marka ko sa majors pero paano ang floating? Kaya hindi ko gustong kumukuha ng floating dahil alam ko na ito ang nagpapahila sa 'kin ng pababa sa GPA. Baliktad ako no? Basta, hindi masaya ang Pasko ko ngayon. Sermon ang aabutin ko rito, lalo na kung nalaman ng pamilya ko na pangalawang bagsak ko na ito. Biruin ninyo, nakalusot pa ako sa unang beses. Nagtataka ako noon pa kung paano pa ako umabot ng kolehiyo, kung paano pa ako natanggap sa degree program na kinukuha ko sa sama ng studying habits ko.

Oras na pala upang alamin ang grado na nakasulat sa huling course card ko. Kung ano man ang nakalagay doon, tanggap ko ang responsibilidad na binibitiw nito. Wala rin ako magagawa. Huli na. Kahit na hindi ako gaanong relihiyoso ngayon, mananalangin ako na sana hindi ako itakwil ng magandang hinaharap dahil sa mga aksyon ko.

EDIT (at a later time):
Hindi ako bumagsak sa isa ko pang floating. Uno lang. Kung sabagay ay hindi ko kailangan mag-adjust dahil ang kinuha kong floating para sa susunod na term ay nangangailangan na ipasa ko yung floating ko na uno.

2004-12-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

Phew! Finally changed my layout. I hope you guys like it. Too bad hindi ako gumawa niyan. Hahahahaha! Wala nga kaming Photoshop dito sa PC namin. Pero gusto ko 'tong layout na ito. Maganda ang color combo at yung art na ginamit. The art BTW is from a Gothic Lolita artbook by Mihara Mitsukazu. Speaking of Gothic Lolita...

You are a ~*Victorian Maiden*~
You look adorable, but cold what makes you seem
unreachable. You are never seen without an
umbrella. The colour of your dress is mostly
dark. Your favorite Lolita brand is
"Victorian maiden" of course.
^^"
You are always trying to act like a real Victorian
lady would have acted... and that's what you
are: a real lady... =^.^=

What kind of Gothic Lolita are you? (Japanese - Lifestyle for girls)
brought to you by Quizilla

Kung tatanongin ninyo ako, yung ayos na "Victorian Maiden" Gothic Lolita isn't really Victorian. Can't really tell what kind of Gothic Lolita yung nasa layout; I need to see the whole pic. Hula ko yung elegant Gothic Lolita. Gothic Lolita nga pala, sa pagkakaintindi ko, is a kind of Goth based on their fashion sense pero may subgroups pa 'yan. Feel ko sa Japan pampaporma lang 'yan at sa ugali hindi mo talaga masasabi kung Goth nga. I could be wrong because I'm definitely am not a Goth. Alam ko hindi lang sa Japan ang Gothic Lolita unless I'm confusing it with Vampire Goth.

Nakakatuwa na yung art is supposed to depict a Goth pero yung mga kulay na ginamit dito ay bright at vivid. Ang girly nga eh. Yung countdown nga pala, tatanggalin ko 'yan after the New Year kasama yung "Users Online" counter. In the meantime, I want feedback if the loading speed has improved or not. Thank you.

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Today is finals week sa school namin and I only have 2 written exams. Yung isa "take-home" pero due siya on the same day. That was yesterday. The test was for a major subject at kaya siya take-home dahil sa isang part, we interviewed someone using questions that we were asked to make for this exam. Pinagsubmit sa 'min yung responses as well as categorize where the responses belong. Exempted naman ako sa other written final exam (for a major din). Ang gagawin ko na lang ay magsubmit ng papers (2 iyon). I hope that I don't fail again. Nakakabadtrip at mababa ako sa mga floating.

Gawd, can't believe I survived last Friday! Paano, lahat ng subjects ko nung araw na 'yon may gagawin ako. I had a report, 3 exams, a presentation and a paper! Nagkataon lang at nagkasabay-sabay sila dahil sa dalawang suspended classes at isang holiday. Nung Immaculate Conception, nasa dorm ako ng kagrupo ko sa Litera1 (na malapit sa bahay ni Cwissy) buong araw para sa drama presentation namin noong Friday. Dadaan sana ako sa kanila after the rehearsal kaso nang tumawag ako sa bahay nila, wala rin siya. Basta ganyan ka-busy ang mga tao.

Pagkatapos ko nang i-submit yung 2 paper ko bukas (encode ko na lang yung isa; the other i-revise), makakarelax ako ng konti. Kinakabahan talaga ako dun sa floating. Ayoko ng floating, hassle kung hindi ko gusto. Sayang nga lang kung i-drop ko at kailangan kong kumuha ng certain number of units para makagraduate. Kung nahihirapan pa ako sa majors eh pansalba ko sa GPA ang floating pero mukahang ito ang nagpapahila pababa ng GPA ko.

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Sa listahan ng mga blogs na na-link ko, binago ko na yung kay Pat at pinalit ko into Patty XD Ok rin ang name niya, kapangalan niya ang isang sexy actress. Hehe! Nilagay ko na rin yung mga livejournals nina Bom, Cwissy at Funyak lalo na't bihira kung magsulat sa other blog nila yung latter 2. Na-add ko rin ang Humanposer blog ni Bom.

Nilagay ko din dito ngayon ang blog ng blockmate ko, si Gemie. Hindi nga lang ako naka-plug sa kanya =P May isa pa kaming blockmate na may livejournal kaso nakalimutan ko na yung URL. Itong si Gemie, kung sinu-sino ang mga koneksyon niyan. Basta sa unanag pic na lalabas sa scrolling marquee, kasama niya si Yael Yuzon, vocalist ng Spongecola. Kung babasahin mo ang posts niya, oo magkakilala sila. Iba talaga kung sikat ang tatay mo o magkaklase noong highschool ang mga kuya nila ^^' Bongga 'tong babae ito. Aaminin ko na hindi kami close nito kahit na siya ang katabi ko sa Friendster pic ko (sa camera niya kinuha 'yon. She uploaded it and I used it) pero ok siya. Actually, pwedeng sabihin na wala talaga akong ka-close sa block but I get along with them. A basta, daan na lang kayo.

NOTE: Ayah is NOT my real name per se but a part of it; sa apelyido nga eh. At hindi alam ni Gem tungkol dito.

Parang ang sama ko sa sasabihin ko ngayon pero kung naging pangulo ng Pilipinas si FPJ, wala rin kung maikli ang term niya. Oh well, R.I.P. Da King.

Happy Birthday sa 17th, Cwissy and Tina!!

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Nakuha ko ito sa e-mail. Padala ito ng blockmate ko. Enjoy! ^_^

PITONG GININTUANG ARAL NI MARIO

si mario ang idol ko.

kumakain ng gulay, pumapatay ng mga masasamang pagong, hindi

nalulunod, nakakasakay sa mga dinosaurs, nakakapagbuga ng apoy,

matinik sa tsiks, mayaman, maraming buhay, lumilipad, mabilis, bibo,

kayang sumira ng hollow blocks gamit ang ulo at higit sa lahat,

napapatay niya ang mga kalaban hindi dahil sa lakas ng katawan, ngunit

dahil isa siyang astig na nilalang.

para sa akin, nagawa na ni mario ang lahat.

umakyat siya ng mga matatayog na bundok, nilusob niya ang mga haunted

house na puno ng impakto, inaabot niya ang ulap, nagsscuba diving,

naninira ng mga kaharian. ginawa na niya ang mga pwede pang gawin ng

ibang mga characters sa laro.

hindi lang si mario ang nagsilbing inspirasyon at ang training ko sa

paglalaro ng video games, pero kahit sa buhay, siya ang naging idolo

ko.

1) tinuruan ako ni mario kung paano magmahal.

baket ba parating hinahabol ni mario si koopa? isa lang naman talaga

ang dahilan, kinikidnap ni koopa ang kanyang minamahal, si princess

toadstool. taenang koopa yan, ano kayang gusto niya don sa babaeng

yon? di naman niya nirarape.. skwater, nagpapahabol lang talaga siya

kay mario. pero ayon, si mario, ginagawa ang lahat para lang maligtas

ang kanyang minamahal.. kung walang pagmamahal si mario sa katawan

niya, taena, hinayaan na niyang mamatay o marape dati pa si princess

toadstool. tinuruan ako ni mario na ganon dapat magmahal. kung mayroon

kang taong iniibig, gagawin mo ang lahat, lulusubin mo ang kung ano

man para sa kanya.

may nakukuha ba si mario sa princess pag naliligtas niya yon? wala.

walang pera, walang buhay, walang extra stage. kiss lang. matapos ang

lagpas 20 na worlds at mga sampung stages bawat world, kiss lang ang

binibigay sa kanya. pero sa tingin niyo ba nagrereklamo si mario?

hindi. kasi ganon ang pagmamahal, dapat gawin mo ang lahat ng makakaya

mo, at wag kang umasa ng kapalit, wag ka umasa ng bayad. umibig ka ng

parang hindi ka pa umiibig buong buhay mo, kung magmamahal ka na rin,

mahalin mo na ng lubusan.

si mario ang nagturo sa akin niyan.

2) pag may tiyaga, may nilaga.

si mario ang pinakamatiyagang character na nakita ko. dadaanan niya

ang lahat, kukunin niya ang mga pwedeng makuha, kakainin niya ang

kahit na anong gulay, sasakyan niya ang kahit na anong dinosaur basta

lang makakatulong ito sa kanya. kung ako si mario, matagal ko nang

hinayaan si princess toadstool at naghanap nalang ako ng ibang babae.

meron naman sigurong ibang babae sa mundo niya. puta, hasel naman yon

kung wala.

nagtiyatiyaga si mario para makakuha ng isang daang ginto. isang daang

ginto para sa isang buhay. pinagtiyatiyagaan niya ang pagkuha ng 100

lives doon sa isang stage na kailangan mo ng dalawang pagong. kung

hindi niyo alam yon, kunin niyo nalang yung salita ko: MATAGAL YON. at

hindi lang basta basta nagagawa. ilang ulet kong ginawa yon para lang

makuha ng tama. pero si mario, kahit ilang ulet, pagtiyatiyagaan niya,

at sa pagtiyatiyaga niyang iyon, nakakuha siya ng maraming buhay.

3) pinakita niya sa akin ang totoong ibig sabihin ng brotherhood.

hindi masyadong halata sa game, kasi parati silang nagsasalit ng

pagkakataon maglaro, pero nagpakita si mario ng matinding sense ng

brotherhood. napakita niya rin na nirerespeto niya ang kanyang

kapatid.

kasi ganito ang storya niyan, si mario, kulay blue talaga dapat ang

costume, diba red and blue siya? dapat pure blue lang yon. kaya lang,

si luigi kasi, sobrang gusto ang green. nagpumilit si luigi na green

dapat ang sa kanya.. hindi nakipagaway si mario, hindi siya

nagpumilit, siya ang nagpalit ng kulay. ngayon, baket kailangan niyang

magpalit? kasi, alam nila ang ateneo lasalle rivalry, e ayaw ni mario

sumalungat, kaya gin awa nalang niyang red.

ganon niya kamahal ang kanyang kapatid. sinasakripisyo niya ang gusto

niyang kulay para lamang sa ikasasaya ni luigi.

astig talaga si mario.

4) siya ang dahilan kung baket ako kumakain ng gulay.

ilang beses na akong pinapakain ng gulay ng nanay ko noong bata pa

ako. pero kahit anong gawin niya, ayoko talaga. nung binigyan niya ako

ng family computer at super mario, dun lang ako nagsimula kumain ng

gulay. si mario kasi ang naginspire sa akin.

pag kumakain si mario ng mushrooms, lumalaki siya. pag kumakain siya

ng bulaklak, bumubuga siya ng apoy. tapos ginagamit niya ito para

matalo ang mga kaibigan. ang galing kasi napasok pa ni mario na ang

mga gulay, importante para matalo natin ang sarili nating mga

"monsters" sa buhay. napasok niya rin ang ideya ng healthy diet. inam.

5) dapat na maging tao tayo ng mundo.

lahat ng parte ng mundo, napuntahan na ni mario. bulkan, patag, dagat,

bun dok, ulap. parang pinapakita niya sa atin na dapat maging mas

malawak ang alam natin sa kapaligiran. hindi dahil nasa patag ka, at

komportable ka don, dun ka na parati.. porke taong bundok ka, hindi ka

na lalangoy sa dagat.

sinasabi ni mario na dapat alam natin ang lahat ng posibleng lugar at

maging ok tayo doon. pareho lang dapat ang pagtalon natin sa bulkan

man o sa patag.

matalinhaga ang linya na yan, hindi naman siguro kayo tanga para hindi

makuha yan diba? haha.

6) ang paggamit ng mga bagay sa paligid ay importante sa sariling paglusong.

ang resourcefulness ng tao. ginagamit ni mario ang mga bagay sa

kanyang kapaligiran para sa sarili niyang kabutihan. naiisip niya na

pwede palang gamiting ang shell ng pagong para pampatay sa iba pang

pagong. nakita niya na pag nahawakan niya ang bituwin, magiging

imposible siyang tablan ng mga halimaw.

pinagmasdan niya ang kapaligiran at nakita itong makakatulong sa kanya.

7) ang panghuli, ang paggamit ng utak.

nakita niyo naman na si mario, hindi nakikipagsapakan. hindi gumagana

ang apoy niya sa mga boss. pero natatalo parin niya ang mga ito.

pano niya nagagawa yon kung wala siyang lakas ng braso at mga armas?

pinapagana niya ang makinarya sa utak niya. ginagamit niya ang lahat

ng kanyang natutunan at kaalaman.

dito na pumapasok ang lahat ng konsepto. nadadala siya ng pagmamahal

niya sa kanyang princessa. binubuhos niya ang lahat ng kanyang

makakaya para sa kanyang mahal. hindi basta bastang namamatay si

koopa, kaya talagang kailangan niya itong pagtiyagaan. kumukuha rin

siya ng lakas ng katawan at isipan sa kanyang kapatid. inaalala niya

ang pagkapula ng suot niya at naaalala niya ang kanyang pagmamahal kay

luigi. ang pagkain niya ng gulay ang naghahanda sa kanya sa pagsubok

na ito. binibigyan siya ng lakas ng katawan at tatag ng tuhod. ang

pagiging tao ng mundo ay ang naghasa sa kanya p ara makaaksyon at

makapagisip siya, kahit sa mga hindi komportableng sitwasyon. at ang

paggamit niya ng bloke sa paligid o ang pagbalik ng mga tira sa

kalaban ay nakikita niya dahil siya ay magaling magmasid ng

kapaligiran.

ang galing talaga ni mario, at hindi dapat ito basta basta lang

kinakalimutan o hinahayaan.

lumipas ang mahigit sa labing tatlong gaming na taon sa mga taon ko.

at sa dami ng mga laro na nalaro ko na, bumabalik lang lahat ito sa

mario.

kaya nakakaasar yung mga bata ngayon e. dahil lang maganda ang

graphics at maraming sumasabog, ayos na. kaya nga pag may bata akong

nakikita tapos parang ewan yung ginagawa niya, sasabihan ko ng "hoy

bata, mag mario ka muna.." kasi yun talaga ang simula ng lahat. hindi

pacman, hindi bomberman, mario.

si mario ang idol ko. kung hindi dahil sa kanya, ibang tao ako ngayon,

kung wala siya, malamang nawawala na rin ako, parang mga bata ngayon

na walang alam sa mga ginagawa nila.

2004-11-23T14:40:00.000+08:00

Una sa lahat, gusto kong i-welcome sina Kaizen, Kakero, Bulalakaw at Psylentspyder. Hehe, for the past few weeks eh malakas ako magbloghop. Tatlong magkasunud-sunod na entries ko ang may kasamang plug. Sa tagboard ko nga eh meron din nagreply sa mga pinuntahan ko. Sayang nga lang at hindi ko na-enable yung textbox for URL sa tagboard kaya wala makakadrop ng URL ng blog nila dun. Kailangan idaan pa sa Haloscan eh hindi gaanong ka-obvious na meron ako nun. Hindi ko mabalikan yung iba kasi ang mga nabloghop ko eh yung mga nagtag sa tagboard ng sino man na nakalink sa 'kin na usually hindi pa na-add. Kapag natabunan na, hindi ko mabalikan unless naisipan i-add nung may-ari ng tagboard na 'yon yung blog nung tao. Hindi nga ako sigurado kung na-add din ako ng mga tao. Hehe, mukhang titigil muna ako sa bloghopping and let people come here. Ang dami ko rin gagawin eh. December 1 pa lang eh may tatlong projects akong due sa araw na 'yon; 2 ay para sa majors. Wish me luck.

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Kaninang tanghali ang online enrollment ko kaya ngayon gumagamit ako ng PC. Buti na lang at may naabutan pa akong free slot dito sa com lab ng Velasco (building ng college of engineering) kundi eh gagastos ako ng pera sa labas. Ok ang internet speed ngayon; hindi mabagal. Patayan talaga sa available slots ang mga tao, pareho sa PC at sa klase na kukunin next term. Ok sana ang sched ko except sa isang major. Hindi naman sa oras ang problema (alas otcho ang simula pero mas gugustuhin ko na pumasok ng alas nuebe) kundi sa prof. Prof ko sa Devpsyc ang magtuturo. Wala naman akong choice dahil sarado na yung isa pang section para sa subject na 'yon (2 lang ang sections). Haaayy... basta New Year's resolution ko ang bumangon ng maaga uli. Kung kelan nasa kolehiyo na ako tsaka ako tanghali kung gumising. Ilan beses na ako na-late sa Devpsyc (1st class, MWF), paano pa kaya next term eh 1st class din yung klase niya (TTh nga lang tapos mas maaga ^^')?

Pinakapinoproblema ko nung nag-enroll ako kanina ay ang section na kukunin ko para sa Spiritual Development/Career Planning Workshop, or Orient2 for short. Sa ganitong bagay na nagaganap sa dalawang Sabado mula alas otcho ng umaga hanggang alas kwatro ng hapon, gugustuhin kong makasama sa mga kaklase ko, lalung-lalo na ang 5 kong kasama noong 1st year pa kami. Nagshift na silang 5 ng kurso; ako na lang sa 'min ang desididong ituloy ang Sikolohiya lang (LIA-COM yung 4 with Psych as their LIA. Yung 1 Com Arts na tulad nina Shuro, Funyak at Cwissy). Hindi ko sila makasama: may kinukuha sila na 'di ko kinukuha at may kinukuha ako na hindi kukunin nung 1, o kinuha na o sa susunod pa kukunin nung 4. Syempre may conflict kami ng sched. Sa Orient2 pa ako sigurado na makakasama ko pa sila kahit na nagkaroon ng gap sa 'min. Kahit blockmates na hindi nagshift eh iilan lang sila ang nagiging kaklase ko. I don't expect na kasama ko sila sa katangi-tanging floating ko next term. Literature 2 ang kukunin ko eh sila kinukuha nila ngayon. Nakakatawa na mas mapalad pa ang kabarkada ko na si Tina at kaklase pa niya ang mga 'yon kahit hindi sila malapit. Si Tina nga eh hindi ko pa nagiging kaklase sa majors. Kinabahan ako at kanina sarado yung section sa Orient2 kung nasaan ang block ko tapos biglang may umalis na 1 kaya nakapasok din ako sa same section. Balita ko dun din naka-enroll sina Cwissy. Hehehehe!!

Err... sabog talaga ako ngayon. Paano, kinabahan ako sa online enrollment namin sa takot na masaraduhan nanaman ako ng lahat ng sections sa iisang subject. Ba't ba may priority enrollment?!

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QUICK UPDATE (dahil walang saysay ang gumawa ng bagong post para lang dito):

Taena! Lumipat kahapon ng section sa Orient2 ang mga kaklase ko at ngayon ko lang nalaman. Sa adjustment ko pa mapapalitan ang sched ko dahil kahapon, Noviembre 24, 2004 ang last day ng online enrollment. Hindi ko alam kung may natira pa sa block namin other than myself dun sa section na naka-enroll ako. Hindi ko rin alam kung dun pa rin naka-enroll sina Cimber (dahil sa kanya ako nagtanong kung ano ang section nila noong Martes). Kung nandoon pa sila, ok pero pakiramdam ko eh ma-L.O. lang ako kasi malamang kasama rin ang college friends nila. I don't mind meeting and getting to know those friends though. Ang konsolasyon ko ngayon ay sabi ng isa kong blockmate na nakasalubong ko kanina na nasa same section kami sa Sikolohiyang Pilipino (Sikopil) na siyang tinuturo ng prof ko sa Developmental Psychology o Devpsyc. Ang tanong: lilipat pa ba kaya ako ng Orient2 section o hindi?

2004-11-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

As an act of procrastination, ako ay magpopost.

*Silence*

Yung pinakakailangan kong gawin ngayon ay sa Biyernes na ang pagpasa. Magpapasa lang ako ng maikling kwento na katha ko. May ideya na ako sa takbo ng kwento; kulang na lang ang i-tayp (type) ito sa MS Word, i-print at ipasa sa klase ko sa Literatura. Dapat din maghahanda ako ng transparencies para sa report ko sa isang subject. Hindi ko alam kung kelan ako magrereport ngunit sa takbo ng mga report ng mga nauna sa 'kin, mukhang sa susunod na lingo pa ako. Nabasa ko na ang i-rereport ko at naiintindihan ko ito. Yung transparencies na lang ang kulang maliban na lang kung isusulat ko na lang sa board ang mga mahahalagang bagay sa report ko. May tatapusin din akong nobela na gagawan ko ng critique na due pa sa ika-una ng Disyembre. Hindi makapal ang nobela ngunit hiniram ko sa kabarkada ko nung High School ang kopyang gamit ko. Sabi ko sa kanya na ibabalik ko ito sa end ng Nobyembre. [sarcasm]Ang saya, noh? [/sarcasm]

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May mga nagrereklamo ukol sa bilis ng pagload ng blog na ito. Pasensya na po. Sabi nga ni Bom, maraming features itong blog ko. Hoy, wala na yung orasan kasi hindi siya kasya sa layout ko ngayon. Anyway, para masolusyon ang problemang ito , may naisip akong tatlong bagay:

1) Aalisin ko ang weather sprite, countdown at yung "I'm Online" button ng YM. Ayokong tanggalin yung mood sprite. Ang lahat ng ito ay hindi hosted sa Geocities account ko. Ever since na na-install namin sa kompyuter namin ang Tantra Online (yipee, napili ako bilang closed beta tester!!), hindi na namin ma-access ang YM. Kung naka-check yung "Sign-in automatically" sa YM bago matopak (sa accounts ng mga kapatid ko; Windows XP ang OS namin tapos may sari-sariling accounts kami. Sa 'kin lang ang hindi naka-check), nakakatangap pa ng message mula sa iba at pwede rin magsend. Yun nga lang, hindi mo alam kung sinong online at sinong hindi.

2) Lahat ng graphics dito sa blog (yung kasama mismo ng layout at codes ng fanlistings) ay ii-host ko na sa Photobucket. Ginagamit ko ang Geocities para i-host ang mga ito; recently lang ako nagkaroon ng account sa Photobucket. Alam kong malabo mai-explain ko kung may kinalaman ang pic host server sa pag-upload ng blog ngunit malay mo, meron ngang koneksyon.

3) Ililipat ko sa ibang page ang mga fanlisting codes. Ang problema ay noob ako pagdating sa HTML. Ok sana kung makakagawa ako ng separate page, preferably a pop-up, para sa mga FLs. Sa state ng kaalaman ko sa HTML, kailangan ko pa ng tutorial. Pwede rin kong ilipat ang mga ito sa Archives page ko; kung sa bagay, provided naman ito ng Blogger. Pwede rin kong gayahin si Mary na kunwari gagawa ng additional blogs pero ang laman ng page ay ang mga iba't-ibang seksyon ng blog niya mismo. Sa dami ng kailangang i-upload na codes, baka hindi ko na isama ang mga codes ng FLs na down na ang site.

Ok ba? Kaso sa susunod na pagpalit ng layout ko pa ata gagawin ito. Madaling gawin ang #1 ngunit nakakaubos ng oras ang 2 at 3. Sa X-mas break pa ata ako makakapalit.

OT:
Plug-in ko si Ian. Sa mga my LJ d'yan (you know who you are), gusto kong malaman kung gusto ba ninyong i-add ko rin ang mga LJ ninyo rito o yun ang ipapalit ko imbes na sa other blog ninyo. Sige, at pagbibigyan ko na ang mga Frosh na makipag online enrollment ^_^

2004-11-04T13:15:00.000+08:00

Ang tigas ng left button ng mouse; mahirap magclick pero copy + paste ako ng kwento tungkol sa 'kin ^_^:

Nang ako ay nasa preschool pa, mahilig akong uminom ng Zesto Orange dahil ito ang lagi kong baon. Hindi basta Zesto; dapat Zesto Orange. Kahit na araw-araw akong nakakainom nito, hindi ako nagsawa. Kung hindi ko gusto ang baon kong pagkain, iinom ako para hindi ako gaanong gutumin sa klase.

Noong isang araw, sumakit ang tiyan ko. Ang pakiramdam ko ay parang napapaso ang loob ng tiyan ko sa hapdi. Nasusuka rin ako. Natakot ang nanay ko sa kondisyon ko kaya dinala ako sa doktor. Ayon sa diagnosis ng doktor sa akin, maraming acido ang nasa loob ng tiyan ko at dahil wala itong matunaw na pagkain, tinutunaw nito nang unti-unti ang tiyan ko. Tinanong naman kami ng doktor kung ano ang mga kinakain at iniinom ko. Nang nabanggit ang Zesto, sinabi ng doktor na masyadong acidic ito kaya kung iinom ako nito, dapat hindi ako gutom.

Sa murang edad ko noon, iniisip ko na nakakasakit ang orange juice kaya iniwasan ko ang pag-inom nito, kahit hindi Zesto ang tatak, ng mga ilang taon. Kung makainom ako, konti pa lang ang naiinom ko at pakiramdam ko ay masusuka ako. Sa palagay ko ay ang epektong ito ay sikolohiyal sapagkat sa kasalukuyan, nakakaubos ako ng isa o higit pa na baso, tetra pack o foil pack ng orange juice, Zesto man o hindi, na hindi nasusuka. Ang mahalaga ay kung hindi sariwa ang inumin, dapat may nakain na ako bago uminom. Hindi ko rin maiiwasan ng panghabang-buhay ang di pag-inom ng orange juice.

Mula sa Devpsyc paper ko

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Sa mga kabarkada ko nung High School, you may or may not remember me being fascinated about this personality test whose results consists of 4 letters. That's the MBTI (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator). I took it again in my Psycho1 class and checked it yesterday. ISTP na raw ako. Naaalala ko tuloy na may post ako dati about ansering BLOGinality. Nung hinanap ko (nasa Feb. 17 entry ko. Hanapin na lang ninyo sa archives), putek ISTP din! I don't know what I got from the one I answered last year but wow... I don't know what to say about this.

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Ang dami kong pag-aaralan for the remaining days of this week at sa susunod na lingo para lang sa Devpsyc test namin next week. I know that I keep ranting about this subject because it relies so much on readings unless makikinig ka at magsusulat ka ng notes ng mga report. Puro reporting eh. Hindi pa naman ako mahilig sa ganitong pagtuturo. Parang konti ng effort ng prof na magturo. Alam ko na hindi dapat i-spoonfeed ang lahat pero mas gaganahan akong magbasa kung laging graded recitation kesa laging report. Buti na lang at tapos na ako sa mga 2nd exams sa Elesta2 (well, the 1st part anyway) at sa Theoper (yes, pasado na 'di pasang awa uli!). Kailangan ko talaga bumawi eh mas maraming kabanata ang nasa test.

Pagkatapos nito, malamang maraming requirements ang ipapatong. Kung sa Christmas break pa ako uli magblog, huwag na kayong magulat. Going off topic, plug-in ko sina Tintin at Pat (oo bom, ang blockmate mo XD).

Really OT:
Gusto ko ng Athrun plushie (Athrun's the blue-haired one. BTW, that's Shinn next to him; not Kira. Pula ang mga mata ni Shinn; violet yung kay Kira).

2004-10-26T14:21:00.000+08:00

Dahil si Ayah ay nababato.

Pansin ko lang, every 2 weeks ata ako kung mag-update. Anyway, nagpalit nanaman ako ng layout. I hope you guys liked it (as if ako ang gumawa =P How I wish...). I had the time to change the layout but it's not enough for me to post. Napapagalitan kasi ako lagi ng nanay ko na late ako kung matulog. Lately, it's either kakain ako ng agahan sa school or its surrounding area, o maghilamos ako. Wala akong intensyon na magstay ng matagal ang huling layout ko. Sa totoo lang, being the perfectionist that I am, lagi ko nililipat ang 'Credits' from one side to another. Hindi balanced ang itsura depende sa browser. Sa Mozilla Firefox, tig-3 per row ang fanlisting codes whereas sa MS Internet Explorer, tig-2 per row. We have both of those sa PC namin plus meron rin ang ilan sa mga PC dito sa school namin. To those using Firefox, kulang na lang ng isang code para lahat ng rows tig-3.

The name of this layout is "Delirious". In case you haven't noticed, it's written on the banner image. Bad trip at 'di ko magawang ibaba yun at natatakpan siya ng navbar. At least hindi pa umabot sa mata ni Setsuna ng Angel Sanctuary, kung 'di ako nagkakamali sa character. Also changed the blinkie ^_^ Dapat nga may application pa ako ng mga natutunan ko sa majors ko sa self description tulad ng "Oftenly relies on her Sensing function (especially in this case ^.~)".

And I forgot to mark my blog's 1st anniv. Oh my ghulay!

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Nakakaasar. Kahit na pumasa ako sa Theoper at Elesta2 exams ko eh bagsak naman ako sa Devpsyc. Actually, bagsak ang buong class but that doesn't help me feel better. Kahit na ibaba pa to 50% ang passing grade (70% ang orig), bagsak pa rin ako. Alam ko that there are those who got worse scores dahil inannounce sa buong klase pero pakshet, kailangan kong bumawi.

Also, patong2x ang mga babasahin ko. Bad trip at biglaan nagkakaroon ng graded recitation sa Devpsyc at Genders. I need to start reading "My Brother, My Executioner" by F. Sionil Jose for Litera1 tapos meron pang short stories to read at may isusulat pa akong short story for that subject as well *goes to wonder kung anong nangyari if she took Filipi3 instead of Genders. Pareho silang may pinapasulat na kwento*. Hindi ko pa rin napapanood ang "House of Flying Daggers". Biruin ninyo, required kaming panoorin yun! This one, I'll gladly watch even if it's not required kung may oras at pera ako, if it ain't too late. Need to watch it before Friday.

Gomen!! There's so many things that I need and want to do, yet so little time to do all of them. Ngayong lang uli ako nagka-oras tapos ang sabog ko. Geesh, need to set things straight right away!

2004-10-14T13:09:00.000+08:00

Ano bang meron ngayon? Hmm... mukhang mga kaklase ni Funyak ang ilan sa blockmates ko sa Litera2. Nakita ko sila sa loob ng classroom nila nang napadaan ako kanina. Makes me wonder kung ano ang impression nila sa isa't-isa, that is kung nagpapansinan. Kaklase ng isa ko pang kabarkada, si Tina, ang ilan sa blockmates ko sa mga major subjects; some of them yung nasa same Litera2 class as Funyak. Nang nakausap ko si Tina last week, sabi niya na magkakablock ang karamihan sa mga kaklase niya doon. I assume she's referring to my blockmates dahil marami sila doon. Buti pa ang blockmates ko, magkakasama! Because my blockmates are always together (not like me =P), ang mga kasama ni Tina sa klase are those other than my blockmates. Kaya naman hindi ko sila makasama in the same class ay dahil sa bagsak ko at sa priority enrollment na nagdidiscriminate sa mga minalas sa grades.

On the other hand, hindi ko pa pala natatanong kay Pipay (ito ang preferred kong tawag sa kanya ^_^), blockmate ko at kapwa taga-model battalion nina Cimber, Shuro at Funyak, kung ano ang impression niya sa kanila at vice versa. Invasion of privacy ba? Ewan ko kung napapag-usapan ba nila ako but I don't think so. Alam ko may schoolmate nung High School si Pipay sa unit namin pero hindi ko rin tinanong eh. Hanggang pagtataka na lang ako at baka may magalit sa 'kin.

In relation sa pinag-uusapan ko rito, marami pa ba kaya akong blind spots? Ang blind spot na tinutukoy ko ang mga bagay na nakikita ng iba sa iyo pero hindi mo makita sa sarili mo. Halimbawa: para sa iba, makulit ka ngunit hindi mo narerealize na ganyan ka. Akala mo na ang ginagawa mo ay hindi pa maitatawag na pangungulit. Do I sound paranoid? Hehe, napaisip ako tungkol sa blind spot dahil sa Theories of Personality (Theoper) subject ko.

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Habang masaya ako sa grade ko sa 1st quiz namin sa Theoper, kinakabahan naman ako sa test results namin sa Developmental Psychology (Devpsyc). Wala talaga kaming libro sa subject na 'yon; panay readings na pinapazerox. May in-charge sa pagzerox ng mga babasahin namin dun for the whole term kaso hindi lahat nabibigyan kahit na nagbayad na kami kasi unahan sa pagkuha ng kopya. Next meeting na lang daw ang kopya namin, ang sabi. BTW, marami yung pinapaphotocopy kaya by installments ang dating. Basta 750 pesos ang binayaran namin PER PERSON para sa lahat ng kopya. If I know, sa Copylandia pa nagpazerox kasi a) marami talagang ipapakopya such that hindi pa yata kasya ng isang oras sa pagkopya nun lahat, b) syempre buong klase naghihingi ng kopya, c) back-to-back ang zerox copy, d) quality of photocopy and paper. Sa kapal nun eh pinabookbind pa ng iba (tulad ni Pipay, na kaklase ko sa lahat ng majors ko ngayon) ang kopya nila nang nakuha nila ang lahat.

Noong Wednesday last week yung test namin. 70 items (though according sa prof namin dapat 125-150 items yun, kaso nagkaroon ng delays sa reporting. Mas advanced kaya sa lessons ang klase namin kesa kina Tina! Magkaiba kami ng prof sa subject na 'yon). Ang items cover around 6 chapters sa binabasa namin (readings kasi namin ay mula sa tatlong libro, pinakopya na lang yung mga tatalakayin namin). Dumating ang installment ng kopya ko where doon kukunin ang test nung Lunes bago magtest! Shit, cramming!! Nakita pa ako ni Bom sa library the day before the exam. Nag-aaral ako nun (nakakabagot talaga!! nakakatamad!!) na hindi ko siya napansin.

Pagdating ng test... shit, ang hirap!!! Objective siya pero pamatay ang analogy at "which of the following does not belong". Sa Devpsyc kasi, pinag-uusapan ang mga teorya ng paglaki ng tao. Sa mga teoryang iyon, nagbibigay sila ng stages sa buhay na tao depende kung ano ang balak ipaliwanag. Halimbawa: si Jean Piaget ay sumisikap ipaliwanag kung paano nadedevelop ang pag-alam (knowing) ng bata sa pamamagitan ng teorya niya habang si Lawrence Kohlberg naman ay sa pagdevelop ng pagdadahilan (reasoning). Meron din stages para sa sensori-motor growth ng bata (note: nasa childhood pa lang kami. Alam ko sina Tina nasa infancy pa rin yata ang usapan nila. Paano pa kaya pagdating sa adolescence at adulthood?).

Hindi lang diyan nagtatapos ang hinagpis ko sa subject na 'yan. Sa mga meeting pagkatapos ng exam, nagkaroon ng mga graded recitation. Malas ko at a) yung pinag-uusapan nila eh wala pa rin akong kopya ng reading kung saan nakabase ang recitation. Ayokong magpaphotocopy nun nung una kasi fully paid na ako eh yun na lang ang kulang ko, at b) nakaupo ako sa 1st row. Ilang beses na akong tinawag. Nang tinanong ako kung nasaan ang kopya ko, ang sagot ko ay "Wala pa rin akong kopya". This however didn't stop my prof from calling my name for recitation kaya humingi ako ng refund para dun sa installment ng mga kopya na hindi na umabot sa 'kin (75 pesos worth!). Pa-zerox ko na lang yung kopya ng iba. Nandun pa naman sa bundle na 'yon ang irereport ko >_< Napapansin ba ninyo ang baybay ko ng "zerox"? Brand ng photocopying machine ang "Xerox", tulad ng "Mongol" = lapis.

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At nagrant ako tungkol sa Devpsyc. Wala akong masabi tungkol sa Psycho1 o sa Elesta2. I've already spent more than 1k so far for this term para lang sa photocopies (almost all subjects), standardized tests na kinukuha ko sa Psycho1 (350 pesos. Ba't hindi siya kasama sa tuition fee?) at tickets sa mga kailangang panoorin for Litera1 [Fahrenheit 9/11, Himala (musical sa CCP)]. Gawd, I wanna watch the subtitled versions of Ragnarok the Animation ep. 26 (the last episode. I've seen the raw 2 Fridays ago) and Gundam SEED Destiny ep. 1!!!

2004-10-01T13:17:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to the De La Salle Green Archers for winning the championship in the 67th season of the UAAP Men's Basketball ( as if mababasa nila ito =P) Congratulations din sa mga ibang team ng DLSU who also won in their respective sports (the Green Woodpushers a.k.a La Salle's chess team comes to mind. I read that they're on the top again for the 6th consecutive year. I don't know any Green Woodpusher personally but hey, now I have a pun for the word "animo" XD). At least nabawi ang 50 pesos sa ticket, 38.50 pesos sa pamasahe (LRT - Vito Cruz to EDSA; MRT - EDSA to Cubao, Cubao to Ayala), 2 oras sa kapipila sa ticket (lunch break not included) and probably around 4 hours standing (I only sat down during time outs and half-time, was already in Araneta by 3 p.m. but didn't sit until the latter half of the 1st quarter, didn't leave until the awarding ceremony was over para hindi masyadong siksikan palabas with FEU fans).

Masaya manood ng live game! Iba ang feeling kesa 'pag pinanood mo sa TV. I don't think JV Casio's 3 point shot in the last few seconds of the game would have made such a great impact in me had I watched the game on TV. 63-65 yung scores tapos biglang naging 66-65! Shet!!! Magandang bonding activity ang pagnonood ng live game with your blockmates (yung kasundo mo) or your barkada, lalo na kung tipong mula sa school magkakasama kayong magcommute papunta at pauwi. Kahit na hindi ka into sa UAAP (I'm not into it much =P), magaganahan kang manood when you're there. Kahit na magdala ka pa ng libro, comics, gameboy... anything to distract you (hinatak ka lang ng kasama mo) in a live game at sanay ka sa maingay, I don't think you'll be able to ignore what's going on kaya nood ka na rin ^_^

Oh, and plug in ko rin si Aprille. She was a Medic like me and Lex/Daint, although I'm more used calling her by her other name =)

ANIMO LA SALLE!!!

2004-09-29T14:28:00.000+08:00

Some random facts about me:

* Just before typing this entry, there was a fire drill. I'm already in the computer lab at that time. Fortunately, I haven't logged in to Blogger (but was logged in to Friendster when it happened. Syempre, log off muna ako). Buti na lang at hindi pa kailangan i-scan ang ID muna bago pumasok because I'm still holding the tag with the PC # I'm using. Otherwise, I'll have to use my extra ID.

* Yes, I have an extra ID. I had it since last term. Ganito 'yon: nawala ko ang ID ko sa library namin nang 'di ko namamalayan. Akala ko kasi nailagay ko sa bag ko. Nakalabas ang ID ko in the 1st place kasi kailangan i-surrender bago ako maka-photocopy (nyaks! ngayong college ko lang ginagamit ang term nito regularly, thanks to my blockmates) ng mga libro na "for room use only". After photocopying, kinuha ko ang ID ko, tapos binalik ko ang mga libro sa mga kinalalagyan nila. Then, kukunin ko ang bag ko. Fast forward to the next day. 'Pag pasok ko ng school, akala ko na nasa akin pa rin ang ID ko. Para maka-pasok, kailangan i-scan ang ID. Nang ayaw tumunog ng scanner nang itapat ko ang wallet ko (dun usually nakalagay ang ID ko. Nababasa pa naman ng scanner ang ID ko through it), hinalungkat ko ang bag ko. Wala sa bag. So kumuha ako ng gate pass. Dito sa 'min, may minor offense ka kung nagfile ka ng left/lost ID thrice. May isang beses na akong nakaiwan ng ID... SA LOOB NG SCHOOL! Eh 'di dapat "lost" iyan. Fortunately, nasa Lost and Found nung sumunod na araw. May warning sa 'kin na nakakadalawa na ako. At that time, iniisip ko na baka naiwan ko sa bahay dahil nagpalit ako ng bag noong umaga 'yon. 'Pag uwi ko sa bahay, hinanap ko ang ID ko sa bag na gamit ko the day before. Wala ang ID ko dun. Patay! Nawawala talaga. Kailangan magpagawa ng bagong ID. Syempre, kailangan uli kumuha ng gate pass. That's my 3rd time na magfile ng left or lost ID sa college kaya may minor offense na ako T_T Yun lang ang offense ko so far sa kolehiyo. Bago ako magpagawa ng ID, pumunta ako sa Lost and Found in case na baka nandoon ang ID ko. Wala raw. Ayan, nagpagawa ako ng bagong ID and had to pay for it.

Some days later, bumalik ako uli sa library. Pumunta ako sa "room use only" books section para magpaphotocopy uli ng libro. Lahat nun (including the ones nung nawala ko ang ID ko for the 2nd time) ay para sa isang research paper which has a big share in determining my final grade at the subject it's in. OMG!! Nakita ko ang ID ko na nakadisplay sa desk ng librarian in charge sa section na 'yon. Hiningi ko yung original ID ko kaya 'eto, 2 ang ID ko.

* This is not the 1st time na nakawala ako ng ID, nagpagawa ng bago tapos nang may bagong ID na ako eh natagpuan ang lumang ID. It also happened to me in 2nd year High School, this time in an auditorium. I got it back a month later after being passed around by an undeterminable number of people. Ang nakapulot daw ay isa sa student council officers. Hindi ako popular nor kilala nung tao kaya pinasa-pasa ang ID ko hanggang umabot na sa akin. Back in the days na nakasabit sa 'yo ang ID by a necklace, by the time that I've entered High School, hindi na laminated ang ID; it's made of plastic tapos ang picture ay kinukuha through a digital camera tapos pinapiprint. In other words, parang ID namin ngayon na sabitan nga lang. Para makakabit sa necklace, may butas. Nagkaroon ng crack across the thin strip of plastic above the hole leading to the end of the card. Ang nangyari ay nahulog ang ID. Hindi ko namalayan na nahulog nang nasa loob pa kami ng auditorium kasi madilim tapos umalis na kami bago matapos ang palabas. Nang paglabas ko, napansin ko na nawawala kaya bumalik ako sa auditorium para hanapin 'yon. Hindi ko ito nakita. Palagay ko napulot na ng officer ang ID ko habang wala ako pero wala na siya nang bumalik ako.

* Speaking of losses, I left my jacket sa school kahapon. Buti na lang at may nagturn-in nito sa Lost and Found. Na-claim ko na siya kanina. Last year, I left the same jacket in McDo. Ang building namin ay nasa kabilang dulo ng La Salle as opposed to the end kung saan katabi ang McDo. Nasa classroom na ako sa 3rd floor at wala pa ang prof nang naalala ko na naiwan ko ang jacket ko. Syempre binalikan ko. Buti rin lang na hindi nagalaw sa upuan na nakasbit nito ang jacket. Hehe, by now baka iniisip ninyo na burara ako. Basta anything other than the bag where my school stuff are in na hindi ko usually dala (paper bags, plastic bags, jackets), may tendency ako makaiwan.

* I've just turned nineteen this month.

* Na-experience ko na ang pagpila sa tatlong klaseng adjustments ng La Salle: advanced, regular at special. Ang tanga-tanga ko at nagpila ako sa regular kung 'yun pala eh hindi para sa kaso ko. Nasayang ang birthday ko.

* Nabawi naman ang disappointment ko over the regular adjustment fiasco having a pahabol vacation over the weekend preceeding the start of the 2nd trimester. My birthday was on the week before the 1st week of the 2nd sem.

* Nag-absent na ako in all my subjects for this term except for my Genders class, which also happens to be my one and only class during Tuesdays and Thursdays, and Psycho1. Waiting in line for the special adjustment costed me an absent in Devpsyc, Elesta2 and Litera1. Kaya naman ako nag-adjust dahil para ma-add ko ang Elesta2. Nagkaroon ako ng absent sa Theoper kasi nag-overtime ako sa pagsasagot ng test for Psycho1. 1 lang subject ko tuwing Martes at Huwebes sapagkat tinanggal ko ang isa pang subject na TTh din ang sched to make way for Elesta2. Besides, I can't take that subject yet because I still need to take up its prerequisite. Ba't kasi nagclose na ang online enrollment eh 'di pa ako tapos sa pag-ayos ng sched ko. Nakasave ang sched but not submitted. Also, may mga mali sa course checklist, namely hindi nakalagay ang prereq ang ilang subject. Malay ko ba na hindi ko pa makukuha ang major na tinanggal ko dahil walang nakalagay na prereq except na accepted ka sa Psych program.

* Did I ever mention that I'm an AB Psychology student?

* In the past 3 weeks, I've took 4 standardized tests. You know, those IQ, personality, aptitude, etc. tests administered by your guidance counselor, or in the case here in DLSU, ITEO. They're all part of our Psychometrics 1 (Psycho1) subject. Mamaya, magsasagot nanaman kami ng 1 pang test. Maikli naman sila; hindi lalagpas ng 200 items. 2 were time-pressured while the rest are not. 2 deal with abstract reasoning, 1 has linguistic and quantitative ("Which number is next in this series?") items and 1 personality test. After answering each test, kami ang nagwawasto ng papers namin ay naghahanap kung ano ang corresponding percentile, stanine and description (High Average, Above Average, Average, Below Average, Low Average, etc.). Hindi naman puro ganyan ang gagawin namin. Magkakaroon din daw kami ng fieldwork. If there's any new learning about myself that I got from the results, it's that I do better when NOT under pressure. Hindi pa namin nachecheck ang personality test namin.

* Dahil bihira ako dumaan sa South Gate ng DLSU, I never knew where the ITEO office was. Yun pala ang nasa 2nd floor ng admissions office. May hagdanan sa gilid ng admissions office. Hindi mo makikita ito 'pag pasok mo at hindi mahaba ang pila, kung ikaw ay kukuha o magsusubmit ng application form.

* Nakabili ako ng tickets for the UAAP Finals Game 3 kahapon! Upper B seats XD It's better than General Admission; dulong-dulo na 'yon! Buti na lang at nakaabot pa sa akin ang tickets dahil ang daming tao, ang haba ng pila. Too bad na marami sa blockmates ko ang hindi makakapanood. Excited na talaga ako. This is the only game I'll watch live of this season and the 2nd live UAAP game in general (the other 1 being an ADMU vs DLSU game; the last match between the 2 last season. Yep, it was the semis). Sana manalo kami at walang pasok sa Friday.

2004-09-23T13:16:00.000+08:00

This is actually the 3rd attempt at having an update since the last time I posted an entry. I never published the other 2 due to sheer boredom of continuing. In other words, pareho silang bitin kasi tinatamad akong magpatuloy nun. Delete na lang.

Don't get me wrong. Maraming nangyari sa 'kin though these don't affect me much. I have the free time (it's the 2nd week of the 2nd term dito sa unibersidad. Wala pa masyadong nangyayari) pero tinatamad akong i-document ang bagong term nor what happened during the last week of our sem break (my birthday and the adjustment comes into mind). Ewan ko ba't hindi ko feel magblog 'pag may sipon (ok na ako ^_^). Nagquit na ako sa Ragnarok Online kahit na, given my sched this term, makakalaro ako. Gastos sa pera tapos kapag nagpatong-patong na ang mga academic requirements, wala rin. Ewan ko ba kung buhay pa ang account ko dun. Hindi nga ako naglaro nun during sem break. Nabibitin ako sa sem break namin. Kung kelan nakapagdownload ako ng scanlations ng Matantei Loki at kailangang i-unzip, nawalan ako ng oras at gana (but I still intend to view it. The scanlations cover tankoubon 1 and the 1st 2 chapters of the 2nd volume). Hehe, I'm checking out a number of titles as of late. Binabalak ko noon na bago magsimula ang term na ito ay sasali pa ako to at least 5 more fanlistings. Hindi natuloy. That's random ramblings for ya.

Gusto mo pang isama na game # 1 na ng UAAP finals ngayon. FEU vs DLSU. Wala akong ticket kaya wala ako sa Araneta para manood. Instead, I'm waiting for an advance make-up class to commence. Wala raw ang prof namin next week. Next time na lang yung recap. Pinapaalis na ako sa computer lab; may klase na gagamit.

2004-09-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

*Sighs* Tapos na rin sa wakas ang course card distribution nung Huwebes pa. Salamat sa Diyos at 1) wala akong bagsak; lowest grade ko is 2.0, at 2) umabot ako sa cut-off grade ko sa Elesta1 (cut-off is 2.0, got a 3.0); tanggap na ako sa major. TANDAAN NA SA AMIN YUNG 4.0 ANG HIGHEST GRADE AND NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND. Sayang nga lang at ang GPA ko is 2.8 something. Pakshet, 0.2 na lang kulang ko! Hindi rin natuloy yung pinaplano para sa gabing 'yon.

In the meantime, nanonood ako ng Gundam SEED sa computer namin kasi hindi siya tumatakbo sa mga DVD player namin (puro cheap yung amin =P) . Buti na lang na hindi namin kailangan magdownload pa ng additional codecs para mapanood ko yun sa PC namin.

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Right now, may pinag-iintrigahan akong shoujo title. Full Moon wo Sagashite (Searching for a Full Moon) po ito. It's been out for a while. Tapos na ang manga at anime (52 eps.) nito, though nauna matapos ang anime kesa sa manga kahit na nauna lumabas ang manga. Ba't ba naman ganun ang ilang shoujo titles? Fruits Basket is one. Kung hinintay muna matapos ang manga eh may ma-correct sila. Ang Kareshi Kanojo no Jijou (His or Her Circumstances; KareKano for short), bitin ang anime kaya mapipilitan ka pa rin basahin ang manga para malaman mo kung anong sumunod. Magkaiba ang endings ng X the movie at X na anime pero ang alam ko hindi pa rin tapos ang manga dahil ang mangaka nito, ang CLAMP, has been holding it for their other projects. Ngayon pa lang eh may TRC at XXXholic sila. Naaalala ko tuloy ang sitwasyon ng Hakushaku Cain (Count/Earl Cain) ni Yuki Kaori. Lumabas na ito bago pa sinimulan ni Yuki-sensei ang Angel Sanctuary ngunit was also put on hold to make way for AS. Nang matapos na ni Yuki-sensei ang AS, binalikan niya ang Hakushaku Cain, now retitled as God Child. Matagal rin hinintay ng fans ito; 7 years!! In fairness, "shet, ang galing talaga magdrawing ni Yuki Kaori!" Nag-iba to the better ang art niya sa Hakushaku Cain, lalo na sa title character na si Cain Hargreaves. Iba itsura niya sa earlier works. Hindi nga ako makapagsave kasi akala ko baka ibang character pala iyon from another title. Ang bishie! IMO, Cain > Mudou Setsuna (protagonist ng Angel Sanctuary, sa manga art ha).

Other Cain goodies: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

Hehe, nag-OT (off topic, hindi auti) na ako. Anyway, ang FMwS ay gawa ni Tanemura Arina. She also made Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, Time Stranger Kyoko and some other titles (in case narinig na ninyo ang 2 na nabanggit ko). Maglalabas nga raw siya ng bagong title this October yata. Dun nga pala sa 1st FMwS pic na na-link ko, from L-R: Takuto, Mitsuki and Eichi. Kung bakit nakatalikod sina Takuto and Eichi sa pic ay masasagot lamang ni Tanemura-sensei. Na-discover ko ito dahil sa paghahanap ng blog layouts. The art is pretty; nasa tao na lang kung type niya ang style. So I searched on what this is about at nalaman ko ang premise niya:

Kouyama Mitsuki is a 12 year old girl who dreams of singing. There are only 2 problems: 1) her grandmother does not approve of her singing and, 2) she's been diagnosed with a malignant tumor in her throat. To treat that tumor, her vocal cords must be surgically removed, leaving her voiceless.

One day, 2 shinigami (gods/deities of death, soul reapers, etc.) appear. The 2, Takuto Kira and Meroko Yui, collectively known as Negi Ramen, are surprised that Mitsuki can see them. It so happens that Mitsuki has only 1 year left to live. When Mitsuki learned about this, she pleaded to the 2 to help her reach her dream before she dies. The 2 give in and turn her into Full Moon, an older (16 years old), healthier version of Mitsuki. Full Moon has to look different because... well, lagot siya sa lola niya 'pag nalaman ng lola na sumaway siya sa kagustuhan niya ^^'

2 years ago, Mitsuki met an older boy named Sakurai Eichi. Mitsuki has a big crush on Eichi ^_^ Before they parted ways (Eichi was migrating to the U.S.), he said that they will meet again if both of them will reach their dreams. Knowing that her time is running out, Mitsuki wants to see Eichi again and the only way she could do it is fulfilling her promise to him that she'll become a famous singer.

The "girl wants to become a singer and with the help of 2 magical beings, turns into an older version of herself in order to audition and have a career" is not new to me. Anyone knows Fancy LaLa? Oo, nasubukan kong panoorin 'yon. That alone is not enough to get me hooked. What striked me is that the heroine, Mitsuki, is dying. That gives her a reason behind her action. Wala akong makitang ganyan sa Fancy LaLa. Then again, na-cornihan na ako bago matapos ang isang buong episode. Because Mitsuki is doing all of this for Eichi, it makes me wonder kung aabot ba kay Eichi ang balita. Does he even have the same feelings for Mitsuki? 'Eto pa, unlike sa Fancy LaLa na 2 magical creatures talaga na mukhang cute dragon plushies, the shinigami look like humans in their default state. Take Izumi Rio for example. He can pass as a human wearing wings. Because shinigami look like that, I wouldn't be surprised that there's a love triangle (polygon?) going on involving shinigami and those who are still alive. Oh, and shinigami do have a kawaii, animal state as you can see here. Meroko is represented as a bunny while Takuto is represented as a cat (catboy!!!XDD). Izumi is represented as a dog wearing the hat and upper garments that he wears, as seen in this picture. He's at the lower right corner, below Jonathan the ghost. Ang sarap gawan ng stationery!

Other pics:
Meroko, Mitsuki & Takuto - Takuto kinda looks like the protagonist of Hoshin Engi sans the sticking out of his tongue
SD Takuto and Meroko in their default clothing
Mitsuki and Eichi - gwapo ni Eichi dito
Mitsuki & Takuto - *points at their hands* Uyy...
Wakaouji and Ooshige - Wakaouji (the guy) is a friend of Mitsuki's father. Ooshige is Full Moon's manager and has a crush on Wakaouji ^_^ They're also the ones in the background except both have long, blond hair there XD
Takuto, Meroko, Izumi and Mitsuki
an "Alice in Wonderland" themed pic - Mitsuki=Alice, Meroko=White Rabbit, Takuto=Cheshire Cat, Izumi=Mad Hatter, and Jonathan=Queen of Hearts

Hehe, na-iintriga ako dito. I'd prefer getting the manga since the art is better there and there are some changes made in the anime, some of them significant, from what I've read. The anime, however has music, which plays an integral part in the whole story. Wouldn't it be better if a story that has something to do with singing has music in it? I'm most likely getting the anime kasi may makukuhanan ako; nakaplug siya sa blog ko XD Kulang ko lang ang pera dahil sa Gundam SEED. I've read reviews on this and a lot are praising FMwS. Mataas ang rating nito sa karamihan ng napuntahan ko. The 1st part daw ng anime is slow pero 'pag nakalahati ka na, nagiging emotional rollercoaster. Maganda raw ang ending ng anime. I haven't heard anything about the manga's ending. I've downloaded some scanlated chapters of the 1st tankoubon from Toriyama's World (damn Download Accelerator na pumapalpak sa account ko) and it's really interesting. Sayang nga lang at konti lang ang mahanap kong sites pertaining to FMwS. Yung pics na may sulat na http://tanemura.altervista.org is from an Italian site and is also the only one na may scans ng artbook. Yung ilang pics dun sa site eh doon ko lang nakita. Basta yun, isa pang title for me to try. Oh, and bishies ng FMwS > Nagoya Chiaki/Kaitou Sinbad (Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne). Sa lahat ng nakita kong pics of the latter, parang mas malaki pa ata ang mata niya kesa sa mga mata ng karamihan sa FMwS cast. Then again, KKJ is an older title. Opinyon ko lang yun. Sana hindi ako i-flame ng kung sino man dumaan ng Chiaki/Sinbad fan ^^

EDIT:
Ang title ng bagong manga ni Tanemura Arina ay Shinshi Doumei Kuroso. Nilabas lang siya this month sa Ribon magazine (in Japanese. Click at your own risk). Malalaman mo na ito 'yon kasi pareho lang ang art style. Pakshet, mukhang Takuto na naging seryoso ang bidang lalaki! I got the info here and there's some scans here, because I'm too lazy to save the images then upload it =P

2004-08-30T14:57:00.000+08:00

*Pops a dated compilation CD of OPM in Drive D*
Current Music: "Halaga" by Parokya ni Edgar

Tapos na ang finals ko noong last Wednesday pa kaso ngayon lang ako uli naka-update (excluding the short one just below). Kung hindi naman suspended ang klase ng bro ko, half-day naman. Eh 'tong kapatid ko, laging nakatutok sa computer namin 'pag nandito siya. So ayan, nagpalit na ako ng layout. Hehe, it's green. Parang school ko XD Sa mga ngayon pa lang dumaan sa blog ko, I hope you like this new layout. Puro may girl ang last 3 layouts ko (version 1 was a default template) tapos versions 3 and 4 were dark. Para maiba naman.

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What am I up to for these 2 weeks? Well... I could always fix my room! Other than that, nagpaburn ako ng Gundam SEED kay Syun kasi hindi ako nakakanood nun sa Cartoon Network. Naiintriga ako dito eh; doesn't matter what older fans say. So it is a rehash of THE original Mobile Suit Gundam. Wala kaming Animax dito. Kaso makukuha ko lang 'yon sa course card distribution namin, which is supposedly tomorrow. But with suspension of classes declared last Wednesday and Thursday (kinuha ko pa rin ang Wed exam ko para matapos na. Last na kasi 'yon eh), baka ma-move. Sana hindi para walang hassle. Speaking of tomorrow, supposedly may pinaplano na get-together ang mga officers namin sa ROTC. Hanggang ngayon, wala pa akong naririnig na balita ukol dito. Gusto ko pa naman matuloy ito at kung matuloy nga, mapayagan ako. Hehe, I'm almost 19 pero kailangan kong magpaalam para magpasundo afterward.

I could also read the books na nakakalat sa bahay namin, or watch other VCDs or DVDs. I could also resume playing Ragnarok Online but heck, I was considering quitting. Ba't kasi hindi ko pa napapalitan ang adaptor ng PS2 namin? Ang mahal kaya nun! Practice driving is a must. Kung surfing the web, ang dami kong pwedeng tignan. For example, dahil sa deviantART ako na-convert into going for the Itachi x Sasuke pairing (alam ba ninyo kung gaanong ka-twisted ang pairing na 'yan? Pero sila lang ang matotolerate ko na ganyang pairing, fictional or not, except for another anime couple but that's it).

Iniisip ko nga kung itutuloy ko magpa-adjust ng sched ko for next term. Yung nagbukas ng bagong section is for a math subject. Kakakuha ko lang ng prerequisite math subject nito last term. If I'm to delay this subject, baka makalimutan ko ang natutunan ko sa prerequisite niya since that math subject is simply a continuation. That math subject is also a prerequisite for 3 other subjects (two 3-unit subjects and one 2-units subject) na prerequisite naman ng isa pang subject. Gets? Hindi ako underloaded kaya hindi ako pwede sa advance adjustment. Ang condition for advance ay underloaded ka at gusto mong magdagdag. Ako, gusto ko magpalit ng subject. Daya! Last schoolyear, nakapag-advance adjustment ako na ang ginawa ay magpalit ng subject eh full-loaded na ako nun. Yung regular adjustment pa naman ay sa birthday ko >_<'
[sarcasm] Hapi Berdi tu mi [/sarcasm].

Pagpasensya na ninyo ang walang kakwenta-kwenta ang post ko ngayon. Sabog ako ngayon. Yung music ko pa naman ngayon ang lyrics ng chorus ay

"Ba-kit bakit ba
Iniwan mo nag-iisa
Ba-kit bakit ba
Sa akin may nagsawa na
Sinusunod naman kita
Kahit ano kinakaya
Wala pa rin kwenta
Bakit ba?"

*LOL* Pero hindi ganyan ang love situation ko ha. Wala pa akong BF eh =P

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EDIT (at a later time):
Syempre hindi ko na-check kaagad ang website ng school namin. Na-move pala sa Huwebes ang course card distribution namin. In the meantime...

How to make a Ayah Enna

Ingredients:

5 parts mercy

1 part humour

1 part leadership

Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

2004-08-26T16:19:00.000+08:00

After 10 years...

I've finally changed my layout. Hindi kayo naliligaw, folks. Matagal ko na rin ginagamit ang past layout ko. Yun lang po. Will update later because my pesky brother is bugging me =P

2004-08-13T12:15:00.000+08:00

Just came from a remedial long test for Elesta1. Yep, r-e-m-e-d-i-a-l. No, I didn't fail any of the previous exams (pero pasang awa ^^') nor was my midterm grade below the cut-off. Sabi ng teacher namin na yung mga nakakuha ng dos are actually those who could've gotten a lower grade kaso ayaw niya magbagsak ng estudyante. Kinakabahan ako sa subject na ito, lalo na pagdating ng finals a couple of weeks from now dahil closed notes. Paalala: Kakasimula pa lang namin sa descriptive stats. Ang problema ko ay mga nauna dito, lalung-lalo na ang linear regression. Kung given ang slope, ayos. Kung hindi given ang slope, hindi ok. Comprehensive malamang yung final exam tapos ang daming formula na dapat matatandaan! Ang hahaba pa naman nila. Delikado yung mga tipong dapat i-square muna bago i-total (yung mga exponent sa loob ng parenthesis tapos ang summation sign ang nasa labas) at i-total muna bago i-square (yung exponent nasa loob ng parenthesis tapos ang summation sign ay nasa labas) IN THE SAME FORMULA! Yung isa nasa numerator tapos yung isa nasa denominator. In case hindi pa ninyo nasusubukan mag solve ng ganun, magkaiba ang sagot ng 2. Maraming formulas ang may ganyan, nagkaiba lang kung X, Y, ang product ng X at Y na nabawasan na ng means/averages nila o yung product na hindi binawasan ang ginamitan ng ganun. Nakakalito na ba? Basta ito ang last post ko before the finals. Buti na lang at tapos na ako kumuha ng driving lessons (last day kahapon. Umabot ako sa Greenhills pero kailangang dumaan sa traffic. Still needs to improve on turning at sa paglingon sa sides). Bukas na rin matatapos ang ROTC. Ililimit ko ang paggamit ng internet; para lang sa mga announcement ng prof na pinadadala nila sa 'min through e-mail. Magtatayp (type) pa ako ng paper, maghahanap ng pwedeng magburn ng DVD to DVD para sa proyekto namin sa Filipi2, magsalin at magparingbind para sa nasabing proyekto, gumawa ng reaction papers para sa ilang asignatura, mag-aral...

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Sa mga inalam ko ng midterm grade, ok naman sila except sa isa dahil hindi ako nagsusubmit ng reaction paper for some time (I used to pass at first pero tinamad ako. Ngayon, napilitan ako). Alam ko na kung ano ang final grade ko sa isa pang subject dahil exempted ako sa finals. Hindi ko na maitataas pa ang prefinal grade ko at lagpas 100% pa ang kailangan ko sa finals. Kung mas mababa ng 90% ang sa finals eh pwede bumaba ang grade ko. Ang mahirap kasi ay hindi written ang finals, presentation ito. Happy naman ako sa grade kasi ito ang pinakamataas ko among sa midterm grades na inalam ko. Hindi siya 4.0 pero maganda naman kahit papaano.

As for my subjects next term, malas ko at nasaraduhan ako ng 2 major subjects. Kumuha ako ng 2 iba pang major subjects na wala naman akong kakilala na kukuha nun next term. Kung susundin ng mga tao ang nakalagay mismo sa course flowchart, sa 3rd year pa nila kukunin 'yon. Tapos, nagcheck ako kanina kung may nagbukas ng bagong seksyon para sa isa o pareho sa kanila. Meron nagbukas na isa. Ngayon, kailangan kong mag-adjust. Mahirap magtake-up ng subject na walang kakilala na kumukuha o kumuha nun. Ba't naman kasi may priority enrollment? Bakit ang konti kung magbukas ng sections para sa isang subject? Ok lang kung mauna sa enrollment ang mga taga COE, COS, CED at CCS pero dapat kasabay namin ang CBE dahil sa mga LIA-COM. Daya nila, nauuna sila mag-enroll kesa sa mga CLA lang. Walang kinalaman ang ibang colleges dahil karamihan ng kukunin nila ay exclusive sa college nila, including some floating subjects. Kung masaraduhan ka ng floating, pwede magcross-enroll. Ok kung may kasama kang kakilala 'pag ganun. Dun sa sections, may mga major subjects kami na kinukuha rin ng mga taga BS-PSM. Dagdagan mo pa 'yan ng mga Psych LIA-COM. More or less around 100 kami tapos kung magbukas 2 SECTIONS?! (max no. of students per section = 40) Sana naman magbilang sila.

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Pagdating sa mga upcoming na palabas na made from Japan, inaabangan ko ang Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children at Gundam SEED Destiny (hindi palabas ang FF XII, game po iyon =P). Nakakatuwang makita ang mga FF VII characters in FF:TSW (yung movie >.<) quality at may boses. Kahit subtitled, ok na. Sa mga nakita ko of the original cast, I'm giddy to see Vincent, Tifa and even Reno and Rude of the Turks in action.

To anyone who has heard of and/or watched Gundam SEED, in case hindi ninyo alam, may direct sequel na siya entitled Gundam SEED Destiny. Series po ito kasi may OAV/OVA na siya. It'll start airing in Japan on Oct. 9. From what I've heard, this takes place 2 years after SEED. Apparently, there's a new protagonist introduced, si Shin Asuka. I don't know if Kira Yamato, the protagonist of SEED, will appear regularly, as a cameo or even none at all but his best friend/rival Athrun Zala is definitely there, playing an important role in this title, possibly even larger than the role he had in SEED. According to some Gundam fans na napanood na pati yung mga older titles that based on the info given so far, mukha yatang rip-off ito ng Gundam Z, whatever that is about *sweatdrop*. Basta Shin had a tragic past dahil sa events ng SEED kaya sumali siya sa ZAFT (ang kalabang organization nung sa simula) for revenge. Watching SEED first is a must before watching SEED Destiny.

Some scans from Newtype's August 2004 issue (released last Aug. 10 in Japan):
Cover - Shin and the Impulse Gundam
Shin wearing the ZAFT pilot uniform
Athrun and Lunamaria Hawke
*Wah! Forgot where I got this. It's from a message board, that's for sure.

@ Crissy - in case you need a hairstyle for one of your characters, I give you Rey Za Burrel XD (sabay meron na palang halos o kaparehong-kapareho ng buhok)

2004-07-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

About my Friendster rant last time, I forgot to add this. Anyway, I do not know what to say about multiple testimonials from the same person in one account. So the person making the testimonial felt the need to update. So the person making the testimonial felt that he/she forgot to say something about the person concerned in his/her testimonial. It is like me right now who is adding this one.

Oh, and I am aware that my rant sounds shallow but mababaw ang kaligayahan ko XD

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I am still procrastinating. The victims: Relstwo reflection papers. I used to submit those but lost interest when I finally came to a set of readings which I have the difficulty of understanding. What I do not like about books pertaining to faith and philosophy are that they are vague. I feel dumb reading those because I cannot comprehend them. And I have religion and philosophy classes throughout my stay in college. Another problem that the readings are too long when the reflection paper is only a single page. I have a problem remembering the points presented in the readings so I highlight the book. Even if I do that, come the time that I will type my paper, I will go "What's the connection of this again?" It is best that right after I read, I do the paper. However, the current readings are so long (70+ pages for a SINGLE PAGED paper?!) that in my hectic schedule, it cannot be finished in one seating. I should be lucky that I am not currently taking up Litera and reading "My Brother, My Executioner" even if it is by F. Sionil Jose. I have only read "Po-on" and the first few pages of "Tree" yet I like him as an author. I might enjoy reading "My Brother..." if it were not required. That or I will increase my adoration to the author, that is if that will be the end result if I finish "Tree" and maybe even reread "Po-on". They are socio-political in nature but I enjoy reading them =P

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If there is anything I do not enjoy right now about having a failure, it is that I do not get to enroll immediately. Tomorrow will be the online enrollment for those in CLA (or so I have heard, and except for those taking up a LIA-COM major whose enrollment is today) who did not have any failures in any of the previous terms in their stay in the university. It sucks that I am scheduled for next Tuesday at 2 p.m. Damn, I have a class at that time! I hope that there is nothing important on that class like a quiz when I cut. I am afraid of being closed of a subject, especially a major. I need to have 18 units so that I will not be delayed by a (summer) term from graduating. It seems unfair that there are those who get to chose their desired subject, section and timeslot while I have to scramble for the left-overs. I guess it is an incentive for avoidance of failure in any course. Ideally, I want my first class to start after 9 a.m. and my last class to end before 5 p.m. or earlier. I want my lunch break to be a period long and all my classes to be continuous save for that break. This is not likely to happen.

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To top it all off, to those curious about my High School barkada, the Tapat ng Troika Congregation (TNTC for short. So THAT's the TNTC I'm talking about!), go visit Jena's blog. It should be noted that some of our problems as a group are discussed there so please, huwag chismisan. Hindi naman kayo makakarelate sa mga problema namin. Jena is simply stating her point of view in the matter.

2004-07-19T14:17:00.000+08:00

Where has Friendster gone to?

I do not go to Friendster often and I have only written a few testimonials (the latest one is for Bom, which I did just before I started on this entry and is awaiting acceptance or rejection from the person). In effect, I barely get testimonials. Then again, I am not the kind of person whom anyone will write a testimonial about right away. I did not see the tons of posts flooding the Bullentin Board calling for testimonials nor am I fond of typing testimonials. The same goes for recollection letters that state what the sender likes and dislikes about the receiver. It is uncomfortable for me to describe a person with words if it is addressed to that person itself. I am concious of what to say. I do not want to say something like "___ is a good friend" period. The closest of friends may have received lengthy messages from me. It is easy to add people as your friend; even strangers can add you as a friend and I got several of those offers already. On the other hand, it is up to the user whether he/she will get more testimonials by convincing others to make them one. I am not the kind of person who has the guts to do so. Alright, so I have posted in the Bullentin Board that those who are interested to make me a testimonial but it took me months before I finally felt the urge to do so. As of this time that I am typing this, I have 115 friends under my account yet only has 5 testimonials. That is 23 people per testimonial. Except for one thoughtful friend whom I have met in 3rd year high school, all the rest came from blockmates. It cannot be helped if my high school batchmates cannot make me one because I always keep a certain distance away. What I am upset about is that some of those whom I have initially made a testimonial did not make one back. Those who have written a testimonial for me has received one from me. I like to keep things mutual, though I should not expect it to be that way all the time. I understand that everyone is busy but I have been waiting for more than half a year now. It is not like they are all working. Maybe I should check on them if they are still into the Friendster craze or have moved on, placing Friendster as passe. And yes, I am still on it.

As for accounts, I am definitely one who cannot fill me up all my friends into 500 (the maximum number of friends one can have per account). Meanwhile, there are also those who I am surprised to have Friendster accounts. I was not expecting E-Kyub to be into this craze at first yet there she is, she caught the bug earlier than I do methinks. I was definitely not expecting Bom so it was funny to hear that it took a blockmate of hers to make an account for her. Then, there are fictional characters, series, groups, you name it who have Friendster accounts dedicated to them. My brother has an account dedicated to his Ragnarok Online character. Sikat ba siya dun? Kind of. RO guilds have Friendster accounts, anime characters have Friendster accounts, anime series have Friendster accounts, schools have Friendster accounts, even SSUs in DLSU ROTC have Friendster accounts (I have only seen the ones for our Medics batch and Model Battalion). They are fanlistings and cliques sans HTML. In my opinion, it is both funny and pathetic at once. Users can spam on these kind of accounts to give others an illusion of the number of friends they have; an illusion that can be disspelled once one checks the 'My Friends' option. I am "friends" with a couple of those but only because one of them beckoned me and the other one is understandable on why it did not have its clique on a custom website. There are those who also have the same situation with the latter; however, I am not affiliated with them in any way. As for the others who can but did not, show your love by making a website dammit! It does not matter if there is a site up who already serves the purpose of the account. Please show some creativity.

With the popularity of Friendster, several clones spawned. I only stick to Friendster though I have received invitations through e-mail from blockmates urging me to join a copycat. Why should I? I do not see the point of having an account in one of those when I am already a member of one.

Friendster challenged me on the acceptance urge in me. I do not plan to make everyone my friend, even those whom i know for there are those whom I do not like. It is an addiction that while it can be easily dissuaded, prolonged usage is unhealthy to my being. I could have added strangers whom invited me but I do not like that. The only stranger in my account is a guy from FEU whom I have met in-game in Ragnarok Online of which we have been partymates for some time. Kahit 'di ko kilala sa personal, nakapag-usap naman kami ng matagal during our playthroughs bago ko siya na-add. Sa totoo lang, delikado ang magbigay ng e-mail address sa RO para sa Friendster unless ibang e-mail ang gamit mo for RO. Pwede kang ma-hack through there. I do not know when this fad will die (hopefully before magsawa ako sa blogging, which ayokong mangyari) but I do wish I will get over with the testimonial insecurity of mine. It is pointless but I cannot help it.

2004-07-06T12:47:00.000+08:00

Kailangan ko ng pangkalma. Hindi ako fit mag-drive (kahit na nakapagdrive ako kanina) dahil kinakabahan ako. 2nd day ko kanina mag-driving lessons. TTh ang sched ko sa driving. Yung school nasa Pasay Road, Makati at for the day, pinadrive ako around Makati's Central Business District (CBD). Ang coverage ay within Don Bosco (actually dun sa gas station malapit sa simbahan nun) to Makati Med, hanggang Makati/Ayala Ave. (alin man sa 2 at nababaliktad ko sila) and vice versa. Basta yun. Ang gamit ko ay Honda Civic (matigas na ang manibela, matigas din ang clutch kaya nakakangawit). Dahil sa Makati, panay go at stop, liko, repeat for 1 hour. Problema ko ang timing at bigat ng pagapak at pagrelease ng mga pedal. Kulang din ako sa coordination. Buti na lang at wala pa akong nababangga o nasasagasaan. Mabagal nga ang takbo ko at nasa 2nd gear lang ako. *Sigh* 2 down, 13 more days to go. Dahil twice a week ang driving lessons ko, aabutin pa ako ng Agosto. Wish me luck.

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Napasilip ako sa mga listahan ng shiftees ng CLA ngayon-ngayon lang. Congrats nga pala kina Shuro at Cimber at tanggap sila sa major nila. Sabay sa ilalim ng pangalan ni Cimber, nandun ang 1 sa mga 'frenships' ko. Tanggap na pala siya. Good luck na rin pala kay Funyak at may interview pa raw siyang kailangan para matanggap. Sa isa pang listahan, nakita ko ang names ng 3 ko pang kasama. Shift sila into Psychology-Business Management (PSM-BSM?). Kukuha pa sila ng test at interview. Balak na talaga nilang mag-shift. Last term pa kaya nila sinubukan eh hindi sila pumasa. Isa pa lang sa 'min ang nagshift na for this term. Out of the 6 of us, ako na lang ang natira't magstistick sa AB-PSM. Nakakalungkot pero kung gusto nilang magshift, wala akong magagawa't desisyon nila 'yon.

EDIT (at a later date since it's related to the 1st topic XD):

Nabawasan ang nerbyos ko ngayon. Baka kasi mas gising ako ngayon kesa nung Martes. Problema lang ay bano pa rin ako magmaneho. Namamatayan pa rin ako ng makina pero hindi singdalas nung huli. Kailangan ko talaga magpractice magmaneho lalo na sa mga turn at pag-go after ng stop. Buti na lang at tumigil akong kumuha ng French pansamantala at talagang hectic ang sched ko; may parish involvement pa kasi =P

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Going off topic, nakapaskil na pala ang listahan ng mga DL nung 3rd term. Hindi ko pa natitignan ang buong listahan pero dumami ang mga blockmates at Taong Troika sa DLSU na DL. Kasama na dun sina Tina, Erryl, Cimber, Shuro, some people na kilala ko na nasa ROTC sa batch namin, some batchmates from High School, some people na 'di ko kilala basta kaklase ko sila, yung blockmate ko nagshift na sa PSM-BSM at yung isa pa na tanggap sa AB-CAM (course nina Funyak) and some more from our block. Buti pa sila. Isa sa balak kong gawin bago maggraduate ay mag-DL kahit isang beses man lang. Speaking of DL, nag-aalala ko dun sa kasama kong shiftee na. Ang tagal na 'di pumapasok. Kahit mga iba kong kaklase ay 'di nakakaalam ng whereabouts niya. Dahil DL siya, at least hindi pa siya ibabagsak dahil sa tagal ng absence niya na hindi ko mawari kung nag-exceed na siya. Problema na niya ang mga ibang requirements tulad ng quizzes, etc. Haaayy... sana maabot ko naman 'yan.

2004-06-30T12:52:00.000+08:00

Akala ko hindi muna ako makakapost for a while. Hindi pala. Dapat itutuloy ko pa ang isang assignment ko na due pa sa Tuesday kaso umabot na ako sa part kung saan hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin =P Pero nasagutan ko na ang majority.

Ang dami ko talagang gustong ikwento kaso dated na. Kung wala akong ginagawa, brownout naman sa amin. Kagabi, nag-aaral ako; sa kandila pa nanggaling ang ilaw kasi nagbrownout. Bago nun, huling brownout sa amin nung Sabado lang. Halos isang araw na ang nakalipas bago bumalik ang kuryente. Leche!

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Mahaba ito kaya kung tinatamad kayong magbasa tungkol sa ROTC, skip!!

Kung binasa ninyo ang blogs nina Funyak at Cimber, ang latest na usapan ay ang Hell Day. Sa mga hindi nakakaalam, ang Hell Day ay ang araw na kailangan naming daanan muna bago maging ganap na miyembro ng special unit ninyo... well, dito sa La Salle anyway. It's better than hazing, that's for sure. Basically, papagurin kayo. Hindi ko alam kung ganito rin sa mga ibang unit nung Hell Day nila pero sa kaso naming mga Medics (Model Batallion yung 2 + si Shuro na nasa Japan ngayon at si Bom nung may ROTC pa siya), walang patawad kahit hilo ka na. May punishment nga sa amin kung hilo ka nung araw na iyon kasi Medic ka nga tapos nahihilo ka: run 1 lap around the field, corner to corner. Sa 4 na units na nag-Hell Day na (kami nung 2 Saturdays ago, last Saturday lang nung kina Cimber), kami at ang Model Batallion ang may uling sa mukha. Kahit noong Hell Day nina Bom meron din. Ba't ang Shore Patrol at Navigators wala? Wala pa akong naririnig about the Hell Day for RCG. Nauna mag-Hell Day ang SP sa batch namin and according sa mga kapwang Medics na on duty noong araw na 'yon, mas mahirap daw ang pinagawa sa 'min. Kasabay namin ang mga Navi mag-Hell Day pero mukha rin mas pinahirapan kami. I don't know sa Models at hindi ko napanood ang lahat ng pangyayari subalit sa kanila ata ang pinakamahirap. Mukhang mas matagal ang kanila kaso may presentation sila na paggalingan ang mga babae sa mga lalaki; wala kaming ganun. Kung sa bagay, mas marami sila since wala silang quota, 'di tulad ng mga ibang SSU. Dahil ang officer nila ay in restriction (bawal pumasok sa loob ng field), may time ang Model na nasa labas sila sa field, still undergoing the Hell Minutes habang nasa loob ng field throughout the actual Hell minutes ang iba.

When it comes to unit tradition, ang nakita ko pa lang ang sa amin, sa Navi at sa Model (I think). Based on observations, tradition ng Model yung maglalakad sila around the field, nakahawak sa kaharap mo (parang Trip to Jerusalem sans the chairs) tapos may chant pa sila. Kung 'yun iyon, hindi kaya nakakapagod iyon. Sa Navigators ang paggulong sa field na konektado sila. Sa amin ang Duck Walk. Sa Duck Walk, pinapalakad kayo na naka-squat across the field. Dapat konektado kayo kaya nag-aakbayan kami. Kailangang sabay-sabay kaya sorry ka kung mahuhuli ka, madadrag ka. Kung masyado kami mabagal, madarama namin ang pressure kaya mas lalong mananakit ang mga hita namin. Kung masyadong mabilis, matutumba kami. Ang hirap din kung nasa gitna ka (tulad ko), mapipisa ka. Kung kelan halfway na kami sa Duck Walk, binigyan kami ni Sir Chua (ang officer-in-charge sa 'min) ng time limit: dapat makalagpas kami sa flag namin ng 4 minutes. Umabot naman kami pero right after that, pinagulong at pinag-crawl (baby, prone, on our backs) kami sa grass. Masaya, at least makikita mo ang teamwork. I should also add 'thankful na hindi maputik sa field'. Kung hindi sa lalong madudungisan kami, baka madulas ako at madapa tulad ng last Saturday. Kailangang mag-double time eh.

One thing that I really liked about our Hell Day was when we finally got our additional paraphernalia after our boodle fight. Yup, it's really called B-O-O-D-L-E fight. Ang boodle daw ay mga pagkain na hindi served sa mess hall. Pinapasuot sa amin ang mga helmet at white pistol belts (may ilan na nagtiyagang nagpalit ng shoe laces) for our "graduation rites". Hindi na kami applicants, ganap na Medics na kami! May ipagmamalaki kami in the sense na "Pinagpaguran naming makuha ito" dahil hindi ito kaagad inabot sa 'min ang mga ito. Nasuot lang ng mga SP ang kanilang full paraphernalia a week after their Hell Day (once a week lang ang meetings). Yung iba na wala masyadong additional stuff sa uniform ay nagroll-up ng sleeves ng uppergarment sa fatigue. Yung "graduation rites" namin is basically having Sir Mina slapping your helmet. As in may tunog! Baka nagchecheck kung matibay ang helmets XD

Nag-enjoy talaga ako, kahit nananakit ang katawan ko nun. Sana (dapat) na-develop na ang pictures namin tapos i-scan at i-upload. Kung meron na, I might post it here.

Slightly off topic:
Kinuha raw ng SP ang flag namin nung Hell Day namin kaya as punishment, pinatakbo kami ng 2 laps around the field last Saturday. All that running I've done on that day (nagsalba pa ako ng limang tao) plus yung 30 pumps dahil sa deficiencies sa uniform (1 defiency = 10 pumps; push-ups for guys. Sa amin ng asst. batch rep namin ang pinakakonti) resulted into aching thighs. Paano nakuha ng SP ang flag namin? Bwiset.

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Nung Manila Day, nakapasok ako sa Makati City Hall. Kumukuha ako ng student's permit sa LTO (Makati branch) eh nakalimutan ko magdala ng 1x1 pic. Ang pinakamalapit ng kuhanan ng picture ay sa labas ng munisipyo so punta ako doon. Hindi pa ito yung booth na maghihintay ka ng 5-10 mins. 20 mins pa bago ma-develop ang picture ko kaya pasok ako sa loob ng City Hall. May luma at bago; pumasok ako sa bago. Ang sosyal ng City Hall nila! Walang binatbat ang munisipyo namin dito sa Parañaque. Sa bagay, mayaman ang Makati dala ng Central Business District. Nakuha ko na ang student's permit ko at nag-enroll na sa isang driving school. Simula na ng driving lessons ko bukas ng umaga at tuwing Martes at Huwebes ito (buti at pang-hapon ang mga klase ko sa mga araw na 'yon).

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Mag-iisang buwan na akong kumakaing mag-isa sa loob at labas ng school. Wala akong magagawa at iba ang sched ko sa blockmates ko. Kahit U-Break, wala rin. May klase pa sila bago ang U-Break, kakain na ako. Last class din nila iyon kaya nahihiya akong magyaya na samahan nila ako. Ayos lang sa akin kung ganito pero mas gugustuhin ko na may kasama.

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Iniisip ko pa rin kung maglalagay pa kaya ako ng music dito. Mukhang sa September pa akong magpapalit ng layout. Alam ko na pupunta sa Japan si Shuro pero nung Sabado ko lang nalaman na umalis na siya ^^' Paikli ng paikli ang mga sinusulat ko per section kasi malapit na rin mag-time. Kung may oras pa ako, mas marami akong sasabihin ukol sa last 2 sa taas nito. Gusto ko talagang ikwento ang karanasan ko sa Hell Day namin dahil memorable. It may not be everyone's cup of tea pero gusto ko talaga itong i-share. Pagpasensya ninyo ang kakulitan ko ngayon. It's time for me to go back to business *sigh*.

EDIT: Nasa 'Pinas na pala si Shuro. Ang cute ng belt niya!!!

2004-06-28T21:42:00.000+08:00

Should I add music to my blog? I'm thinking of using a midi version of either Rei's Theme from Evangelion, Dearly (Beloved) from Kingdom Hearts or even the Final Fantasy 10 Theme (To Zanarkand) to this layout. I don't know if it will cause a slowdown on the loading. I need opinions on this! By the way, I'm planning to get the midi in this site. Maybe you guys could also check the other midis and hear what suits best to this layout; I haven't checked all of them yet. In the meantime, I'm pretty busy studying. I don't even get to watch Gundam SEED on Cartoon Network; no matter how much they've butchered it, I don't care!! I may have time to tweak or add stuff in the actual layout but it's still short of posting lest it will be this short of an entry. I'm not planning to add a clock, a calendar or a counter, but I want to change the cursor... that is if I could find where I got my blinkie. I forgot to give credit to it right away =P As much as I want to blog, I'm afraid I won't be able to update for some time.

Oh, and I also added Ayu and Krys to the ever-growing list of bloggers plugged in here. Welcome!XD

EDIT: I got my blinkie here.

2004-06-14T13:38:00.000+08:00

After 10 yea... etse, 2 weeks pala

Una: gusto kong i-welcome sina Mary, Jhiea at Ava. Thanks sa pagdaan (though I did the bloghopping kina Jhiea at Ava) at salamat sa pagplug-in XD Their links are in the bottom 3 of the list respectively kasi silang mga bago addition. Maybe I should do more bloghopping ^__^

2nd: Yung mood emoticon at weather pixie sa side ay nahanap ko from Mary's blog. Dapat nga may clock o kalendaryo pero 'wag na lang. Adoptions ang pinagpalit ko. Kawaii ne?

3rd: Nakanood na rin ako sa wakas ng "Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban" kahapon *hindi nakapanood ng Troy during its run here. Pero Shrek 2, napanood pa =P* The book is my fave of the series and the movie... let's just say I liked the book a hundredfold more. I hear Warner Brothers will be changing direks again for the "Goblet of Fire" movie. Meron na rin daw silang Cho Chang AND IT AIN'T HEART EVANGELISTA!!! (Sino ba nagpasimuno nun? Was it even true? Rumors talaga @_@) Basta Korean actress since Cho is supposedly Korean (with a Chinese name?) I don't blame J.K. Rowling with inconsistencies. How'd she know the difference? 'Di ko napansin na lumabag na pala si Dennis Creevey dun sa rule na mga 3rd years above lang ang pwedeng pumunta sa Hogsmead...

Sensya na. Had to cut it here dahil may klase pa ako. Jaa ne!

EDIT: Tinanggal ko yung last part kasi wala rin kwenta kung closed ang site. Will continue hopefully within the week kasi tinotopak nanaman 'tong PC namin sa bahay. Sa school na nga ako kung mag-update >.<

2004-05-31T10:44:00.001+08:00

For my 1st 2 classes of the day, both profs were not present. I know that the 1st one is in Canlubang for a meeting concerning a program for the freshmen. I don't know if the 2nd prof is also involved with this meeting too. At least my 1st prof had told our class beforehand so I left our house at 9 and arrived here in the university at 10. My next class is on 12:50 so here I am, killing time uli.

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My 1st class during MWF is Relstwo. I wasn't excited about it but hey, I took it instead of Histciv, Engltri, Litera1, Philper or any other floating subject I have in our course checklist. The prof seems to be more approachable than my Relsone prof; the latter is a terror! Because he mentioned about our reflection papers are to be based from readings from a couple of books, I had to buy those 2. Then, there's the parish involvement. I got the forms already but I forgot to fill up the letter to be passed to our parish hence I haven't passed that letter yet. I don't plan to wait until 6 more weeks before the term ends (5 weeks service + forms to be passed a week before the finals). I don't mind where I'll be assigned at as long as I'm not the bellringer. Yung kampana na nasa torre na pinapatunog ng alas sais ng umaga't gabi. Meron daw ganun ang parish involvement niya, sabi ng prof namin. May 2 akong blockmates doon na kasama ko rin sa Bioarts plus isang ka-unit ko sa ROTC at 2 batchmates noong High School. Para sagutin ang tanong ni Bom, sina Allison San Pedro at Jasmine Mara 'yon.

2nd class ko naman ay Elesta1. Prerequisite namin mga Psychology majors 'yan, mapa BS, AB o LIACOM, para sa major subjects namin (Ang Elesta2 ay major subject). Kaya lahat ng mga kaklase ko rito ay kukuha ng Psych major. Sa dami na nagshift to Psych (AB-PSM pa lang, 15 ang nagshift. Kasama na d'yan si Tina), may mga nasarahan ng lahat ng available sections. Buti na lang at nagbukas pa ng panibagong section sa Elesta1 kaya may Elesta1 na rin si Tina at ilan sa blockmates ko. At least hindi sila mahuhuli. Ang inaabang ko sa Elesta1 ang lab kasi may computer. Mas maganda ang mga computer sa Elesta1 kesa sa Artcomp! Nahihirapan kami sa klase na maintindihan ang prof namin sa lecture ng ganitong kaaga. Patay!!!@_@ May 2 akong blockmates dito (iba pa sa nasa Relstwo) at ang mga taga St. Scho ay sina *coughlarasantoscoughraizelmatibagcough*. Kasama ko rin silang 4 sa Artcomp.

Pagkatapos ng break, Englart tuwing Lunes at Biyernes lang. Mas mabuti na 'yon kesa sa Martes at Huwebes dahil 3 araw ang paggitan tuwing weekdays imbes na 1. Iba ang prof ko this 2nd time around. Phew! Puro mga 3rd yr jocks kasama ko sa klase >_<' Ang tanging blockmate ko rito ay 1 sa mga nag-L.O.A. (Leave of Absence sa mga 'di nakakaalam) sa amin last term (yung 1, lumipat na ng ibang school). Meron din irreg from the 1st time akong nag-Englart na apparently ay binagsak din ng prof namin. Sa mga nagbasa ng entry ko bago nito, siya yung kasama nung 1 pang irreg.

Iisa ang prof ko sa Bioarts (MW) at Blabart (F). Sa totoo lang, nababato ako makinig sa lecture niya. Lecture lang siya kahit nung 1st meeting namin sa Blabart. Boring talaga. Idagdag mo pa d'yan na 2:30 ang simula ng 2. Wala pang development maliban na lang sa pag-assign ng groupings para sa group report (meron na magrereport mamaya! Buti na lang matagal pa kami) for Bioarts, at magdrawing ng internal organs plus grouping uli para sa Friday for Blabart. Sa Bioarts, 5 ang blockmates kong kasama. Yung 2 sa Relstwo, yung 2 sa Elesta1 at 1 na kaklase ko sa Blabart, Filipi2 at Artcomp. Sa kanilang 5, 2 ang kasama ko sa Blabart (na-mention ko na yung 1). Sa batchmates, sina Kat Planas at Janaleh Rosal. Si Janaleh ang ka-section ko sa Blabart. Last week ko lang nakilala ang mga ka-grupo ko sa Bioarts (kung sino magkakatabi ang grouping) pero pagdating sa Blabart, kami ng blockmates ko, 1 sa ka-grupo ko sa Bioarts at 1 pang guy ang magkagroup.

Ala-una pa ng hapon nagsisimula ang klase ko at ng ilang sa blockmates ko. Unlike MWF, mas marami akong kasamang blockmates tuwing TH. Halos kalahati ng block, with yung nasa Elesta1 at Blabart. Una ang Filipi2. Ang alam kong gagawin namin doon ay magsaliksik at magsalin ng Ingles sa Filipino. Nabanggit ng guro namin doon na isa sa group projects na gagawin ay magsalin ng pelikula! Mas mabuti na ito kesa sa libro eh ang originally nakalagay sa syllabus eh textbook ang isasalin. Kung nobela, papayag pa ako pero huwag textbook. Dahil group project, marahil kailangang bumili ng sariling kopya kung hahatiin ang gawain. Mas magastos ang libro kung wala ka pa nito. Kung pelikula, may pirated. Kung hindi barok ang subtitles, ayos. Kung hindi, kailangan pang i-transcribe ang dialogue bago i-translate. Pause, play... rewind kung kinakailangan. Basta hindi umaabot ng 3 oras yung pelikula ay ok na. Kung alalahanin, iwaasan ang Titanic, Lord of the Rings trilogy, The Ten Commandments (yung lumang pelikula na pinapanood sa mga bata sa religion class at pinapalabas rin tuwing mahal na araw), atbp. Malas lang kung ang guro mismo ang mag-aassign eh mukhang nag-aasign 'yon ng LOTR. Mabait yung instructor pero corny. Kaklase ko dito si Madonna, kabarkada ni Shuro.

Review sa MS Word, Excel at Powerpoint ang tatalakayin namin sa Artcomp. Ang bago dito ay ang MS Access dahil hindi tinuro sa 'min ito noon kaya hindi ako marunong gumamit nito. Mukhang ok ang prof. Wala pa naman kaming nagagawa eh nung lab namin noong Huwebes ay nag-Friendster lang ang mga tao kasi nangolekta lang ng index cards at diskettes ang prof namin. Halos mga kasama kong blockmates sa Filipi2 ay nasa Artcomp class ko rin. Yung iba na wala sa Filipi2 pero nasa Artcomp ay nag-drop ng Filipi2 kasi balak nilang magshift eh kailangan kunin ang prereqs. Ayan, pinagpalit nila ang Filipi2. Yung nasa Filipi2 pero hindi ko kasama sa Artcomp ay nasa ibang section. Sa mga taga-St. Scho maliban sa nabanggit ko na, kasama ko rito si Carmela Tolentino na blockmate ko rin last schoolyear.

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May meeting na kaagad sa ROTC noong Sabado. Ang alam ko rin, pati ang CWTS meron na rin meeting noong araw na iyon. Sa ROTC ko makikita ang 2 sa blockmates ko dati na hindi ko kaklase sa alin man sa subjects ko ngayon. Hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin kabisado ang lahat ng pangalan ng mga kapwa kong Medics pero may mga nakikilala ako. Sa wakas, may duty na kami. Mula 6:30 a.m. hanggang 9:15 a.m., nakatayo lang ang ilan sa amin (kasama ako) sa iba't ibang sulok sa field, mainly malapit sa mga MS1. 1st training day ng mga frosh kaya dapat maging alerto kung sakaling may mahihilo. Kahit na pinapunta ang mga frosh sa Pablo Perfecto, nakatayo pa rin kami doon, pinapanood ang mga ibang MS2 na nagmamartsa't naglalakad. As if naman may mahihilo. Hindi kami kasama sa mga martsa noong oras na 'yon dahil on duty nga. Binigyan kami ng 15 min break na nauwi sa wala kasi walang binibenta ang z2. Nagkaroon ng lecture ukol sa organization ng Navy, yung mga ranks nito, etc. As usual, nagkaroon ng surprise quiz. Buti na lang at nagnotes kami kahit sabihin ni Ma 'am Ramil na 'di kailangang magnotes dahil pwede magdownload ng hand-outs sa Yahoo! group. Bagong learning: magiging ensign si Sir Yau. Naka-khaki uniform siya tulad ng lecturer namin nung Sabado; kulang na lang yung colar insignia. Syempre mas mataas ang rank nung lecturer sa 'min. Kung hindi ako nagkakamali, based sa lesson (hindi siya nagpakilala pero may nameplate siya kaya alam namin ang apelyido. Hindi namin alam ang posisyon niya =P), 2nd lieutenant siya. Kung mali ako, equivalent ng Army o ng Air Force ang nabigay ko. Nauna kami matapos at pinababa kami. Pinalapit namin yung isa sa amin na lapitan si Sir Yau kung pwede kumain sa Aristo. Pumayag siya. Assembly uli sa filed nung 11:30 at mula nun hanggang ala una, on duty nanaman kami. Nakapagfill-up kami ng attendance card at nakatayo muli sa pwesto kung tska-tskaling may makita kaming nahihilo. Nakaupo kami nang tinawagan kami ni Sir Mina. Graduate na yata siya kasi hindi siya kasama sa flag ceremony at hindi naka-uniporme. Kinausap kami tungkol sa Hell Day mula kung anong gusto naming battle cry, anong pinapagawa sa 'min na specifically for that SSU (duck walk across the field. Dahil may hinuhukay, lengthwise across the field 'yon) at ang mga paraphernalia. Ang dami pang bibilhin!

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Nahihirapan pa rin ako makasingit sa computer namin sa bahay. Hopefully isang linggo na lang d'yan ang kapatid ko doon. Kung hindi naglalaro ng pRO, may download na episode ng Ragnarok the Anmation o ng Naruto. Yung sa Naruto, ang latest story arc sa anime ang kinukuha; na-skip namin ang ibang episodes ng Chuunin Exam. Kung ipapalabas pa lang ang episode 86 sa Japan, may episode 85 na kami na subbed sa computer (tandaan: sa Aug. 21 pa lang ilalabas ang Naruto movie sa Japan. Matagal pa yata aabot ng 'Pinas iyan!). Bale, si Jiraiya na ang sensei ni Naruto (nandiyan pa rin si Kakashi kaso under the protection ni Jiraiya si Naruto) at nagpakita na rin si Itachi (onii-san ni Sasuke). Ipapakita pa lang Tsunade, 1 sa mga sennin (candidates for kage; along with Jiraiya at, I heard sa kapatid ko dahil hindi ko ni-research, si Orochimaru) sa next episode. Heto, baka maging suki sa G302 unless MWF, bago mag-9:20 dahil nasa Cybernook ako. Yung 1st class ko nasa SJ.

Nasa Pop Jam pala kagabi si Gackt. Tamang-tama ang timing ko ang naabutan ko siya magsisimula lang. Nest week raw, nandoon sa Pop Jam ang Laruku. Sa mga mag-aabang, ipinapaalam ko na sa Linggo ng 8:30 0 9 ng gabi 'yon (mas mabuti maging handa!), sa NHK. Dito ko itatapos ang entry ko at malapit na magtime for my next class. Sorry kung bigla ang shift from straight English to Taglish (hindi Filipino sapagkat hindi ko binaybay ang mga banyagang salita ng tulad sa Tagalog). Jaa ne!=)

2004-05-24T13:16:00.000+08:00

Dahil ngayon lang ako uli nakakagamit ng computer ng matagal...

Yep, ngayon lang uli. Ayaw kasi umalis ng utol ko sa computer namin sa bahay as if nakadikit ang pwet niya sa upuan. Doon nga sa kwartong 'yon siya natutulog at madaling araw pa kung siya'y maglog-out dahil addict sa RO, both online at offline. Ang dami kong gustong ilagay pero outdated ang karamihan nun tulad ng pagiging 1st-time voter. Anyway, dapat may klase ako sa period na ito kaso hindi dumating ang prof. Pagkakataon ko na magblog.

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R.I.P.
SUMMER 2004

Ok, so applicable lang 'yan sa ngayon sa mga taga-DLSU at CSB pero aabot din iyan sa mga taga ibang school.

2nd year college na ako ngayon ngunit hindi ko pa nadadama na nakaka-isang taon na ako sa kolehiyo. Naka-dalawang subjects na ako (excluding yung subject ngayon na hindi dumating ang prof. Baka naligaw tulad ng Instud prof ko last year). Sa una, 2 ang blockmates ko doon. Sa ikalawa, 1 lang. Yung klase ko sa oras na ito, wala. Sigurado ako na makakasama ko ang mas marami sa 2 blockmates sa TH classes ko. Habang kaya kong tiisin na pumasok sa klase nang walang kakilala, hindi ko alam kung makakayanan kong kumain mag-isa every other day sa isang term. Buti na lang kaninang lunch break at kasama ko si Tina. Hindi guranteed na kasama ko siya lagi maglunch MWF kasi ang haba ng break niya't baka isipin na umuwi during break. Mula 10:20-2:30 break niya! May klase pa kasi ang karamihan sa blockmates ko during my break, as far as I know. Sa mga nagtataka, 11:30-12:50 lunch break ko =P

Maliban sa blockmates, nakita ko ang isang taga-Medics (special unit na kinabibilang ko sa ROTC) sa unang class. Nakita ko rin doon ang isang batchmate ko sa old school namin. Pagdating sa 2nd class, kasama ko sa section ang 2 sa kaklase ko nung 4th year. Ok sa 'kin na kaklase ko uli ang 1 pero ang kasama niya... ayoko sa kanya noon at ngayon. Hula ko hindi ako nag-iisa diyan sa sentiments na 'yan. Sa 2 subjects na 'yon, kasama ko uli ang isang irreg last term na iniiwasan ko dahil siya ang tipong wala pang ginagawa sa 'yo, naturn-off ka na. Tawag ng block namin sa kanya si "Kill me now" after an activity na sabi ng prof mag-isip ng possible topics related to a theme. Yung theme si Britney. Ayaw niya kay Britney kaya nagwhine siya sa prof namin na "Kill me now" with her American accent. Dapat marinig ninyo siya magtagalog, walang accent 'di tulad ng mga Fil-Ams na hindi marunong magtagalog bago magshowbiz. Ano 'yon?! Tapos, lagi siyang kumakapit sa kasama niyang guy na kaklase ko rin sa 2 subjects na iyon. Hinahatak niya yung kasama niya sa samahan siya sa kung saan-saan, maliban na lang sa banyo (hopefully). Kahit sa labas ng klase namin, lagi silang magkasama. Ewan ko kung sila "sila" pero unlike yung girl, ok naman yung guy. Between classmate ko nung 4th year at nung irreg, mas iniiwasan ko yung kaklase ko kasi isang taon ko siya dinanas at mas nakaharap ko ng harapan, if you get what I mean, 'di tulad nung irreg na laging nakatutok ang atensyon sa kasama niya at pagiging teacher's pet.

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Last Saturday, lumabas kami nina Jena, Liv, Keithly at Tina sa G4. Nanood kami ng Shrek 2. Guys, panoorin ninyo kung 'di pa ninyo napapanood. Nakakatawa talaga! May ticket pa kami na consumable within the next 6 months. Kumain kami ng Japanese, nagkwentuhan, nagpakuha ng barkada pic, naglibot, nagwindow shopping, may bumili ng hikaw (3 for 100! Ang cute ng zipper earrings ^_^), nagpapicture sa cellphone ni Tina (sayang, sira ang IR ng cell ko. Hindi mapadala yung picture sa telepono ko) at nagTimezone. Masaya ang araw nun, lalo na't nakita ko muli sina Jena at liv na hindi ko pa nakikita ever since pagkatapos ang Grad Ball, doon sa bahay ni Funyak. Nga pala, may kwento si Keithly. Yung blockmate niya nanood ng Troy. Sa harap ng blockmate niya, may magBF. Ganito ang usapan nila...

GF: Sino d'yan si Troy?
BF: Si Brad Pitt!

LOL!!!XD

2004-05-01T03:25:00.000+08:00

Haven't been posting anything here for a while since my younger brother always hogs our PC, playing RO =P I'm ok, and nobody in our family knows about what happened concerning my previous entry ^.~ It's waaaaayyy past my bedtime as I'm typing this and the reason why I'm still awake is because I'm filling in for my sister while she's sleeping. Apparently, she's downloading something.

While my brother is glued to his seat and the computer monitor all day, I've been watching anime. Our PS2 needs its adaptor replaced but we never got into action. Most of the titles were borrowed from my cousin. I've watched:

Full Metal Panic
Full Metal Panic? Fumoffu
Chobits (our cable operator does not offer Animax T.T)
Naruto (was able to borrow eps. 1-33; watches the rest in ABS-CBN)
Witch Hunter Robin
Onegai Teacher
Scrapped Princess
GateKeepers 21 (my own copy; had Syun burn it for me. Syempre may bayad)
Ragnarok the Animation eps. 1-3 (as of today. Yes, Ragnarok as in RAGNAROK ONLINE. We download them)

I've watched all their episodes, save for Naruto and Ragnarok which are still being aired (Ragnarok is in ep. 5 or 6! Subs go as far as ep. 3 when I checked the other day). Yes, I spend the past few weeks holding anime marathons to myself. I'm wondering if I'll go for another runthrough to all them, especially the majority which I borrowed. I don't have a problem watching GK21 or Ragnarok again anytime soon. I just need to have the latter burned. Our PC doesn't have a CD burner but my sister's laptop does! There's no problem with the Internet connection; it's fast! An episode takes an hour and a few minutes to download although we download them around this time. Also, my sister takes her laptop with her everytime she goes back to Cavite because that's te only computer around in the house she's renting. At least she stays with us from Friday evening 'til Monday morning. Hehe, I'm splurging on anime so that when the new schoolyear begins, I hope I can focus more on my academics after what happened last term. Well, that's it for now. Looks like it'll be a while before I get to post again, guessing that my brother will continue to hog the computer when he's awake. Just want to let you guys know that I'm doing fine ^_^

2004-04-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

Dapat matuwa ako't nakapgblog uli ako pagkatapos ng isang lingo. I refrained visiting my blog or any other blog during my short vacation. Actually, halos hindi ako makagamit ng computer ng pinsan ko kasi either siya o ang utol ko ang nandoon. However, kakagaling ko lang sa nerbyos sa kakasagot ng oral exam sa JPRizal at sa pagtanggap ng aking kutob ukol sa final grade ko sa Englart.

3 ang exams ko ngayon: Artsche, Clabart at JPRizal. Ang Artsche at Clabart ay written at puro multiple choice. Nagrely ako sa stock knowledge at kung hindi ko alam ang sagot, nanghula ako. Sa JPRizal, bubunot ako ng 2 tanong mula sa 48. Bawal magpalit o magpass. Nang tinanong sa 'kin ng mga kaklase ko kung alin ang mga nabunot ko (una ako naka-sched sa block), sabi nila "Swerte mo, madali iyan". Tinatanong din nila ako kung paano makipag-usap ang prof ko sa 'kin. Swerte nga at hindi ko nabunot ang ilan sa mga tanong na wala talaga akong alam. Hirap ako magreview noong nakaraang lingo dahil kasama ko ang 8 sa mga pinsan ko sa mother side (marami pa akong pinsan. 4 sa States, 4 ang hindi nakasama. Wala pa diyan ang mga pinsan ko sa father side - 9 sila. Lahat na nabanggit ko puro 1st cousins. Ganyan talaga 'pag maraming kapatid ang mga magulang mo =P).

Anyway, ang problema ko sa prof namin, nambabara siya. Mukhang hindi niya nagustuhan ang sagot ko sa unang tanong kaya pinabunot ako kaagad nung 2nd. Sa huli, tinanong pa niya sa 'kin na based sa mga sagot ko ba eh dapat ba niya ako ipasa. Kinabahan talaga ako. Nakalimot ko pa magdala ng mga lumang libro para i-donate. Sayang, may additional grade pa naman 'yon. Nakiusap ako kung pwede kong dalhin na lang ang mga iyon bukas since meron pang kukuha ng oral exam. Sabi niya "Ok".

Pagkatapos, kinuha ko ang course card ko sa Englart. I had all the time to prepare myself for the news. Sabi ko nga ba, bagsak ako. Kinausap ako ng prof. Sabi niya sa 'kin gulat siya at nagawa kong bumagsak dahil mukha pa naman akong may ilalabas na matinong paper. Ang ibinuga ko: "Nahirapan ako sa topic ko. Gusto kong palitan but it's too late". Hindi ko masabi sa kanya na tinamad ako sa paper na 'yon. Oo, gusto kong palitan ang topic ngunit hindi ko na mabago nang nahirapan na ako. Imbes na sikapin ko pang maghanap ng additional references kahit natignan ko na ang available sa library at sa bahay (nahirapan talaga akong maghanap ng info that supports my claim. Kung meron man 1, wala akong makitang similar info from another source), I sticked with what I have. Syempre, ang lumabas ay kulang na kulang.

I'm keeping myself calm at that matter. Problema ko ay kung papaano ko ito sasabihin sa nanay ko na may bagsak ako. I could attempt retrieving yung list ng final grades ko per term na pinapadala sa bahay through mail; matagal na nakalipas ang term 'pag nakakarating na sa 'min, akala tuloy na hindi na makakarating. Hindi ako maka-enroll online ng summer for it kasi ang lumalabas ay naka-enroll ako dun ngayon term. Hindi pa kasi nasusubmit sa registrar. I won't attempt something drastic to change my grades. Kahit anong gawin ko, wala akong sapat na ebidensiya na magsasabi na marami akong nagawa; marami ako ng opposite. Baka i-adjust ko into the next term o kunin ko in yet another term. I don't think my mom is aware that I'm retaking it since she barely knows the course codes. Talagang mag-aadjust ako dahil nakalimutan ko mag-enroll sa ROTC nang nagsubmit ako sa online enrollment. Ayoko naman magreklamo ang nanay ko na binagsak ako eh gabi-gabi akong buong magdamag ginagawa ang paper ko (or rather, what I can make the most out of it). It's not the 1st time na may binagsak ako dahil hindi ako nagsusubmit ng requirements though the only other time it happened was back at grade 4.

Nakakahiyang bumagsak and I'm not proud about it. Nagsisisi ako na pinabayaan ko ito over my other subjects na ayokong makakuha ng mababang grade para matuloy ko na ang major ko. Alam ko na maraming nagsasabi na walang katuturan ang major ko pagdating ng araw at magtatrabaho ako. Underpaid ka sa kung ano mang hanapbuhay na maaring pasukin ng isang AB-Psychology major unless nasa HRD ka ng isang inter/multinational company, magturo ka abroad (kukuha pa ako ng teaching license) o mag-aral uli pero this time nursing. Para makapsok ka dun, dapat matataas ang grades mo. Mukhang matatanggap ba ako kung so-so ang grades ko plus a failure to boot? Ang bilis ng panahon and look, I'm halfway through college! 3 years lang ako dito at incoming 2nd year na ako. Kailangan ko talagang sikapin ang natitirang 6 regular terms ko. I really need the self-discipline and the motivation. Ayokong magaya sa isa kong pinsan na na-kick out mula sa isang pang university dahil sobrang bagsakin siya.

Tao lang ako. I'm not brilliant or anything. I've ranted too much but did too little. I have my faults. I want to remind myself and others of my mistakes para hindi maulit. Pasensya na at I'll keep what happened sa bakasyon ko noong Holy Week plus some other things to myself. Nag-enjoy ako but that's just me retreating sa hinala ko. I do hope that while it's inevitable that I'll be creating problems for myself unless I change to where it's avoided, I do seek to change but I won't put my head too high above tha clouds to assume na maiiwasan kong gumawa ng mga problema sa sarili ko completely. I'm not perfect. Ganyan raw talaga ang buhay.

2004-04-06T12:54:00.000+08:00

I haven't posted anything for awhile and by the time you guys read this (unless it's before 4 p.m., GMT +8 of April 6, 2004), I'm

ON VACATION
until April 11. However, I and the rest of the students in the university will be taking our finals on the week after this week. For the past few days inbetween posts, I was busy completing all necessary requirements in different subjects. Now I dread the course card distribution, much more than I dread the finals, especially when it comes to this English subject. I'm 95% sure that I'll flunk it because I do not think I passed the biggest requirement (40% 'yon, if I'm not mistaken). Its difficulty is relative and my problems with it are more or less the result of procastination. I do not want to retake it (it's not a prerequisite to anything, is it?) but throughout the term, I did not enjoy taking it. Nakakawalang-gana gawin ang subject na ito. Sa mga tipong finals talaga, 4 lang ang subjects na magcoconduct ng tests next week: Artsche (Chem lecture), Clabart (Chem lab), GenPsy and JPRizal. Yung JP nga oral exam >_< Good luck na lang sa 'kin for the remainder of the week na makakapag-aral ako kahit nasa beach kami (uwi kami sa probinsya mamayang gabi kaya mukhang 'di ako makakablog kahit may internet access ang auntie ko at ang kanyang pamilya doon). Good luck na rin sa 'kin for next week kasi finals nga. I don't think ipapasa ako ng Artsche prof ko dahil lang sa kakilala niya ang tatay ko; hindi tama 'yon ^^' Last but not the least, I really REALLY need good luck sa grades. I'll be getting my course card in the said English subject on Monday. Great, just to dampen the rest of that week (pero ang alam ko, GenPsy na lang ang 'di ko sinasugatan na exam by that time, according to MyLasalle. Ako bahala mag-schedule kung kelan ko gusto mag-oral exam).

2004-03-26T13:27:00.000+08:00

I'M DOOMED!!! (and so are probably at least a couple of my blockmates)

Deadline kanina ng Englart paper namin. Hindi pa ako natulog buong magdamag kanina para tapusin 'yon. Sa lahat ng projects o paperwork, this is definitely not advisable for cramming. Nakakabagot ang gawain, boring ang subject, ayoko ang teacher... GYAAA!!! It's funny pero kaming naghahabol at the last minute, turing sa 'min ng block na magaling sa English. Not that I'm flattered or anything, walang kinalaman ang Englone sa current state namin. Alam ko meron pang iba, nagpasa lang sa pigeon hole. Kahit uno lang ang grade ko rito, masaya na ako. Takot akong malaman kung anong magiging grade ko. It's not the best I've made nor is it the enjoyable to do. Minadali ko siya dahil sobra ako kung magprocastinate. Ang dami ko pang kulang. Ayos lang sa 'kin kung tatanggap pa ang teacher namin ng pahabol, kahit may bawas na. Wah!

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Dahil hindi ako natulog kagabi, I should be thankful na half-day ang pasok ko tuwing Biyernes. Hindi nga lang ako makauwi kaagad dahil ihahatid pa ang brother ko sa farewell party ng class nila (graduation niya bukas. Kahit nanay ko hindi makapaniwala na makakagraduate siya XD. Grade 7 pa lang naman) at this time. Sosyal ang venue - sa manager's suite ng isang condo sa The Fort kasi tatay ng kaklase niya ang manager. Dadalhin ko nga pala ang aso ko sa vet mamaya (alagang-alaga sa 'kin iyan; ako nga lang ang magbabayad ngayon dahil walang iniwan na pera ang nanay ko. Kung sabagay at hiningi ko siya para sa birthday ko =P). Bago 'yon, bibili pa ako ng mga pinapadala sa ROTC dahil hindi ako nakapagdala last week. Hehe, 'di pa rin pala ako makakatulog kaagad. (And yhep, I type as I go)

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About the matching bracelets na nabanggit ko sa previous entry, palagay ko sa ground floor ng Yuchengco binili 'yon. May mga nagbebenta roon. Weird kung coincidence na magkaparepareho sila, simple lang ang itsura nito. Actually, nasabi ko na nang nagtanong ako sa isa sa kanila, tinanong yung isa pa kung saan nanggaling. Kung sa Yuchengco, ba't hindi pa masagot? Ito lang ang pinagtataka ko. Wala akong balak bumili rin ng kapareho dahil ubos na ang pera ko. Unless they expect na alam ko, as in implied na sinabi ang "Duh!" or how our Englart instructor says it "Da-uhh!". Lagi akong pumapasok at lumalabas sa eng gate kaya hindi ko napansin kaagad. After 10 months, huwag naman sabihin na hindi pa rin nila napapansin na kaya hindi ako sumasabay sa kanila lumabas ng south gate dahil sa eng ako lumalabas. Usually, magkasabay kami lumabas ng classroom tsaka lang maghihiwalay ako sa kanila.

O sige na nga, pahinga muna.

2004-03-25T17:07:00.000+08:00

By request, may update na.

Birthday ni E-Kyub kahapon kaya Belated Happy Birthday sa kanya. Na-greet ko na siya kahapon through text and it went something like...

ako: naks, gurang na b?
siya: d ko pa fil!

XDD

Sa bagay, 'di ko pa rin feel kahit kalahating taon na ang nakalipas since birthday ko. Paulit-ulit pa rin akong sinasabihan ng ate ko na "Grow up!".

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Nakasalubong ko si Bom kahapon. Parehong dismissal na namin nun. Napaisip ako na hanggang ngayon, ginaganahan akong makipag-usap sa kanya. Bihira ko siyang makita tapos on hiatus ang blog. Nang pauwi na ako, nagtext ako sa kanya ng "Sorry" dahil ang daldal ko. Sina Jena, hindi ko pa nakita since... April 1? Kahit na hindi ako maka-relate sa usapan nila, minsan nakikisama ako kina Cimber na parang saling pusa (pun intended) just to hang out with them for a short while. Hindi ako gaanong nakipag-usap sa iba tulad nina E-Kyub nang nag-graduate na kami ngunit gusto kong alamin kung kamusta na sila. Masyado akong mahiyain ngayon. Namimiss ko na talaga ang HS barkada ko lalo na sa sitwasyon ko ngayon sa mga kasama ko sa college.

Ewan ko ba at kahit mga maliliit na bagay pinapansin ko. Kanina, yung "frenships" ko (may quotation marks na kasi katakataka sila) were wearing matching bracelets. All 5 of them, parehong itsura at kulay. Nang tinanong ko yung 1 sa kanila kung saan nila binili o sino nagbigay, hindi niya masagot sa 'kin. Uwian na non eh itong nakausap ko nasa loob pa ng classroom. Lumabas ako at nakita ko nakatambay sa hallway yung 1 pa. Tinanong ko sa kanya tungkol sa bracelets tapos kinailangan pa tawagin ang 1 pa sa 'min... kanila. Bigla iniba nila ang topic (sila na ang nag-uusap about something na hindi na ako maka-relate) kaya nagpaalam na ako't umalis. Nabanggit ko na dati ang iba.

Inaamin ko na compared to all of them, ako ang pinaka-distant. Mas ma-PR sila kaysa sa 'kin kaya marahil nakisama ako sa kanila nung una. Pero pagdating sa group reporting, akong laging una =P Yung pinaka ma-PR sa 'min, 2 na ang barkada sa block, so to speak. Mas sumasama na siya sa iba ngayon pero lagi siyang bumabalik sa grupo. Nakisama ako sa kanila ngunit parang may mali. Dahil ba na masyado akong tahimik? Nakikinig na lang ako sa kanila dahil may mga bagay na hindi ako maka-relate tulad ng love life. Nag-uusap sila ng personal stuff (mga tipong continuation ng napag-uaspan nila sa phone kagabi) habang ako'y nasa background. Anong gagawin ko, mag-eavesdrop? I don't think that similar interests is a factor in keeping a relationship. Starting a relationship, yes but hindi common interests ang laging pinag-uusapan. 'Sus, pagdating sa similar interests, wala akong ka-relate sa block except kung ang klase mismo ang pag-uusapan. Napapanis ang laway ko ngayon. Wala masyadong help ang maghalubilo sa iba kong blockmates. Parepareho silang lahat ng usapan dahil 'pag may plano ang 1, invited silang 5 tulad ng debut, maggimmick, manood ng sine, atbp. Buti pa sila, nagkakaintindihan. Mismatched yata ako.

Sa totoo lang, noon parang ganito rin ang naramdaman ko sa TNTC, hindi ganun kalala compared sa mga kasama ko. Kaya nangulit ako na makibahagi sa mga bagay-bagay to the point na annoying ako. Then again, nung time na iyon malala na sakit ng tatay ko kaya pinipilit kong iwasan isipin 'yon by doing that. Sumobra na ako, nagkaroon ng confrontation and things didn't go back to the way it was. Ok na ang relasyon ko sa TNTC pero iba na ang pakikitungo ko nito. Mas mahiyain na ako sa mga kaibigan ko. Well, most of them anyway if anyone of them doesn't agree to what I'm saying. Ayokong dumaan uli sa nangyari sa 'min nang nakipagkaibigan ako sa college. Mukhang sumobra ako. Baka KSP lang talaga ako. Hindi naman ganun kalala ang mga ibang problema ko yet I'm still a retreatist. Wala akong ginagawang bisyo; nagpapatupad lang ng ilan sa mga 'di magandang kaugalian ng mga Pinoy tulad ng manyana habit at "Bahala na". Bwiset, gumawa nanaman ako ng sariling problema! Ano, ayusin ko ba o magsimula ng bago?

Sheesh, masyado ko yata 'to sineseryoso. Alam ninyo ako, very sensitive. Madrama.

2004-03-15T09:28:00.000+08:00

First things first. May HaloScan na ako sa ilalim ng bawat entry. It's either .../! or !!!, depende kung ilan ang nagreply. If ever there will be a time na tinotopak din ang HaloScan provided na madalas din ito gamitin tulad ng chatterbox ko, papalitan ko ang chatterbox into a tagboard from www.tag-board.com.

Also, gumawa ako ng panibagong blog para lang sa quizzes. I don't know how to make a separate page, kahit pop-up man lang, para dun. I know I'll need a free provider but I lack the know-how. Those that I've taken previously will still be on this space, although any future results will be posted here. Nakakabagot magscroll down sa laki ng na-occupy ng quizzes when you're skipping it para basahin ang text.

I've also added 3 fanlistings, although I haven't checked if I've been added. May tinanggal rin akong 1 dahil mga buwan nang 'di nag-update ng members. Nagdagdag din ako ng 2 RO webcomics. Actually, yung 1 na-add ko before tapos tinangal dahil nag-hiatus for a few months. Now that it's back, binalik ko uli. I still read RO webcomics but I don't get to play pRO for weeks nor mukhang makakalaro during the rest of the term. Dapat nga bawasan ko ang oras ko sa Internet because I've been neglecting my paper. Nag-aaral pa rin ako yet I admit cramming ang ginagawa ko. Well, that's it for updates in this site.

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Nakapag-enroll na rin ako sa wakas. Kulang na lang ang bayad. Yep, Lunes na ako nakapagsubmit. I tried last Friday but DLSU's server was so slow. It went down between 4:30-5:00 p.m. I was also a bit undecided on what courses and sections to take. I planned on taking up 18 units since in our course checklist, ideally we should be taking up 18 units until the 8th term. I don't want to have a floating subject come the 9th term for that's my last term in college. Yes, I only have 9 terms throughout my college life, excluding any possibility that I may take summer classes or extend my stay in college due to failures. Naaalala ko tuloy ang ate ko who could have graduated a term earlier had she not flunk her thesis. Yep, bumagsak ka lang ng thesis mo, delayed ka ng 1 term hanggang pumasa ka =(

Anyway, what I planned was to take some courses na blocked and some na deblocked. Yung mga deblocked are those na pinagswitch ko ng sections dahil ayoko yung timeslot nila. I don't want to go any time earlier than 9 a.m., save for ROTC, kasi nalalate ako at this time. Sa mga binigay sa 'min na courses to take for next term, mas konti ang units nito sa dapat nasa term namin according to our course checklist. Sa course checklist namin, Engltri at Histciv dapat kami. Dun sa binigay na list, wala ang mga ito pero may Artcomp, which nakalagay naman in a later term. I traded Engltri and Histciv for Artcomp and Relstwo. Sa Artcomp, block pa rin ako. Ayoko rin pagsabayan ang 2 English courses. Ang kailangan kong i-take talaga is Elesta1 since prerequisite ito sa major namin.

Bilang pangtapos nito, may mga gusto akong sabihin:

@ Funyak: *Cheers* Yaka 'yan! Makakahabol ka pa sa enrollment. Good luck sa summer =) *thumbs up*

@ Cimber: Good luck sa Sabado. Kung kaya ng mga tao sa unit namin, kaya mo rin 'yan!XD

@ Bom: Nababasa mo ba ito? Eh 'di online ka!
(Oo, corny ako ngayon.)

@ Jena: Yay! Bagong layout. Mas gusto ko na siya ngayon dahil nahirapan ako magbasa sa old layout mo due to the background >_< Relevant ang picture sa blog name ha. Alam mo, dapat mag-organize ang TNTC ng get-together sometime during vacation. Yung lahat ay makakapunta. Hindi ko pa nakikita kayo nina Jackie at Karina for (sobrang) almost a year now =P

@ Shuro: Yay! May update na siya!

@ E-Kyub: Good luck sa finals ninyo. Pasensya na at walang kwenta ang comment ko ngayon.

@ Syun: Kung makakabili ako ng CD-Rs o makahingi ng extra sa ate ko (may mga blank sa bahay namin pero siya ang may-ari nun) by Wednesday, paburn ako ng GateKeepers 21. Tenk yu!!! (3x) *bows continously*
(Kung mapapansin mo ang oras, edited actually ito ^^')

sa mga taga-TNTC: Kung 'di pa ninyo alam, accepted shiftee si Tina. AB-PSM ang kukunin niya. Yay! May kasama na akong kapwang Taong Troika sa major! Congratulate ninyo ^_^

@ herself: *Auti mode* Sa Biyernes, matulog ka nga ng maaga. Baka mahilo ka nanaman sa a.m. exercises. Kumain ka rin ng agahan. Kahit Huwebes eh 'wag ka nga magpupuyat. Kinakawawa mo ang sarili mo.

Err... yun lang. (I'm bad at ending this.)

2004-03-08T17:15:00.000+08:00

When I was publishing my post below, I heard a familiar voice say "Oh, nandito ka pa?" at my back. It turned out to be one of the 5 people I mentioned, the one who I thought had gone home because he no longer has any class for the rest of the day. Thankfully, the page has already finished loading so I quickly closed it. If he had read what I've been typing here, who knows what he'll think about me. I didn't mean to describe him or any of them negatively; it's just that our interaction made me upset. I may have exaggerated but then again, I'm told that I tend to overreact. I've cooled down a bit until I've received text messages from 2 of them just now saying that I'll be the 1st to report tomorrow. In my mind, I was thinking "WHAT?! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME EARLIER!!!" Because I still go home by being fetched, I can't go home immediately and start that damn report. My textbook, which is my main referrence because this where are topics were based, is at home. It sucks when I'm told that I'll be doing something important at the last minute =P

EDIT: Memes are transferred here.

2004-03-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

Looks like I get to blog after all. It's our 2 hour lunch break and I'm currently on my own, just like last week. Out of the 5 people that I'm usually with, 1 doesn't have any class after this (he dropped it), 3 were meeting some people and 1 went with another group. I could have joined with any of the latter 4 although I'll be a decoration on the background. If things are going to be like this for the next few days, I'll surely think of missing my High School batchmates who made my four-year stay worthwhile despite the rough patches. These people are mainly my friends. I could be thinking about it because someone celebrated her debut. Actually, I know 2 girls who celebrated their debut; my blockmate last Friday (that's why a lot of us were absent that day) and a fellow Taong Troika last Saturday. I don't mind that I was not invited in either debut since I admit that I wasn't close with the 2, but the one with my blockmate made me feel left out since almost everyone from our block was invited. I'm not sure if any of our other blockmates aside myself was also not invited. What I do know is that some of us were not able to attend.

Our block has been together 9 months already and while I get along with almost everyone, I feel like it's all in the outside. I still feel a loner despite hanging around with my so-called frenships. I may be the most distant among us which is probably why I'm always the one who is separated from the group every time there's we're asked to be grouped in 5s. It's really annoying since it has always been like this right from the 1st term. Ego-centric in one hand but it makes me wonder why we never alternate on who's the one who'll be grouped with another set of people. It's always me. It also bothered me that these 5 would be calling or texting each other about personal matters but they never approach me on this. The only texts I received from them (a call on the phone for me is rare) always concerned on academics. I know I should meet them in the middle yet they never reached out to me. They kept saying "Sorry" to the extent that while inside I don't want to buy it anymore, I take it because the it's petty. I bet they don't know that I'm feeling this way. I thought that despite our differences, we can get along so I stayed. There are no observable conflicts between any of us, it's my discomfort with how things were going on between us that I kept hidden within myself. They're nice people but I feel unnoticed. All I do is listen to them because it is hard for me to butt in since there are things that all except me can relate to. Does it matter that all of them are planning to take a double major while I'm the one who's going all the way? I'm sorry if I sound selfish but that's how I'm feeling right now. My relationships with my H.S. barkada was never the same again after all the havoc I raised. Even so, I know I can't relate to everyone from the TNTC back then after that but at least it gave me a sense of friendship that wasn't artificial. My college friends may think that we're also having that sense but that's among themselves. I can't seem to connect with them in a personal level. It's all in the outside.

After being redundant for the past number of sentences, I'm confused on what to do about it. Is it me or them that caused this feeling that I'm having right now? What should I do about it? I'm not happy on how things are going on with my life, namely my studies and my relationships with other people. It seems I'm being a loner all the time. While I appreciate having someone to help me around stuff, it seems it just ends there. I'm sorry for I really need to let this out of my system.

2004-03-07T18:58:00.000+08:00

Dahil super haba ng post ko kahapon, mas maikli na ito. PROMISE! Kung gusto ninyo tignan yung post na 'yon, click ninyo ang 'PAST!' graphic sa left. Papuntang archives ko 'yan. Pasensya na at puro quizzes uli ngayon. I know I could have used my time to do something more productive but I don't want to put myself into more stress because I still have the sniffles. Haaayy... may pasok nanaman bukas, sa ayaw o sa gusto ko >_<'

You're tame blonde Hyde: cool, independent, and
very together. You don't like to bother with
details and you have a no-nonsense approach to
your life. And you rock. You rock HARD. Your
mantra: "I only take orders from one
person: myself."

What Hyde hairstyle are you?
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Sa mga hindi nakakaalam, ito ang hairstyle ni Haido-sama sa Moon Child. Not exactly ganun na ganun sa picture pero nasa phase na 'yan siya for most of the movie. Refer to Shuro's blog, Nibelung Valesti, para sa itsura niya mismo dun =)

Is the glass half full or half empty?

A pretty straightforward video (compared to the
others, anyway), you rely on the coolness of
the band and the fun of just rockin' out to
provide your subject matter. But you DO end
with a kick-ass sarariman victory dance.

Which L'arc~en~ciel Music Video Are You?
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What I really liked in this video was the dance. @ E-Kyub, Shuro, Funyak at Cimber: Sayaw naman diyan XDD

Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?
At least malapit na ito sa violet. Blue (preferably the darker hues) was my previous fave while violet is my current fave. Indigo's in between ^_^

Do you need a boy/girl friend now?
Must I point it out again?=P

Which [Diamond Shapes] are you?

Which [5 Elements] are you?

I think this enough to last the whole week. 'Di ko alam kung kung makaka-update ako throughout the week pero sobra-sobra na ako kung maglagay ng quiz.

2004-03-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

Ayokong nagkakasakit *cough cough* kahit ubo't sipon lang. Lalo na ngayon na may ROTC sa umaga. Nung Huwebes pa 'to tapos lumala as the days go by. Natulog ako buong maghapon ngayon yet meron pa rin ;_; In the meantime, puro quizzes uli mula sa paghahanap kung may 9 (or is it 6? o_0) degrees of separation from other bloggers. In other words, nagblog-hop ako ^^'

WARNING: FLOODING OF QUIZ RESULTS AHEAD.

18.75 %

My weblog owns 18.75 % of me.
Does your weblog own you?

Congratulations! You're Merry!

Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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you are mediumorchid
#BA55D3

Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Hey... it's a shade of purple... err, violet! (Fave color ko. There's a difference) XD

I'm getting there. I don't suck, but I've got a ways to go.

Dapat matakot na ang mga jerks *evil laugh*.

You are a highly intelligent person but you always keep a low-profile. You are going to be famous someday.

Which Blogging Tool Are You?

Didn't get Blogger. Oh well.

*LOL* Aww... ang cute ng armadillo.

Sheesh ^^'

Wehehehehe!!!

Take the ICQuiz!

Whether I do have a significant other or not, DND.

There. I'm single, unattached and happy the way it is.

I'm A 1950s Geek

You're smart... and also slightly maniacal. There's just no hiding plots for world domination, sorry.

find your geek decade at spacefem.com

What attracts people to you?
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Tama!

Your an electric Dragon! Well, Well, Well, Speedy!
Electic dragons are just do darn quick, which
means you must be quick at something. Whether
its running, swimming, or answering questions,
you are super speed. But of course, you have a
craze for video games or computers. You can
play amazingly at any game or at least try to.
Go you!

What elemental dragon are you?
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I want meh video games!

SOUSAKA - You're neither an optimist nor a
pessimist. You see things the way they are and
you act according to how the situation calls
for you. You're mostly quiet and observant.
Ruled by your head, you don't let your emotion
get in the way of how things are supposed to
go.

What Nen Type Would You Fall In?
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Your and Innocent Unicorn! Innocent Unicorns are
very pure and good. They are the rarest of
types and sadly, are being hunted. Thats
because an Innocent Unicorn horn once removed
from the head, is worth alot of money, and if
left in holy water for a day, will turn into
diamond. Young Innocent Unicorns always stay
close to their mothers, and always will stand
by there side even when they grow. Innocent
Unicorns are said to be the friends of angels
and can dance on moonbeams. Innocent unicorns
represnt virginty, goodness, pureness, and
love. They always value friendship, and
familly, and are facinated by humans. Innocent
unicorns are shy, but if friends for someone,
its a friend to the end.

What kind of Unicorn are you? (With beautiful pictures)
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Cheesy but I'm B-O-R-E-D.

Your Energy is Blue. You are a creative thinker
with an active imagination. Artistic and
talented, you want to reach the stars and bring
them down to form. You are trustworthy, honest
and reliable. Others feel comfortable in your
presence as you project a non-threatening,
serene energy.

You would do well in any of the helping
professions, as an artist, singer, diplomat,
orater, or clergy member.

What color is your energy?
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Asul ang vibes ko. Sinong ka-vibes ko?XD

You are Kusakabe Marron | Kaito Jeanne

You are generous and talented, though often widthdrawn. You tend to have just a few close friends, rather than many. You appear very cheerful and enthusiastic, but struggle to keep up with what others expect of you. In the end, your perseverance and sacrifices help you pull through.

Take the "What Magic Girl are you?" Quiz

You are the Goddess of Earth. You are very stable
and dependable since the Goddesses rest apon
you. You are very materialistic. Somtime cold
and distant, but that might be because you need
to get what needs to be done, done. But yet you
are everyone elses strength. You are the most
Stable of the Goddesses, since without you the
other Goddesses would not exist.
Other Earth Goddesses: Ceres, Cerridwyn, Demeter,
Gaia, Persephone, Epona, Kore, Mah, Prithivi,
Rhea, Rhiannon

Which of the Four Elemental Goddesses are you?(With Pics)
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Heart of Crystal

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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After all this time, ngayon lang ako kumuha ng MG quiz >_<

What DragonBall Girl Are You?

So that means I still have 23 years to live? Heh, I'm 42 by that time. Kung real name ang ginamit ko, mas maikli ng 3 years ang buhay ko kaysa dito. Malulunod daw (sa dami ng quizzes?) =P

Waaahh!!! Ang dami ko pang gustong ilagay kaso late na. I think this is too much kaya sorry na lang sa mga malulunod. Peace tayo!=)

2004-03-03T17:24:00.000+08:00

Sa mga nakapunta na rito dati, hindi kayo nagkamali ng pinuntahan (maliban na lang kung wrong click =P). Nagpalit na ako ng layout. Unlike the last 2 versions, hindi ko pinalitan ang pic; ito talaga ang nasa original. At least ngayon, hindi na kayo mababahala sa dami ng scrollbars. Dahil wide ang left column, nilagay ko ang title ng mga blogs imbes nung may-ari. Kung gusto ninyo tignan ang archives ko, click kayo sa 'PAST!' graphic. Pinaikli ko ang description ko (actually, recycled nga 'yan eh) because I'm expecting some medics applicants to drop by anytime, kung meron man sana. Wala akong kakilala sa kanila pero nilagay ko sa profile ko sa Yahoo! group namin (hindi DLSU_NSTP! May sarili ang batch namin). Kung namimiss niyo na ang old layout ko, pagkakataon na ninyo na i-click ang link na ito. I'll try to post a pic of my other layout and its variation some time since naka-save pa rin sa 'kin ang codes nito ^_^

Medyo ok na ako. Hindi na ako ganun ka-upset but I do lash sudden bursts of bad temper from time to time. Sa totoo lang, katamaran ang problema ko. Masyado na akong sanay sa paggawa ng mga bagay at the last minute. Mahirap gawin ito 'pag trisem. Hindi ko akalain na dumaan na ang kalahti ng term. Before, the only times na hindi ako maghihintay hanggang sa araw bago ang pasahan ay kung videoshoot kasi my editing pam. Depende rin kung group o individual work; kung group, kung hindi ako ang lider, hinihintay ko siya. It's kinda funny pero nasa college na ako, 18 na ako tapos ang irresponsable ko. Matigas rin ang ulo. Kailangan ko magbago kasi kawawa ako sa huli. Walang mangyayari sa 'kin kung walang aksyon. 'Di ako tulad ng ibang tao na collected pa ngayon kahit wala pa silang masyadong nasimulan kagaya ko. Sana, makahabol pa ako.

On a positive note:
2.5 ang midterm grade ko sa Introso. May pag-asa pa!

2004-03-01T13:52:00.000+08:00

Pagpasensya ninyo ako. May rant ngayon (na may konting mura):

Ako ay malungkot.

Kung mababaw ang kaligayahan ko sa ilang bagay, gayun din ako sa kalungkutan. Sinayang ko ang kalahati ng term. Wala akong halos nagawang produktibo sa Englart. Nakakatamad talaga pumasok sa nasabing subject dahil kung anu-ano ang pinapagawa sa 'min. 15 sets of notecards, 3 notecards per set, corresponding sa 3rd level subheadings. Eh di 15 3rd level subheadings 'yon. Paraphrase, summarize into paragraphs tapos dapat may isang direct quote per page or 10 direct quotes in total kung 'di aabot ng 10 pages, hindi kasali ang intro at conclusion. Shit! Hindi sinasabi na dapat may kopya kami sa lahat nung una. Paano kung handwritten tapos pinasa na? Hindi pa niya nababalik ang draft outlines namin eh tama na ba yung nagawa namin? Kung ang dami mo nang naisulat, pinasa mo at may mali tulad ng hindi dapat back-to-back, pagagawa sa amin ang buong 'yon all over again. Wala rin sinabi na ang ipapasa na notecards ay computerized dahil sanay na ako sa index cards. Tuloy, nagcucut ako sa subject na 'yon. Attendance sheet na pinapasa lang paraan niya eh ang daling dayain. Malay ko ba kung namumukha niya ako.

Marso na. Isang buwan na lang ang nalalabi sa 'kin. Magsisimula pa lang ako from scratch. May mga kaklase ako na tulad ko, wala pa rin napapasa kaya wala pa rin kaming midterm grade. Kampante pa sila pero ako, hindi na. I could have used this time for it ngunit pinahirapan ko sarili ko sa references. Tatanggapin kaya niya ang paper ko kung may chart o table kasi kailangan sa topic ko.

Ang tanga-tanga ko.

Minsan, pinag-iisip ko kung kulang ako sa common sense. Ito madalas ang sambat ng ate ko sa 'kin kapag nagagalit siya. Ako gumagawa ng sarili kong problema kaya dapat ako ang maglulutas ako. Kahit na pinabayaan ko ang Englart, piga naman ang utak't lakas ko sa iba. Naregret ko na 'di ako nagpasa ng participant observation para sa Introso. Binigyan ako ng prof namin ng ilang pagkakataon na ipasa ito pero hindi ko pa rin nagawa. Dapat meron na ako last week kaso kasi ginawa ko sa bahay tapos dapat itatapos ko na sa labas dahil sobrang lagpas na ng kalahating gabi at inaantok na ako pero ayaw ng magbukas ng file sa diskette. Dahil nagloloko pa rin computer namin, 'di rin ako makagawa ng back-up file. Leche! 7-8 pages (double-spaced, with page break after every chapter. Mahaba siya talaga =P) na nagawa ko tapos bigla hindi mabuksan. Pinagpuyatan ko 'yon! Nawalan ako ng gana na ulitin muli.

Kaninang Introso, kinausap ako ng prof namin at hinahanap pa rin niya ang P.O. ko. Punyeta! Hinintay niya talaga. Parang gusto ko nang umiyak nun (ganun kababaw ako ma-upset). Puro ako sorry nang sorry sa kanya last week tapos binigyan niya ako pa ako ng pagkakataon. Halatang 'di ako nakikinig sa kanya nang sinabi niya noon na kasama ito sa 25% ng midterm grade ko. Yung na lang ang kulang ko para sa grade. Sinabi niya sa 'kin na isulat ko na lang sa papel para naman may grade ako. 1 hour lang ang period kaya minadali ko yung paper sa pamamagitan ng pagkasya ito sa isang yellow pad. Mas mabuti na nga na may grade ako dun kahit 65 lang kasi prerequisite sa 'min ang Introso para mag-major. I need to do good in it yet I'm failing to do so! Ok pa naman GenPsy ko pero ang iba kong subjects... >_< Medyo unrelated sa usapan ngunit malapit ko nang maubos ang allowable absences ko sa Filipino. Naasar ako sa sarili ko at sa traffic dahil late ako lagi. Ayoko na talaga ang nangyayari sa 'kin kahit ayoko rin ang subject o instructor (namely Englart). Kulang ako sa oras ng wala pang ginagawa ukol dito. Mahahabol ko pa kaya?

Ako ay malungkot kasi ang tanga-tanga ko.
Ang tanga-tanga ko kaya ako ay malungkot.

2004-02-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

May pinapanood sa 'min kanina ng Filipino teacher namin sa U.P. Ito'y isang zarzuela, "Ana Maria". Tungkol ito kay Anang a.ka. Ana Maria na may asawang sugarol at kumpareng may gusto sa kanya. Medyo tongue-in-cheek ang dialogue pero ang production team nagsingit niyan dahil early 1900s ito originally naisulat. I mean, kataka-taka naman ang linyang "Ayun o, yung naka-maroon... este, black pala 'yon. Colorblind na kasi ako," sabay turo sa audience sa isang zarzuela. American Period na ang setting, although traditional Filipinos pa yung mga tauhan (5 lang sila, walang extras... este, supernumeraries? Basta may other term for 'extra' sa theatre) tapos may 'babes' na ginamit in its present meaning (hindi sanggol). Dahil zarzuela nga, may mga awitin tapos ang tataas ng boses ng 2 babae sa cast. "Ana Maria" is not the 1st zarzuela I've watched pero may napanood ako noon na mas gusto ko. I think it was "Walang Sugat", which was also written by the same person na gumawa sa "Ana Maria", si Lola Basyang. Sa mga 'di nakakaalam, 'Lola Basyang' ang alias ni Severino Reyes. Hindi ko matandaan ang buong kwento ng "Walang Sugat" (hmm... revolutionary period ang setting, nagkagusto sa kasintahan ng bida ang kontrabida ngunit ayaw ng babae sa kanya, akala ng lahat na namatay ang bida sabay nagpakita siya sa dulo ng dula hence the title) pero enjoy na njoy ako sa overall production. Sabagay, sa CCP ginanap.

Nagtanong ako beforehand kung saan ang universty theatre ng U.P. dahil ang laki-laki nito at madaling mawala doon. 'Pag dating ko, sangkatutak na lasallians ang nasa loob't labas nito. Mukhang inenvite ng buong Filipino department ang lahat ng kanilang undergraduate classes. Ok, 'di ko alam kung lahat ng nasa Fil. dept ngunit 12 pangalan ang nakita ko nakadikit sa dingding kung saan ang attendance. Akala ko tuloy SRO kami sa loob sa dami ng tao, haba ng mga pila at bagal ang paggalaw dulot ng siksikan. Mas namawis ako sa lobby kaysa sa ROTC kahapon!

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Mga quiz results uli rito kaya binabalaan ko na ang mga iba diyan ~.^

You belong in the world of balance, where
everything has two sides and everything is not
always what it appears on the outside. Of
course, if you have a sense of humor, you may
find employment as a sarcastic comedian. If
not, enjoy the choices that are presented to
you through life, they will always have two
sides to them,one which leads you to the light,
and the other which entrenches you in darkness.
Walk on with hope, my friend.

Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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You are Franklin!

Which Peanuts Character are You?
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Sneakers- funny, laid-back, and goofy, you love to
make people laugh and have a good time. You
enjoy comfort and don't care to much about what
people think of you. You like to hang out with
your buddies and just have a good time. [please
vote! thank you! :)]

What Kind of Shoe Are You?
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You are a true nature girl!

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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2004-02-28T18:01:00.000+08:00

Hay... salamat at hindi natuloy ang trimming down sa 'min mga medic applicants! Mahihirapan ako kanina tumakbo at magpumps ng may *coughdysmenorrheacough*. Ilan sa amin ang lumipat ng unit kanina dahil dun sa "pep talk" ng executive officer namin, si Sir Chua. Meron lumipat sa navigators at karamihan, including marcher namin, ay nasa regulars na. Yung mga absent ay automatically tinanggal na sa listahan. Ewan ko lang sa mga na-late kasi yung mga latecomers before nagboard kami sa field (call time is 0630 hours) ay kasama pa namin; ang tanong ay sa mga mas late dun dahil 'di ko sila kilala by face at name value =P Dapat nga 20-25 lang ang kukunin kaso nakiusap kami kay Sir Yau na tanggapin kaming 36. Basta makita na maayos ang ginagawa namin bago magHell Day ay 'di kami tatanggalin. Kawawa kaming 'di taga BS Bio o BS Biochem since sila ang 1st priority.

For 3 and a half hours (0630 hours hanggang break), nakatayo kami sa field habang ang ibang MS1 (except RCG na kasama namin sa field) ay kumukuha ng midterms. Ang daya nga ng RCG kasi shaded pa yung tinatayuan nila eh kami'y bilad na bilad sa araw. Pinayagan na sila umupo way before we did. Sabagay para makita kung sinong gustong mag-medic kasi nagbabawas nga ng applicants. Pinagdrop din kami for a few minutes ni Sir Mina, pinatayo tapos pinaulit ang commands for several times @_@

After the break tska na lang kami nagmidterm exam. Punyeta! Sangkatutak na pages yung handouts na pinapadownload para pag-aralan tapos 3 pages worth (font size - mas malaki sa 12) lang ang exam. Halos wala ako masagot!! Sinasabihan kami na para makabawi in time sa final grade, huwag kami mag-absent. Galingan din namin ang performance at baka marecommend kami na kumuha ng 10-day seminars ng Red Cross para sa lifesaving, sa next term ata. The thing daw sa seminars na 'yan ay kapag natapos mo, bibigyan ka raw ng certification or license na mag-administer ng 1st aid, at 1 pa para sa CPR >_<

Ngayon, dapat hindi ako ma-late at sana hindi ako hihimatayin during physical training para tuloy-tuloy na. Good luck pa rin sa 'kin!=P

2004-02-24T12:52:00.000+08:00

Owww... sakit ng ulo ko!!!

Here's the sitch (halatang nanonood ng Kim Possible XD):

I'm supposed to have something printed today but I can't open the file. It's save in a diskette because our printer just ran out of black ink last night. I also had my midterms in Chemistry and General Psychology a while ago, straight. Given these two subjects, there's a lot of terminology to remember. Now, I sit back while waiting for my failure to be confirmed. I slept around 4 am last night/this morning and was late in the Chemistry exam (which was the first thing today). Gyaaa! I need R and R!! Tomorrow is a non-working holiday but knowing DLSU, there's no gurantee that there'll be no classes tomorrow. As of the late, my Chemistry professor announced that there will be NO CLASSES tomorrow. He received the announcement from the administration through e-mail. Yay! However, I can stop doubting about it until it gets posted around campus *reminisces about Halloween*. If I do get my R and R, I hope it's enough for the rest of term though I think it will be drained this Saturday morning runing ten laps around the soccer field. Ahh... the things one must undergo to become a medic in ROTC =P Our MMOC (midshipman officer-in-charge?) really intends to trim us applicants down since we're 44 applicants in the latest count.

2004-02-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

As usual, nasa Cybernook ako. My last post was also done in here, and so does some previous entries as well. I could go sa other computer labs around kaso baka may klase doon. Na-experience ko ang magbutt-in sa isang class before. Buti na lang at kakasimula pa lang. Nagulat ako nang biglang may roll call. Pwedeng magsurf sa internet dun as long as walang class there. I came in early eh konti pa lang ang mga tao kaya ang assumption ko was free period nun when that happened.

Na-inspire ako sa latest post ni Cimber about personality types kaya I took the Bloginality test again. I know the results aren't accurate kasi pipili ka from sets of statements. Napapansin ko na I have some of both options na pinapapili sa 'kin per question pero syempre, it all boils down to the one that fits best. Also, kung alam mo what the I/E, N/S, T/F and P/J mean, pwede mong doktorin ang mga resulta since sets of statements ang choices. Noong nasa High School kami, we took up the standardized version of the test. At least doon, isang sagot (statement) per number. I got ISFP (though lamang ng 1 point ang S over N ^^'). When I read about this personality, manghang-mangha ako sa kung gaanong totoo ang description sa 'kin at that time.

Fast forward sa 1st schoolyear in college ko. I took the standardized test again noong 1st term. Wala pa ang results. In the meantime, kinuha ko ang sa Bloginality. Being familiar with the ISFP personality, alam ko ang pipiliin ko para 'yon ang lumabas. I can't say if it's the same with the official test. When I assessed it with who I am now, feel ko nagbago ako kaya 'di tama yata ito. Kinuha ko nanaman, this time trying to be as honest as possible at ang lumabas ay ISTP.

'Eto ang sabi ng Bloginality about ISFP:
Because you are in touch with the inner-artist, you see things heavily in relationship to your feelings and their beauty. You may not be as likely to have a public site, because you feel better sharing with only those who are closest with you.
Ang say ko: There are things that I don't mention in here but nonetheless, having a blog is something I'm ok with basta hindi babasahin ng pamilya ko (nababanggit ko sila ng 'di nila nalalaman... probably my younger brother pwede pa because the damage was done =P).

Ang sa ISTP naman:
Because of your desire for action and independance, you will change the format of blogging or design frequently to keep it interesting and different. Your loyalty may have you reading the same blogs over a long period of time. Even though you could be easily bored with blogging, you might find that because you like following a project through, this is a good way for you to use your alone time to sort the facts you pick up through the day.
Ang say ko: Gusto kong palitan ng layout ang blog ko kaso may problema sa computer namin. I do keep coming back sa blogs that I've linked here though that's because kilala ko ang mga tao (except si Syun) at interesado akong malaman on what's going on in their lives; bihira kong makita ang HS barkada ko, be in the same university as I am or not. Maybe if a person na 'di ko kilala asks na makipag-exchange kami ng links, papayag ako at pupuntahan ko yung blog niya regularly (read: 'pag nakakagamit ako ng internet) para makilala yung tao.

I won't delve yet into more info about the 2 personality types dahil hindi ko pa nababasa ang mga in-depth descriptions ng ISTP. So far, parang mas tama na ISTP ako ngayon. Syempre, hinihintay ko pa ang mga resulta ng standardized test so I shouldn't put the new result into much thought. May mga bagay na dapat alalahanin ko pero ayokong pag-isipan kanina. Ngayon ang oras para sa mga 'yon.

2004-02-16T18:00:00.000+08:00

1st and foremost, Belated Happy Valentine's Day. I was very buzy during the weekend plus I don't celebrate it. Dami kong kailangang i-type for Englart (puro handwritten ang mga nagawa ko unless stated dahil pinagbawalan kami ng utol ko na gumamit ng computer during weekdays ;_; Nagflunk yung kapatid ko dahil sa pagka-addict niya sa pRO) tapos meron pang paper for Introso. Bad timing at nagkavirus kami!T_T Tinatamaan ako nito kasi ang ginagawa nung virus ay magpagulo ng word processors (such as MS Word, WordPad, etc), HTML editors (tulad ng nasa Blogger)... basically those that need typing para mag-input ng data. Bigla magkakaroon ng random word o character every second na idle ka, or magbubura ng highlighted text. Mahirap gumawa ng typewritten output; stuck din ako sa layout ko for the time being. Kung oras na magprint, biglang may lilitaw na salita na hindi dapat kasama sa print-out. This is worse than the last virus we encountered, which happened a few years ago. Ang ginagawa naman nun ay biglang may error sa kahit anong program na tumatakbo every after 30 minutes of use. Kapag ilang beses na mangyari ito, blank screen ang lumalabas. At least save ako ng save after each paragraph pero even after a few times of saving, nagpapakita ang error message (yung blue screen) or the blank screen.

Meron kaming virus scan na naka-install sa computer namin. Kaso, expired na ito kaya kailangang magsubscribe. Ang bayad: in dollars. Pwede kong ipakiusap sa nanay ko about the subscription pero hindi mag-uupdate ang virus scan lest ang account na gamit ay pang-administrator. Windows XP ang computer namin eh may separate accounts kami. Advantage sa sariling account ay pwede kong i-customize ang desktop (wallpaper, screensaver, icons, sound effects, etc.) at i-set ang programs na maging available sa 'kin, of which hindi apektado ang settings na iba. Ang ginawa ng ate ko ay ginawang administrator ang account niya habang kami ng kapatid ko ay limited. 'Pag limited account, hindi ka pwede mag-install o magdelete ng programs; iba 'yon sa gawing available sa account mo ang program o hindi. Bale hindi ma-install ang updates kung magsubscribe kami at 'di rin kami makaka-install ng panibagong virus scan. Dapat nandito sa Maynila ang ate ko for that (nasa Cavite siya). Dulot ng dilemma ay ang sakit sa ulo ko at hindi makakapag-update for a while. Please bear with me.

2004-02-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

*Opens the floodgate of quizzes*

You are a Sidhe. Sidhes are a supernatural race,
quite distinct from humankind. There are a
number of different types of sdhe. Sidhes are
attracted to beauty and love roses most of all!
They arent fond of people but love gardens and
like only beautiful people!

What Magical Creature are You?
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You are an Angel of hope. You are a prayer itself.
You may not realize it, but when you are around
people that are having bad luck, you ussually
give them good luck at the cost of your own
sometimes. If you have wondered about why you
you always have bad luck yourself then you dont
know much about your fate. Ironically, when you
have bad luck, others have good. Keep
praying...

What Different Kind of Angel are you...? ( Anime-ish pics )
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Nerdslut

What's your sexual appeal?
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You came from the future. You have wisdom beyond
your age and are always thinking ahead. A
favorite poem of yours is "Autumn" by
Emily Dickinson. You have strenth and
independence. Intelligence and creativity are
your strong points and you always try your
best. Your heart shines through hatred and
always discovers truth. Often you are found
looking ahead and wondering what put us on this
Earth. Your heart is in the right place, but
don't let your wisdom shine through fun. Your
worrying can often prevent you from finding
friends, but your nice and caring spirit makes
up for it. Wisdom is your soul.

Where did you come from when you were born?
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You are a SERIOUS person. Yeah yeah, fun is fun,
but there's also work to do ryt? You're not
childish at all and you hate being joking
around. Then why are you doing a quiz! LOL ^_~

Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!) NEW outcome!!
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2004-02-11T13:14:00.000+08:00

*At a later time...*

"Ano yang '6x a day'?" ~ blockmates ko (about the shirt I'm wearing today. And yep, that's how it's spelled on my shirt)

Ang blockmates ko talaga, kung anu-anong pinag-iisip na kahulugan sa shirt ko. Nasuot ko na 'tong shirt before sa La Salle pero ngayon lang pinansin ng mga tao. Maybe because palapit na ang 14th? Dahil ba sa pinagsasama ako sa 1 sa guy blockmates namin (we look cute as a couple daw =P). Iba talaga ang nagagawa ng Valentine's Day sa buhay ko *sighs*. Isuot ko kaya ang "I'm Grumpy" shirt ko bukas XD

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Naplug-in ko na sa wakas ang pinaghihingalaang kaklase ko sa Introso, si Syun *turo sa link*. Kung may oras ako, I'll check out blogs ng 'di ko kilala tapos maglink-exchange. Problema ay matagal pa bago ako'y may panahon. In the meantime, here's a couple of quizzes sa baba.

@ Syun: May nakita ka bang nagsuot ng t-shirt na may nakalagay na "6x a day"? Ako 'yon.

2004-02-11T09:18:00.000+08:00

Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)

What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

You, my friend are a true individual. You most
likely hate trends and are creative. By seeing
things differently, people either admire you or
think you are a bit strange. I'm guessing you
are a lot like me. Perhaps a Good Charlotte
hater? I hope so. An inspiration to us all,
continue being you! (If you like GC, I'm sorry,
I am just expressing an opinion)

A Deeper Look Inside Yourself (with pics)
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2004-01-29T13:45:00.000+08:00

"Mas nakakapawis ito [street dancing] kesa sa volleyball!" ~ ako
"I SURVIVED STREET DANCING!!!" ~ ako pa rin XD

Yep, street dancing. Ito ang pinili ko for LEAP kasi wala nang available slots na maganda. Sa mga hindi nakakaalam kung ano ang LEAP, it stands for *silip sa Plaridel, ang official Filipino newspaper ng DLSU* Lasallian Enrichment Alternative Program *sighs*. Para siyang alternative class day sa old school naming mga taga-TNTC. Bale yung mga organizations ay nag-offer ng workshops, seminars, etc. Ang pagkakaiba lang ng LEAP sa ACD is that sa ACD, required ka mag-sign up in either a whole day session, or a morning and afternoon sessions. Ang sa LEAP naman, pili ka lang ng morning o afternoon session.

Anyway, sumayaw nga ako. Sina Bom, Cimber, Shuro at Funyak ay nag-Judo. Kakapagod talaga. Basang-basa ako sa pawis tapos ang music namin ay "Happy", as in sa commercial ng ABS-CBN (Happy! Shalalala...). At least hindi ako na-LSS ^^' Nahihingalo na ako 30 minutes after kami nagstart. Ang kinatatakutan ko lang ay kung nakita ako nina Cimber at Funyak sa kabilang dulo ng 8th floor ng Sports Complex habang sumasayaw kami ng 5 of my college friends (yung ibang ka-grupo namin ay hindi ko kakilala) na nakaharap sa direction nila. Basta nakita ko sila sa labas ng room sa Judo after ng sayaw. Naglolokohan kami ng friends ko na next year, sign language naman. Sa susunod, aagahin namin magregister.

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Nag-upload uli ng additional pics ng PNE na kinuha kahapon ang blockmate ko. Dapat ipopost ko rito kaso nasa Cybernook uli ako, killing time habang hindi pa ako umuuwi. May appointment ako sa dermatologist mamaya dahil may mga butlig-butlig ang katawan ko. Kung si Bom ay napilitang gumamit ng deoderant na panglalake, bawal ako gumamit ng deoderant o antipersperant sa ngayon. Nasa underarm area ang rashes ko. Pinagbawalan din ako gumamit ng sabon (panligo ko ay yung body wash na prescribed sa 'kin ng doktor), loofa at bimpo. Twice a day na ako maligo, 1 sa umaga at 1 sa gabi. Kung anu-ano pang cream at ointment ang nilalagay ko sa mga butlig-butlig ko. Nakakaasar kasi every year since High School (except nung 3rd year), kung anu-ano lang ang nangyayari sa katawan ko na kinailangan ko pumunta sa doktor.

Noong 1st year, nilagyan ng jacket ang front tooth ko dahil putol. Actually, grade 2 pa ako nung tinamaan ako ng water jug. Nilagyan ng pasta ang dulo ng putol na ngipin para magmukhang buo uli. Ang problema diyan eh matatangal din siya balang araw. Nangyari iyon noong grade 4 o 5, at noong 1st year. Dahil magastos kung paulit-ulit itong kakabitan, permante na raw itong huli. Nag-involve ito ng root canal operation kasi tinangal ang nerve sa particular tooth na 'yon (patay naman yung nerve tapos naka-anesthesia ako) tapos pinalitan ng poste tska na lang kinabitan ng porcelain jacket. Gabi-gabi pagkatapos ng klase nang ako'y pumupunta sa dentista (malapit naman ang clinic niya sa opisina ng parents ko). Ewan ko kung may nakakaalala pero dati, during classes, nahulog yung aking "cover-up".

Chaffing naman ang sa 2nd year. Ang masama kasi ay dibdib ko ang naapektado nito. May sugat ako nun =( Sa gynecologist pa ako pinapunta. Syempre, nahipuan na ako dahil d'yan. Sa 4th year (dahil wala nangyari noong 3rd year) yung sobrang dry ang mga labi ko na mahapdi kung mamalat at cracked pa. Dermatologist na ang tumingin sa 'kin. Sa classmates ko last year, baka nakita ninyo ako na may petroleum jelly sa lips. Basta 'yun.

Nakakabagot at kung anu-ano na lang nangyayari sa katawan ko. Kawawa naman ako! Sana naman walang sumunod for the next 3-6 terms.

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Kung hindi ako nagkakamali, birthday ngayon ni Haido-sama. Kung hindi, basta malapit na yung date, ewan ko kung belated o advance. 1st Death Anniversary ng tatay ko ngayon. Kay bilis talaga ng panahon; anniv na. Nakarecover na ako pero naluluha pa rin ako 'pag iinisip ko siya after some time. Natural naman 'yun, hindi ba? I miss him but things go on. I mean, 1 taon na ang nakalipas. Kung saan man ang siya ngayon, sana maligaya na siya. Itatapos ko na lang dito at baka mapa-iyak pa ako sa pagdadamdam dito >_<

2004-01-28T17:59:00.000+08:00

"Saan si Chito?" ~ ako

Pumunta kanina sa school namin ang Parokya Ni Edgar. Napanood ko na rin sila ng live sa wakas!!! Libre pa! I've lost count kung ilang kanta ang pinerform nila kanina, basta more or less 1 hour ang tagal ng gig. Kinanta nila ang (in no particular order) Halaga, Harana, Inuman Na, Silvertoes, Mr. Suave, The Yes Yes Show (kahit na wala si Vinci dahil midterms daw niya, sabi ni Chito XD)... nakalimutan ko na kung ano ang titles ng iba =P Nakaupo ako sa 2nd step ng amphitheater, facing the plaza between Yuchengco and SJ buildings. Sa amphitheater, meron mini-pond na napapalibutan ng bushes sa isang side. Nakaharap ako kung saan nasa likod ng mini-pond na iyon yung mga halaman. Dagdagan mo pa ng mga nakatayo sa harap dahil kuha sila ng kuha ng pics ng PNE sa cellphones nila at ang nakita ko lang sa banda ay sina Chito at Darius. Hindi ko makita sina Dindin, Gab at Buwi hanggang pagkatapos ng performance, nang nagpapa-autograph ako sa kanila. Yung quote ko sa taas ay nung hinahanap ko na si Chito para magpasign sa notebook ko. So far, meron akong autographs nina Buwi, Dindin, Darius at Gab. Meron din akong signiture ni Tsinelas... este, si Jay of Kamikazee (siya nagsubstitute kay Vinci for Yes Yes Show). Na-mob ba naman kasi si Chito. Oh well, meron naman akong pic ni Chito na kinuha ng 1 sa frenships ko sa cellphone niya. Buti na lang at na-upload niya. Here it is:

Sayang, hindi niya pinamigay ang shades. Ang kwela talaga niya. Pahiga-higa pa 'yan sa grass.

Wala kaming scanner kaya 'di ko ma-upload ang signatures ng rest of the band + si Jay. Inubos ko pa yung memory ng cellphone ko sa kaka(sound)record ng kanta. Kapag nakuhanan ko na, using ang digital camera namin, ang mga autograph, upload ko rin. Astig talaga!=)

2004-01-26T17:46:00.000+08:00

Patapos na ang Enero eh gusto ko na magbakasyon uli. Why? I FEEL SO STRESSED ALREADY! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ganito kasi yun:
MWF - Gigising ng 8 a.m. Aalis ng 8:45. Nakakarating sa school ng 8:40 (FYI 8:20 ang pasok ko ;_;). Filipino = Boring. Englart = Sarap i-drop; burned out na utak ko sa Englone tapos wala ginagawa ang instructor namin. Just because she is 1 of the co-authors ng book na gamit namin doesn't mean na she'll go "Ok, read these pages then answer this activity blah blah blah..." Dahil research paper writing ang tinatalakay dito, nagpapakahirap ako sa paghanap at pagbasa ng references ko. Part of my misery is self-inflicted dahil ang topic ko is on the cease of fossil fuel consumption. Hey, at least it's not about pornography, genetic engineering, changing our gov't from presidential to parliamentary, etc. Taken na mga 'yan, not to mention cliche. Mauubusan ako ng libro n'yan kasi we're required to have it as the majority for our reference list (10 ang minimum ng total sources including articles and those taken from the internet albeit 3 lang ang allowed for the latter). Sociology = Ok kaso maraming pinapabasa. Ang mas daig magpabasa sa 'min kesa sa Socio ay JPRizal =P Tuwing Lunes, may Chemistry laboratory kami which at the most ends at 5:30 p.m. So far, we've always finished early. Basta at least 1 of these aforementioned subjects will give an assignment. The Mayana Habit has no place in my schedule dahil mahirap gawin ang nararapat na tapusin at the last minute.

TTh - If it's Thursday, dapat nasa Sports Complex, 7th floor na ako by 8 a.m. Volleyball kasi. After Volleyball, bihis tapos kain ng lunch then take Chemistry (lecture). I never enjoyed Chemistry; the 1 year and 2 terms without it didn't mellow my dislike for the subject. The prof is ok pero ayokong pagdaanan uli ang lessons. I said 'dislike' dahil hindi naman ganoon ka-tindi ang asar ko rito para mag-drop. Oh, and every meeting, may quiz kami lagi before the discussion eh yung coverage ay mga pinapabasa pa lang. Genpsych is interesting kaso yung prof namin ay boring magturo. At least she's not as bad as my Englart instructor. Sa JPRizal ako'y pinaka-ayokong matawag kung hindi ko maintindihan ang pinapabasa sa 'min. Laging warning sa amin ng instructor namin na kapag 2 ang natawag niya tapos hindi sila makasagot, magkakaroon ng quiz *shudders*. Malamang may assignment uli na ibibigay, usually mula sa JPRizal na tipong babasahin.

Sat - Gigising ako ng 5:30 a.m. Dapat nakaalis na ako ng bahay by 6:30 and I should arrive sa school before 7 dahil sa ROTC. Kaya ko pinili ang ROTC over CWTS is because 1) ayoko pumasok ng after lunch (traffic!), b) dahil labas ka ng labas outside the university, minsan even out of town, I'm not sure kung mapapayagan ako sa lahat ng outings eh dapat makakasali ka sa lahat; wala kang choice na hindi sumama, c) IMO ROTC seems more interesting because sa 1st term ng CWTS, puro orientation while sa 2nd puro bahala kayo lumabas sa iba't-ibang community para magawa ninyo ang proyekto niniyo. Sa ROTC, there's combat training, marksmanship... gusto ko nga magmedic. Hindi ko binabasa yung mga parts sa blog ni bom about ROTC at baka ma-disappoint ako. I'm not expecting too much of it though considering na puro orientation pa lang so far. It's boring but I think I can handle standing under the heat of the sun for 6 hours. Sa ngayon, nagpoproblema ako sa uniform ko.

Sun - Gigisingin ng maaga ng nanay ko para magsimba. Pagkatapos, kain ng tanghalian then attend French class from 2-5 p.m. Hinatak ako ng ate ko into this eh nakakahiya na magdecline bago pa nagsimula ito since bayad na ako sa fee. Nakaka-3 meetings pa lang kami pero so far, may natutunan ako. I know there's a long way to go pa pero kung hindi lang ganito ka-hectic ang academics ko eh I'm willing to advance.

Ayun, medyo pagod ako ngayon-ngayon at halos wala sa bahay. I would like to write something else after this but I need to go. Nasa Cybernook ako ng library namin ^^ Marami akong gusto ilagay pero alas, time is fleeting swiftly. Halos non-existent ang week-ends ko nga eh. Wish me luck na madadaanan ko ang term na ito without collapsing (ROTC included dahil nakabilag nga ako sa init ng araw) or experiencing a nervous breakdown (exagge!!!XD).

2004-01-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I posted anything here. Alright, so our PS2's adaptor needs repairing (I already asked my uncle if he could fix it for us) so I resorted to playing RO again. So far, I'm 1 job level away to becoming an assassin. Other than leveling up, it was quite amusing to see how some guys there were asking me if we could "go out together". Most of them were mere passerbys who kept asking for my real name. I didn't answer nor have crossed paths with them again. There are others like a fellow guildmate of mine who kept sending private messages to me. They'd say that he thinks he's having a crush on my character because of the way I conduct myself there. Ang bait-bait ko daw, hindi killstealer o looter... blah blah blah. Tinatawagan na nga ako na 'Vesprend' (based from my thief's name, Vespera). It's flattering but I don't play RO to seek a boyfriend and I'm enjoying being single, thank you. Yung aforementioned guildmate ko eh kakagaling lang sa infatuation niya on one of our other female guildmates who is rumored to be a guy in real life. Mga desperado =P

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I checked out W Juliet sa internet last week and apparently, naging instant fan ako. It's not the mushiest shoujo manga I've seen/read (salamat sa scanlations dahil 'di ako nagbabasa ng translations kung wala akong copy ng manga) kaya ok lang. Ngayon, 3 titles na ang gusto kong magkaroon, excluding Yumegari: XXXholic, TRC at W Juliet. I 1st heard it from Shuro na nangongolekta ng volumes nun. Sa susunod, hanap naman ako ng scanlations for either Imadoki or Alice 19th. I won't do a review but I admit na I like Mako XD

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May nabasa akong article sa November 2003 issue ng Preview about blogging kanina. It says something about blogging being for the self-indulgent ata. In my case, dito ko nililista ang mga nangyari sa 'kin sa buhay ko ngayon dahil a) wala akong diary right now, and b) I'm almost always in front of a PC lalo na ngayon ^.^ I'm not sharing everything here though. Hindi naman ako nagkwento kung kamusta na Pasko o New Year ko, etc. I do want to be heard. There are times when I feel ignored and I'm bothered when that happens. Kung dito ako magrant o rave, at least hindi ko alam kung may nagbasa nga o wala despite having a chatterbox na unavailable minsan. I don't plan on putting a counter kasi madalas akong pumupunnta sa blog ko mismo. My blog is my outlet to what's going on with me. I read my friends' blogs because we don't have much contact with each other, and to learn more about them (halatang nagbasa ng blog ni jena).

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Following jena's suggestion, I increased the font size so that things are more readable here. If that's still not yet enough, you can tell me in the chatterbox. I'm thinking about changing tagboards but which is the best?! Pwede Haloscan na lang pero 'pag ganoon, hindi na ako maglalagay ng tagboard mismo. I added jena's blog among our ring, removed 2 RO webcomic links in return for another site na dapat hindi ko tinangal in the 1st place. If anyone's wondering where the 'powered by Blogger' button is, it's in the archives' main page. My archives link is in the leftmost frame, below my fanlistings. If you check the archives, makikita ninyo ang old layout ko on the ones dating from September-November. It was white kaya ang pinili kong background color this time is black. Wala lang, just want to clarify things in case of inquiries lalo na kung may nakakahalata ng pagbabago rito (masyadong meticulous na 'yon since they're minor).

2003-12-20T11:12:00.000+08:00

I received a text message from 1 of my frenships (hindi yung real-life bisshie namin) last night. Naisip ko na i-share ko sa inyo ito kasi palagay ko na relevant 'to sa mga nangyari kahapon.

mga tol,
hi, cyempre wlang umbt stn s DL, knina sbrang dpresd ako pro ngaun ok n ko! Hndi un dhl di nman pla ko nag-i1 kndi dhl alam ko n 2lad nyo, i gave n dd my bst, it jst hapnd na my bst is nt gud enough!
i realzd na d nman s paggng DL nssukat ang prformans ng 1 tao eh, its d means dat jstifies d end, ika ko nga! im jst glad i was gvn d chans 2 work wid u, n i knw dat u guys r always der bhnd me, 2 suport me ol d way, tenks 4 dat! jst ber in mynd na nndto lng dn ako plgi, f u'l nid, im ur friend! don't wori, we'l hold hands n 2geder we wil face d hardshps dat we wil face next term! may HE bles us ol!

What was I trying to say through that text message? For Bom, yung 'd nman s paggng DL nssukat ang prformans ng 1 tao'. I know she wants to keep her reputation as a DL pero I just want her to know na ok lang 'yan kahit hindi na siya DL. Sa iba, yung 'd means (dat) jstifies d end'. Kanino bang kasalanan kaya bumaba ang grades? Kung ang video, sino gumawa ng video? Hindi ako nakikipagaway kaso 'di tama ang maghanap ng alibi. For all of you, yung latter part na nung text from 'im jst glad i was gvn d chans 2 work wid u...' My frenship meant something else when he texted it to us but I thought na applicable din siya sa 'tin in a way. If there's anything I like about him, it's his optimism. Sana nakatulong ito i-uplift ang mood ninyo.

2003-12-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

Oh. My. Gulay.

WALA AKONG BAGSAK!!!

Wow! Kahit hindi masyadong mataas ang grades ko, ok lang basta pasado. Ayokong magsummer classes o magtake ng subject all over again dahil bumagsak ako. Ok sa 'kin ang sched ko sa 3rd term kaya ayokong madagdagan pa ng klase eh ang only subject namin dun na may prerequisite ay Englart. Pinakagusto kong sched pa rin yung sa 1st term namin dahil MWF siya pero kahit M-F pa rin kami, earliest namin ang 8 (tuwing Huwebes) tapos ang uwian namin tuwing Miyerkules at Biyernes ay 12:40 pa rin; ang pasok namin sa mga araw na 'yan ay 9:20 (pati din Lunes). Pasok namin ng Martes ay 11:20 tapos uwian ay 3:10 (same with Thursday). At least walang 7. ROTC ay 7:30 tuwing Sabado. kung nagCWTS ako eh baka hapon; tatamarin akong pumasok sa ganoong oras. Speaking of ROTC, konti lang kami sa block pero naaalala ko yung kinukwento ng 1 sa friends ng blockmate ko na nagCWTS kanina na pagdating sa Finals eh may binasa silang 6 chapters. Ayoko naman nun, much more yung pinabasa kina E-Kyub =P

Sa Intreco, nahatak pataas ang grade ko thanks sa final exam, special project at ang reporting namin. Naka-4.0 ako sa portfolio ko for Englone (himala!). Ibig sabihin n'yan eh baka ipakita ng instructor namin ang portfolio ko sa mga susunood na klase niya. Sinabi niya noong simula ng term at nang patapos na ito. Eek! Wala nagawa ang final exam ko sa Artapre para i-angat ang grade ko. 2.5 lang talaga. Sa likod nga ng course card ko doon, nilagay ng prof ko ang pre-final grade ko at midterm grade ko. Pareho silang 87 tapos final grade ko 87 din. That's 2.5 'pag converted. Nagtataka talaga ako since HS kung bakit mataas ang grades ko sa PE; madalas ito pa ang pinakamataas ko eh hindi naman ako magaling. I mean, 4.0 ako sa swimming kahit thrice na ako na-late eh ang mga late ko ay mga tuwing kakarating ko pa lang noong 2nd hour ng session. Feel ko ang mga pinakamataas na magbigay ng grade ay mga PE teachers (4.0 din ako sa dance). Yung amin pa ay ang head ng PE dept! Pero sa totoo lang, mabait siya. Ang maganda sa grades ko ngayon eh walang bumaba sa 2.0 unlike last term na may 1.5 ako mula sa Intphil prof nina Cimber, char at Shuro. 2.5 pa rin ang pinakacommon grade ko. Pwede na.

Nakakainis ang Inersci prof namin kanina. Pinahintay kami ng 10 oras bago namin makuha ang course card namin. TEN HOURS!! Ba't hindi na lang kami pinauwi't pabalikin sa Lunes para kunin 'yun imbes na maghintay kami sa hallway ng 4th floor, SJ building. Alam ko tatamarin yung iba sa 'min kung nangyari iyon pero malamang may pupunta dahil gustong malamang kung pumasa ba o bumagsak, o DL siya via computation for GPA. Originally, dapat noong 8 ang bigayan kaso nang pagdating namin, may nakapost sa labas na notice. Nakalagay dun na 2 na lang ang bigayan. Pagdating ng 2, hindi siya nagpakita until 4. Sinabi niya na maghintay ang block namin ng 1 oras dahil hindi pa siya tapos. 1 hour ha eh doble sa pinag-usapan nang ilabas. Hindi kami nagsialis dahil ineexpect namin na baka lumabas siya kaya imagine ninyo na lang kung gaano kami ka-bored. Nagtataka ako, she had a week to do it. Sana hindi ito maulit sa mga susunod na course card distribution days.

Napapaisip ako tungkol sa mga blockmates ko na muntikang magDL kaso may sablay noong nabasa ko ang blog ni bom. There's 1 of my frenships at yung 1 sa blockmates ko na binabantayan ng DO dahil questionable daw, among others (kung meron pang iba). Hindi sila DL last term, pero sayang. Sabi ko sa kanila na we still have have more terms to come kaya bumawi na lang sila doon. I don't know sa DL frenship ko dahil wala siya kanina kaya pinagkukuha sa 'min ang course cards niya. Kay Shuro naman, agree ako when she said na hindi dapat i-blame ang outcome ng grades namin sa Stay Away video. Kung bumagsak ako sa Intreco, I know well na tinatamad akong magnotes, magbasa ng textbook, makinig sa lecture at mag-aral. Hindi ko rin maintindihan ang teacher. Same with every other course that I took if it happened. Nagtiyaga na lang ako sa finals at projects dahil hindi mataas ang quizzes ko nor do I recite often. Ok, maybe mas maliit ang load ko sa Stay Away video than the others pero just the same, I spent my spare time working on it instead na mag-aral. Hindi kami nanalo, yes pero we did our best to make it. I guess it's how we prioritize and exert our effort into things kaya ganoon.

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Dito naman sa pamilya namin, my ate's moving out. She wanted to transfer to another company dahil hindi siya happy sa current work niya. Luckily, a company in Cavite had a job opening. The thing was yung job offered was a postion higher than her current position; pang-officer nga eh (malamang mas mataas ang sweldo). Natanggap ang ate ko so she's moving to Cavite para mas malapit siya sa bagong workplace niya. Ang layo nun mula sa bahay namin. May na-rent na kaming townhouse for her so ngayon, naglilipat at bumibili kami ng gamit for her. Bukas ko pa lang makikita ang bahay dahil last week, ginawa ko ang special project ko sa Intreco (12 pages). Alam ko things are not the same without her pero wala akong magagawa. Malamang lalaki ang mga responsibilidad ko sa bahay when the time comes. I wish her good luck.

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Sa dalawang Taong Troika na nagcelebrate ng birthday nila last Wednesday, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!=) To all my friends, next year ko pa mabibigay ang mga regalo ninyo. Sa mga nagbigay na ng regalo sa 'kin, salamat! Sa mga pumasa, congrats! Sa mga may sablay, bawi ka; yaka mo 'yan! Sa lahat, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2003-12-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! Finally changed my layout... AGAIN! Welcome po sa Perspective version 3. As usual, nakuha ko ang template sans the pic from BlogSkins. The original skin was ParasiteEve2:Aya Brea Frenzy {VERSION 3}. Pinalitan ko ang pic (as usual). This time, ang cover girl ko ay si Houjyou Tatsumi of Yumegari. Yumegari is one of CLAMP's works that was only circulated in a magazine. In other words, wala siyang tankoubon. It was published back in 1996 and was featured in Monthly Asuka, according sa findings ko sa Internet. Yumegari means "dream hunter", though I've read in one site na ang correct romanization should be yumekari. Ang alam ko si Tatsumi is a 17 year old yumegari na may kasamang 28 year old guy named Kaga Kyousuke, who happens to be her yumemori (dream watcher). A yumegari and a yumemori always work together kasi ang yumegari nakakapasok sa dreams while ang yumemori hindi eh kailangan ng nagbabantay sa yumegari habang ginagawa niya 'yon =P Hey, at least CLAMP art! Nakuha ko pala yung pic from The CLAMP Warehouse. Also added 3 more fanlistings (hanapin...). Alam ko rin na may pagkatabingi ang pic ni Tatsumi in relation sa banner. I was following the frames eh hindi ko nakikita ang banner during preview mode. Yun lang po.

2003-12-13T14:54:00.000+08:00

Nahanap ko 'to and took it while surfing for TRC and XXXholic sites. 'Eto ang result:

You are Angst!

Which Stereotypical CLAMP emotion are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Wala lang.

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Pumunta ako sa bahay ng blockmate ko kahapon. I didn't try to smoke pero isang half glass ng Gin Pom eh namamawis na ako. I may be of legal age pero I don't drink often. Dati, tuwing New Year lang ako umiinom tapos tipong champagne o 1/5 of vodka na may halong 4/5 Sprite (or is it 1/4). Kung meron kami, umiinom din ako ng Irish Cream which is like iced coffee na may hinalong whisky. There was a time na may wine kami eh umiinom kami under the supervision ng parents ko. Tanda ko pa nung bata pa ako, pinatikim ako ng beer ng tatay ko. Other than that, there's that rum cake na napakatapang sa rum tapos yun lang ang natatandaan kong history ko sa pag-iinom ng alcohol =P Also, ilagay ko kaya sa description ko na pormal DAW ako manalita, sabi ng 1 sa blockmates ko kagabi.

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Added 4 fanlisting codes. Yung FF-related ones, sinalihan ko dati pa kaso hindi ko nailagay kaagad dahil akala ko nakalimutan akong idagdag. The other 2 are for XXXholic at TRC respectively. Nakabasa na akong ng ilang chapters each per title through scanlations. Nakakatawa ang XXXholic pero napaisip din ako sa mga sinasabi ng isang character dun, si Yuuko (who's featured sa code). By far, she's my fave there because she's eccentric, bossy, have a weird sense of humor, wise, philosophical, mysterious... nahiram ko yata 'tong pinagsasabi ko sa mga websites na napuntahan ko ^_^" Basta she's cool!Hehe XD Ang TRC naman, putol-putol ang mga nababasa ko kasi hindi magkakasunod ang chapters na nakita ko. Nagstop na maglabas ng additional scanlations nito sa Internet kasi licensed na siya for an English translated release next year. Hula ko mas mahal pa ito kay sa binili mo ang manga mismo. Waah, S + S pa rin!!! All in all, nagustuhan ko silang pareho in that aabangan ko ang latest sa mga ito.

Tinangal ko na yung 1 sa RO comics. Hindi ko binabasa eh. Mas amused ako sa iba. Balak ko sana sumali sa FF X-2 fanlisting kaso magmumukhang bitin ang section. Gusto ko rin palitan ang layout pero maghahanap muna ako ng matino, preferrably either Valkyrie Profile, XXXholic o TRC themed. Pwede rin ibang CLAMP title basta maganda ang art or Kill Bill (marami na yatang nag-KH). Balik-balikan ninyo ito for any further blog updates. Arigato!=)

2003-12-12T09:21:00.000+08:00

Dapat nag-aaral ako ngayon for Intreco kaso tinatamad ako @_@ Ala-una pa ang exam tapos pupunta ako sa bahay ng blockmate para sa X-mas party namin. I know mababa ang grades ko sa Intreco pero balak kong bumawi using yung special project na pinapagawa sa 'min (it's optional). I don't want to rant any more on this subject dahil nagawa ko na 'yan before. Buti na lang at last exam na namin ito; pagkatapos WALA NANG FINALS!!!

Nakatext ko na rin sa wakas ang 1 sa admins sa FFO kahapon. Dapat magkikita kami sa Sabado sa C3 kaso akala ko may pupuntahan kami ng family ko on the same day kaya pinacancel ko. Yun pala, sa Sunday. Gagamitin ko na lang ang Sabado para sa special project =P Pinaresched ko sa Lunes dahil day-off niya tapos magsusubmit ako ng project. I'm really looking forward to it.

Natatakot na ako sa 19th. Course card distribution kasi. Besides Intreco, there's also Intphil. Feel ko ang baba ko sa Philhis, Inersci/Inersla at Artapre. Bwiset, nung Artapre finals namin, pwede kang ma-exempt from taking the exam kung ang grade mo'y umabot ng 3.0. Among sa 'min ng frenships ko, ako lang ang 'DI na-exempt! Nakakahiya T.T Yung Englone ko naman, pinagpuyatan ko ang portfolio namin dahil ang dami kailangang i-type. There's my 2 major essays (na parehong umabot ng 4 long bonds SAGAD), 3 minor essays, 5 other works LAHAT NG NABANGGIT KO MAY INTRO PA, 2 diagnostic essays (dapat 3 nga 'yan) plus title page, about the author and table of contents. Kailangan creative pa ang presentation. It doesn't matter if I got a 4.0 and a 3.5 for my major essays respectively pero feel ko mahihila ng pababa ang grade ko come the creativity department. I know grades are grades and that it shouldn't be a big deal pero pinagpaguran ko 'yan. Unlike the other half ng block namin, mas marami na kaming sinulat (ang daming 'di na-include sa portfolio na hindi naman pala required) tapos lahat ng sinusulat namin eh sa classroom lang (buti pa ang kabila, nauuwi pa nila ang major essays nila kahit inaayos lang final draft). Haayyy... bahala na si Batman.

2003-12-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

Had a busy week. Hindi na nga makalaro ng RO eh. Anyway, may bagong discovery ako (I don't know sa HS friends ko if they know this already). It's TSUBASA (Wing) RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE, (yup, that's how it's spelled) the latest manga from CLAMP. Yup, the same 4 Japanese ladies who brought us Magic Knight Reyearth, Card Captor Sakura, X/1999, Chobits, RG Veda... basta marami na silang nagawa. It was so recent that it started its circulation sa Weekly Shounen Magazine (a popular Japanese magazine) last May 21. Gusto ko ng tankoubon (volume) nito for Chrismas, if available na rito. Magkakaroon nga raw o meron ng official English translated version nito. Ok rin XXXholic (another recent manga from CLAMP, released lang nung February) kasi directly linked ang storylines nila. I know these are both in Nipponggo (sp?) pero may nakita na akong translations, scanlations (scanned pages na inedit ang dialogue in that English translated na) even. Pwede rin yung KH manga kaso it's basically a retelling of the game =P

Ba't habol ko ang TRC? Well, it's set in an alternate universe where some characters of previous CLAMP titles (including XXXholic na napakabago) cross over. Its main characters are *drumroll* Sakura and Syaoran of CCS!!! It's not a sequel though. A number of characters in TRC were taken from CCS (Sakura, Syaoran, Touya, Yukito, Tomoyo) plus meron galing sa XXXholic (si Yuuko, for example) tapos nandun din si Mokona (MKR), si Chii (Chobits), Sorata and Arashi (X/1999), etc. Sakura and Syaoran are a bit older here (14-16? Wala pang sinasabi), si Touya may sword... kung anu-ano na lang. Sakura is NOT the main character here as it is more focused on Syaoran (pero siya pa rin ang heroine. Giving him the spotlight eh?) Dahil alternate universe nga, may pagbabago sa relationships (pero magkapatid pa rin sina Touya at Sakura, and hindi pa rin magkasundo sina Syaoran at Touya XD). Meron din new characters, namely sina Kurogane at Fye (Fai? Fay?) D. Flourite (mineral!), mga kasama ni Syaoran dito. Some say that the story is cliche so far eh mukha naman for me. I hope CLAMP finds a way to make this more than that. Waaahh, gusto ko nito!T.T

Sakura and Syaoran ("Uyyy..." *kilig*)

(L-R) Fye, Syaoran, Kurogane and Mokona (nakapatong sa balikat ni Kurogane. "Puu!" Yes, pinaliit siya d'yan)

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Random quiz result for now:

What Linkin Park/Meteora Song Are You?
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2003-11-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!!! Tapos na rin sa wakas ang Stay Away vid namin! Ipapa-edit na lang tapos i-submit sa Culture Crash Comics (sila naman ang may pakana sa contest na 'yan). I know it's not impressive (we had to improvise for everything considering our lack of resources to recreate it) pero masaya kami dahil gawa namin. Consolation prize (ballpen?), ok na. Buti na lang at walang pasok 'pag Ramadan (at hindi binawi ng La Salle; pinapasok kami noong Halloween). Kasama namin sa production ang aming direk, si bom. Siyang may hawak ng video camera kanina. Tinatamad din akong kumuha. Instead, ako ang may hawak ng payong niya habang kinukuhanan namin yung dance sequence sa kalye (YES, SA KALYE!). Predestined daw sabi ni Cimber kasi noong 1st day of shooting namin, nilabas ko at binuksan ang payong ko sa loob ng bahay ni char. Hehe!XD Sa dulo ng tape, there's the usual kalokohan. Finocus ba naman ang aking *ahem*. Ang gulo ng dedication portion! Some sa mga na-dedicate namin:

1. TNTC!
2. Block nina Cimber, Shuro and char (magkaklase sila; yung block nila may alam tungkol sa video)
3. Yung CD player at speakers
4. Ang camera
5. Ang payong ni bom
6. Mga Muslim (today's the start of Ramadan)
7. Bahay ni char (where most of the scenes transpired)
8. Consuelo and Dian Streets (sa kanto yung dance)

Wehehehehe! Pwede na akong umuwi muli ng 12:40 tuwing Wednesdays and Fridays (except this Friday. May pinapanood sa 'min sa Artapre na palabas sa school ng 7:00 p.m. Kung wala kaming pupuntahan ng frenships ko, uwi na lang ako maliban lang kung sabi sa 'kin ng mom ko na huwag na). Sayang lang at patapos na rin ang term. Malay ko ba, baka mas pangit ang sched ko next term. 'Wag sana.

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I've renamed my blog to Perspective. No more Anamnesis. The old name sounds too... high (vocabulary-wise). Para siyang 2nd part ng scientific name. Unti-unti kong binabago ang blog ko. Baka sa susunod, yung tagboard naman o maglalagay ako ng Haloscan. If I'm to change the entire page, maghintay na lang kayo next year. In the meantime, maghahanap ako ng matinong layout kung hindi ako tinatamad gawin 'yon.

2003-11-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

In case na hindi pa ninyo napapansin, pinalitan ko ang picture sa layout. Hindi na si Yuna kundi mga SD RO characters. BTW, ako ang nag-ayos sa kanila dyan sa mga pwesto nila as in crop + paste. Dahil nasa RO mood ako ngayon, I'm uploading some actual screens na kinuhanan ko mula sa computer namin para may idea naman kayo sa itsura ng character ko + yung priest ng utol ko (marami pa siyang characters - 9 sila in total, 3 per server kaso 5 ang active ngayon eh yung iba hindi pa niya nadedelete. Tsaka na lang yung iba).

This is the latest screencap of my 1st and only character si Vespera. Gagawa ako ng panibago 'pag malapit na ma-implement ang alternate 2nd jobs, which I hear was moved from next month to June '04.

Kailangang taasan ko ang agility niya if I want her to become an agi Assassin. Yung goggles at stiletto niya ay parehong slotted. As you can see, wala siyang equipment under 'robe'. She used to have a manteau kaso hiningi ng knight ng utol ko (which I thought na idedelete niya) kasi kulang sa pera. Ayun, may utang siya sa 'kin nun plus 20 k zeny. Hinihingi ko nga rin sa kanya yung thief's clothes (or is it ninja suit?) na pinahiram niya sa friend niya pero nagstop sa Loki para sa assassin niya sa Iris (guild master na nga 'yun eh). Iniisip ko ngang bilhin siya muna ng muffler in the meantime.

'Eto ang reason kung bakit masama ang magsawsaw ng warp. I learned it the hard way =P

Yung black horseman d'yan is an abysmal knight (level 80 yan '0'). Yung pumatay talaga sa 'kin (the possessed armor with the invisible wearer) is a reydric, another high-leveled monster. At the upper right hand corner (scroll to the right, peeps!), you can also see a wanderer a.k.a. zombie Battousai XD (level 75 na 'yan). Makikita ninyo na masyadong mababa ang level ko to beat any of those. Sa lahat ng lugar na mawarp ako eh sa Glast Heim pa (magandang panglevel-up sa mga long-range attackers starting from level 45 pataas dahil puro undead, though nakakasurvive ang priest ng utol ko noong level 30+ acolyte pa lang siya.

Priest ng utol ko, by far ang highest level character niya. Pinatay siya ni doppelganger (hindi ang blog ni E-Kyub and I'm following the spelling sa screen), isang level 60 MVP boss. Muntik na maging MVP ang kapatid ko nung next try niya kung hindi lang may isang wizard na nagsawsaw. Dumaan yung wizard, humihingi ng heal eh nung nakitang magcacast ng Magnus Exorcimus (isang spell of holy element and by far the strongest offensive spell priests have so far), nagcast ng Napalm Beat. Tuloy, dedo si doppleganger at yung wizard ang naging MVP though it was my bro who did most of the work. Buti nga lang at walang drop si doppleganger kundi inis na inis na ang bro ko. BTW, this happened kahapon ng umaga. Sayang at hindi ninyo masyadong makikita dito ang itsura ng character niya. Kahit noong white pa ang buhok niya (yup, pinakulayan 'yan!), mukhang daw suplado ang sprite niya, according to his guildmates. Must be the hairstyle...

Wala lang, nakikipose ako sa mga non-playable characters (NPCs).

Hehe, hanggang dito na lang ako magshashare.

2003-11-17T20:59:00.000+08:00

For today, 3 quizzes results! (Tago ka na bom):

You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)

?? Which Season Are You ??
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Comments ko sa result na 'to ay a) I don't think I'm the most approachable. Sabi sa 'kin ng mga tao either mukha akong masyadong seryoso o mataray kaya hindi ako gaano nilalapitan kaagad. b) depende sa pinag-uusapan ko eh may makakarelate sa 'kin. There are people who can relate with me sa anime or gaming, others about what's going on sa klase, etc. c) ba't ang ganda ng pic for winter? d) other than these, okay na.

You're "Imaginary"...a dreamer and always
happy...

Which Evanesence song are you?
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You are Storm.

Which X-Men movie character are you? (the good guys)
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Ehhh... nag-impose ng curfew ang nanay ko sa paggamit ko ng computer. Hanggang 9:00 p.m. lang?! Ang dami kong kailangang gawin kaso yung kapatid ko'y swapang sa computer. Paano, nagpapaaddict sa RO. Biruin mo, may level 65 priest na siya sa Iris. IRIS! Yun pa naman ang pinakabagong server tapos kakalabas lang nun around late September o noong October na. Si Shuro, ang hunter niya eh level 70 o higher na sa Chaos kaso yun ang pinakaunang server. Mahahabol na siya ng kapatid ko (pero meron nang level 74+ na sa Iris... yung ka-guild ng brother ko na wizard. Baka meron pang iba around that range or even higher =P). Napagalitan nga ng nanay ko yung kapatid ko kasi ang baba ng grades niya sa card. Besides sa priest niya, meron din level 39 na swordie at level 27-28 na merchant SA IRIS PA LANG IYAN. Meron din siyang level 55 na knight sa Loki eh at iba pa for both Loki and Chaos. Bale yung 4 na nabanggit ko ang mga pinaka-active niya. On the other hand, I'm still a (base )level 38 thief. Kung hindi magkakaroon ng stat rollback 'pag na upload na ang komodo patch o yung alternate 2nd jobs, pwede na ako maging rogue by the time na job level 40 na ako (job level 27 pa lang ako) >_< Pero hindi lang dahil sa RO ako na-upset. I really have to search for references sa iba't-ibang subjects. There's Englone, Intreco, PE... yun pa lang so far. Sana hindi magdagdag ang iba. Oh well...

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Decided to split the links into 'Forums & Yahoo! Groups' and 'RO Webcomics' (as seen at the left column) since yun lang naman ang laman eh. Removed 3 links; RPGFan is out of place kahit na madalas kong pinupuntahan 'yan while 2 of the RO webcomics I linked didn't update ever since nilagay ko sila d'yan. In place, dinagdag ko ang RO Comic Central. Baka sa 2004 ko pa palitan ang layout ko pero I'm thinking of changing Yuna into something more RO related. Ok na sana kung ang pic ay hindi nagsisimula kung saan nagtatapos ang banner. That's it for now, 9:00 na.

2003-11-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

Just for kicks:

Ayah Enna was
a Trustworthy Rock Star
in a past life.

Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

What's a trustworthy rock star? Syempre, ginamit ko ang username ko. Kapag 1st name ko lang, ang lumabas ay lowly B movie star. 'Pag whole name naman, talkative witch o_0 Wala lang, bored ako. Nasa bahay ako't ubos ang load ko sa RO T_T Kanina, nakapagdownload ba naman ako ng video clip. Si Hyde, kumakanta ng Careless Whisper ng Wham! (80's duo kung saan dating napabilang si George Michael, kung hindi ako nagkakamali) live sa isang palabas. May lyrics pa sa ilalim ng screen kaya pwedeng magsing-along.

'Eto pa:

Ayah Enna spins tunes as
DJ Nimble Storm

Get your dj name @ Quiz Me

Nice. 'Pag 1st name lang, DJ Humble Star. Kapag whole name, DJ Saucy Jam. I like DJ Nimble Storm.

Yun lang =P

2003-11-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

Yay! Nakapagsimula na kami ng shooting. Woohoo!! 1 scene nga lang kasi a) late na dumating si E-Kyub. Paano ba naman eh umuulan tapos nag-aaral siya sa UST. Baha! Traffic! at b) tinotopak ang battery ng video camera ni char! Mabilis mag-low batt. Kailangang maghintay ng 20 mins para magcharge. In the meantime, nagpractice sina Cimber, Shuro at char! nung dance (pag naka slow-mo, mukhang Tai Chi!XD). Anyway, it took us about 3 takes. Yung 1st, mali ang pwesto nina E-kyub at Cimber (pero 'di mo mahahalata kung hindi mo kabisado nang todo yung original mtv) tapos masyadong mabagal ang pag-pan ko. 2nd take, mali ang lighting. 3rd, ok na pero mas matino for me yung 1st 2 (except sa dulo ng 2nd take). May mga kabaliwan din kami caught on tape. Nalista ni Cimber sa blog niya. Check it out!

Dahil umuulan, hindi natuloy ang skygazing.

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Naglabas na ang Square Enix (through Shonen Jump) ng pics for FF XII and these include the 2 main characters, sina Ashe (female) at Van (male). BTW, hindi ako sure kung yun talaga ang (spelling ng) names nila kasi translated from katakana. Some people say na Arche or Ashie si Ashe tapos Vahn si Van (nilagyan ng 'h' lang iyan eh *tingin kay E-kyub. Joke joke joke!*). Parang Teida = Tidus, Ryukku = Rikku, Watuka = Wakka, Sukoru = Squall, etc. (Hindi ako sure kung tama ang nagawa kong literal translation ng names nila from katakana pero yun ang lumabas.) If you want to see the pics, go to game sites like RPGFan - ayan, may link ako. Dapat nga ilalagay ko 'to kahapon pero hindi ko ma-access ang Blogger.

Sa 18 pala ilalabas ang U.S. version ng FF X-2. Ang saya-saya. Nahihirapan na akong tapusin yung Japanese copy namin =P

Ang Feata, nagreopen... ngayon?!

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Added another Yahoo group. This time, ito naman ang sa blockfriends ko. Alam ko si Kris Aquino ang nagpasimuno ng tawagang ito. Na-stuck ito sa 'min kasi yun ginagamit namin sa isa't-isa. Nagtanggal din ako ng 2 links kasi hindi ko masyadong pinupuntahan. Yun lang ang updates sa ngayon =)

2003-11-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

Kanina, nasa bahay kami ni char! (eh yun ang nilalagay niyang name sa chatterbox ni Cimber. Ano gusto ninyo, bluefalafel?). Continuation ng paggawa ng guitars nina char! (as Tetsu, bassist ng L'Arc~en~Ciel) at Shuro (as Ken of the same group. Hindi si Ken Zhu o si Ken na boyfriend ni Barbie). E-kyub will be playing Hyde (siya ang vocalist kung hindi pa ninyo alam by now) and Cimber will be playing Yukihiro (ang drummer). Yellow na may Pucca ang gitara ni char! while white with the Japanese sun (circa World War II yata) yung kay Shuro. Lata ng 900 g Bear Brand powdered milk pa lang ang drum ni Cimber c/o me. Dapat manonood uli kami nung actual Stay Away video kaso may tao sa roofdeck nina char!, natulog tapos nanood ng Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. Tuloy, hindi namin mapapractice ang dance steps!XD For more info about Laruku, punta kayo sa www.laruku.com; meron din ibang sites pero kayo na bahala maghanap *wishes that a new bloghopper will appear. Alam na ng iba ito eh!*

2003-11-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Nagsimula na kami sa production last Wednesday (that's the same Wednesday as my last post, except hapon na nun). As expected, mahirap mag-isip kung ano talaga ang gagawin sa video. Noong Biyernes, nagsimula na kaming gumawa ng mga gitara. Bukas daw yung drums (magdadala ako ng lata ng gatas). Ako raw ang cameraperson kasi kailangang may kukuha ng video. We still have a long way to go. Good luck sa 'min.

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I'm worried about Bom and E-Kyub. Yung tatay ni Bom, mag (o nag- na ba?) - reretire. Si E-Kyub naman, may problema sa guidance office ng St. Scho dahil hindi pa nila naprocess ang kung ano man kailangan para sa scholarship niya. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sila matutulungan pero sana may paraan para umahon sila sa mga problema nila.

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Hindi ko pa rin napapanood ang Matrix Revolutions pero after having seen Reloaded earlier this year, I'm not looking forward to it. The trilogy has lost the touch that it had in the first movie with a mediocre sequel. Instead, nanood ako ng Kill Bill at Scary Movie 3 sa bahay during the weekend. Yes, Kill Bill IS violent (complete with lots of blood and gore that I usually see in some anime) but it has an interesting execution which has hooked me in anticipation for volume 2 (please let there be a vol. 2! Why is the whole title "Kill Bill vol. 1"? There ought to be a vol. 2!!). I can't spoil the plot though kasi wala pa sa theatres 'yan, that is if it makes it here. Actually, the story isn't the most original I've seen; I bet that you can translate that into anime effortlessly. The fact that it's live-action was really cool. The plot is sparse but I think there's a lot more to it if it were given more time.

If you've seen Scary Movie 1 & 2, then there's no need for me to elaborate on what to expect sa Scary Movie 3 (great trilogies come in threes... I'm not supposed to spoil anything). Basta 'yun. In the meantime, gusto ko mapanood yung sinasabi ni E-Kyub na movie and Battle Royale (isa pang madugong movie). Sana mahiram ko ulit yung copy ng blockfriend (as opposed to blockmate) ko na My Sassy Girl.

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Bad Omen for the... hanggang magkaroon muli ng omen:

This happened during Intreco kahapon. Tinatawag ako nung isa ko pang blockfriend (hindi yung may My Sassy Girl; yung real-life bisshie sa 'min). Midterms namin sa Inersla later that day eh ang boring ng lecture ni Lil' Miss Hips (yun ang tawag namin sa kanya 'pag kami-kami lang) kaya nagrereview kami (BTW, MAAAAHIIIRAAAAP!!!). Anyway, maghihiram siya sana ng handout ko. 'Di kami magkarinigan dahil we're 3 chairs apart. Tinawag ko siya and the next thing I know, nakatinggin sa 'kin ang Intreco teacher namin. Syempre, tinawag niya ako at tinatanong niya sa 'kin kung bakit ko tinatawag si real-life bisshie. Malamang pinapanood ako ng blockmates ko. According sa isa sa kanila, nung napatinggin siya sa akin at that time, nawawala ang ulo ko. Tumingin siya sa katabi ko; nakakabit pa ang ulo niya. Pagbalik niya sa akin, bumalik na ulo ko. I don't know if it's just her imagination but why a headless me?

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I knew this will come out:

paranoid

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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2003-11-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

Wala masyadong nangyari so far for the past few days since I last posted. Haven't heard anything from SH or Indy lately (malamang nagtatrabaho mga 'yon). Sisimulan na ang shooting ng Stay Away video namin tomorrow. Hehe, can't wait. Kung wala lang kaming make-up class sa Intreco. If we're gonna talk about the answers sa midterm exam namin, forget it. Kahit pasang-awa ako dun, I bet hindi ko siya maiintindihan. Kung magturo eh parang binasa lang niya ang textbook. She does not simplify what the book says. Kodigo nga niya 'pag nagturo. Nakakawalang-gana sumunod sa kanya. Kaso, ayoko bumagsak. Sayang ang pera at panahon. Basta, sarap tuhugin ng barbecue stick siya at ang Artapre prof namin. People from other blocks would say na nag-enjoy sila sa Artapre. Kami? Hindi. Bwiset siya talaga. Nakakaasar siya talaga dahil bigla siyang may ihihingi sa 'yo na hindi niya sinabi noong last meeting. Last week, muntik niyang bigyan ng zero ang group namin dahil hindi kami nakapagsubmit ng report. Ang sabi niya for a number of meetings before sa Thursday ang submission. Hiningi niya nun Tuesday. Ayaw nga kami i-reconsider kasi sabi niya Tuesday ang inannounce niya. Grrrrrrrrr!!!!! Tapos, kung may pinapagawa siya na kailangan namin lumabas, on our own kayong pumunta. Ang masama, SHE DOESN'T GIVE DIRECTIONS SA KUNG SAAN KAMI PINAPUPUNTA. Parang alam ba namin ang lahat ng lugar sa Metro Manila. Sunud-sunod din mabigay ng paper na ipapagawa o ng report. We just passed 3 papers last week tapos reporting namin sa Thursday. Swerte namin at hindi kami ang una. Haaaayyy, nakakastress eh masama sa kalusugan 'yan.

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Sa mga hirap umahon sa dami ng quizzes, you can skip this. Don't tell me na I didn't warn you.

SQUALL'S ASS!!! It's strong, muscular and quiet.
Yey... You love having your ass in tight
leather pants and belts! o.x

(Anime) What sexeh Bishonen's ass do *YOU* have?! -^_^- (includes pics!! XD yey!)
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WTF?! Hindi ko alam na nandiyan siya. Nagkataon lang!XD

You are cute and wispy! A very sexy, semi-normal
'do favored by many JRockers recently.

What JRock hairstyle are you?
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Masubukan nga.

interpretive

*~ What kind of dreamer are you? ~*
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Black Cat, nine lives, short days, long nights...
That's from a song, incidentally. So you're the
black cat. People are still scared of you -
maybe you've done something really bad in your
time? But somehow, you wouldn't mind being
accepted and having a nice lap to curl up in.
Save you all the torture you get on Halloween.

What Bad Omen Are You?
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You're a Non-box.

What box do you get put in?
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That's because Taong Troika ako ^_^

You are Peace.

You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"

What Emotion Are You?
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I didn't take all the quizzes found in Cimber's blog. Similarly, hindi ko rin nilagay ang lahat ng results na quizzes na kinuha ko. Anyone else intrested in groping Gackt's crotch? o_0

2003-10-31T17:06:00.000+08:00

Final Fantasy X-2's official U.S. site is finally up! Yay!!!XD Click here to check it out.

Buti na lang at nag-improve ang voiceactress ni Yuna. The Leblanc Syndicate sound like Brit-wannabes na hindi; I dunno >_< Can't really say much on the others. Basta, bibili ako (most likely pirated nga lang due to my budget. Itago ninyo ako kay Bong Revilla!) when it comes out.

As for the EB, itong si Indy (Maligayang Bati at Happy Halloween sa kanya) eh ang day offs ay tuwing Martes at Miyerkules. We're still waiting kung magbabago ang sched niya.

Oh, and HAPPY HALLOWEEN to you all!=)

2003-10-30T20:05:00.000+08:00

*At a later time*

Magkukuwento naman ako ngayon. I don't know if you guys have read about the 2 Pinoy FFO admins that I mentioned some posts before *points at the bottom*. Anyway, we regained contact recently and this appeared: (BTW, the admin who wrote this is called Soul Hunter)

Indy said maybe we can hold a FFO Manila convention this December. Ang dami natin sigurado (at least 3)! What's your availability?

Indy, short for Indiana Jerico, is the other admin.

So sinabi ko na pwede ako sa Makati. I know both of them are older than me kaya I told him na I'm also planning to bring a friend (kung sino man papayag ^_^). This is SH's reply:

Yes of course, puwede kang magsama ng friend mo, mas mabuti nga yon para mas secure ka lalo (actually, I also plan to bring my wife along kasi FFOer din siya, medyo inactive nga lang ngayon). It's not that you needed security, mababait po kami ano. Pero I can understand your concern kasi first meeting lang natin ito. Don't worry about our travel from QC/Antipolo to Makati. I'm 34 years old (alam mo ba yon?), I'm no longer bothered by distance. Saka hindi naman distant ang Makati ano. Tagaytay, yun, pero hindi naman tayo doon pupunta

One more thing. Next time na you address me with "Po", I'll ban you.

Joke lang Pero wala na "po" ha kasi feeling ko lalo ako tumatanda. Sabi pa naman ng wife ko, I'm young at heart

I'm okay with most schedules kaya just let me know of your availability. Tanungin ko na rin si Indy kung kailan siya puwede.

Knowing that he's almost twice my age before he sent me that, I kept saying "po" sa PM ko sa kanya sa sagot ko in the former =P

Kaya ko binanggit 'to is because I want to know from you guys on what you think about this. Sinong pwede *Puppy eyes*

2003-10-30T09:55:00.000+08:00

Just added 'True Blue Kulasa' sa links. To those who are wondering what the heck this is, it's a forum for Scholasticans (Manila, Marikina, Pampanga...), nag-aaral o nag-graduate na.

Nakakatrap pala ang mga quiz results? Sige, huli pa ako XD

You are Terry, "the Hungry Wolf" Bogard.
You are a legendary street fighter, but kind to
everyone you meet. Fighters long to challenge
you, and like The two hunters, you live by your
own codes of honor. You're always getting into
messes of saving the world and such...a typical
spin-off of a video game hero, but a hero
nonetheless.

What's your Inner Anime Protagonist?
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You are Kenshin, You can defeat your enemies in
seconds with your sword despite the fact that
you really hate fighting, you do it to save
lives. My favorite!

What Anime Fighter are you?
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You're Kero! (Card Captor Sakura)

Which anime mascot are you?
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Goddess of winter, with a cold exterior but deep
down a warm, caring heart.

What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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You're early X/1999 Subaru: disaffected and angsty,
you live with the sole purpose of finding
Seishirou...

Which Subaru are you?
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Spike! As a bad ass. You hate that he's Buffy's lap
dog now and wish he'd go back to the way he
was. But he's still HOT!!

Buffy, buffy...which buffy guy is right for you?(wit pics!)
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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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What Cosplay Type Are You?

A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
EXTRA: Your personality type is the only one on
this quiz that would enjoy www.life-
blood.cjb.net. Check it out!

What kind of girl are you?
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You are a dragon, you have one serious temper when
provoked. Dominant and generally prefers being
the one in charge. Beautiful to look at,
dangerous to touch;)

What mystical creature are you?
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You represent... anger.
Mad at the world, eh? You have a tendency to...
freak out easily. Overly emotional about
everything, you're most prone to bouts of
cruelty and moodiness. Other people may be
afraid of the fact that you explode so easily,
but at least you're honest... even if you're
honest about not liking anything.

What feeling do you represent?
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Hmmm... ilan na ba nahuli ko?=P

2003-10-26T18:56:00.000+08:00

Here's another deluge of quiz results to start the week. As usual, blog-hopping. Nahihirapan akong maglagay ng separate page kung saan nandoon ang lahat ng quizzes na sinagutan ko.

What Gundam Wing Character Are You?
Duo? That's odd. I usually get Quatre in these kind of quizess (save for Noin).

What Irrational Number Are You?

You are √2

You are in good company, many other square roots are also irrational numbers. Just by being a square root you have been branded a radical. You are considered very attractive, especially by Europeans (at least on paper.)

You fear that a relationship with another √2 may somehow end up complex and ultimately imaginary. In reality, only another √2 will make you whole.

Your lucky number is approximately 1.41421356

Shiny Lemur

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Omae wa dochira anime no VILLAIN desu ka?
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You're Shirou Kamui!
Congratulations-- the Power of God is in your hands. Well, maybe not, but you do occasionally feel as if the weight of the world is on your shoulders, and sometimes you just want to run away to escape it all. You mean well, but you are sometimes short-tempered and donâ€™t necessarily think things through before you do them. Friendship is very important to you, as is loyalty. You have a lot of growing to do, but deep down you really are a good person.
Which Dragon of Heaven are you?
Quiz by Kerianne

What Anime Vampire Are You?

What Inuyasha Villain Are You?

Can I leave the 'scantily clad' part out?

Who's Your Anime Boyfriend?
Uy, si Ninong Aoshi!!!XD

Damnit!

this is my way to live

What about yours?

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What Anime Art Style Are You?

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Third Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

This is the one I've been talking about in my last post.

PURPLE
Creative. Moody. Mysterious.

Take the Color Personality Test here.

This hue has an aura of mystery and intrigue. The purple person is enigmatic and highly creative, with a quick perception of spiritual ideas. Purple is often preferred by artists. People who like to consider themselves different from the common heard or unconventional often prefer purple.
You are often generous and, at times, charming. Purple is also associated with wit, keen observation, super sensitivity, vanity, and moodiness. Because purple is a combination of red and blue, which are opposites in many ways, you often have conflicting traits. You are constantly trying to balance those opposites -- the excitement of red with the tranquility of blue. It has been said that purple people are easy to live with but hard to know. You can be secretive, so that even when you seem to confide freely, your closest friends never completely understand you.

What NERV Child Are You?

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2003-10-25T11:48:00.000+08:00

Ang corny naman nito, unavailable ang mga chatterbox kahit saan ako pumunta ngayon. Ika nga sa blog ni Shuro, ang walang kuwenta kong chatter box... Pero tama ang sabi ni bom sa blog niya, Ang flooble chatterbox ay sira. Computer man ay tao din..nagkakamali..nagloloko.

At last, I decided to join Friendster. I'm still waiting for that confirmation e-mail though. Nope, hindi ako na-invite ng isa sa mga closer friends ko sa block (akala nila member na ako). Yung nag-invite sa 'kin (through Yahoo groups) was a close friend sa class namin last year. Oh 'di ba, malapit na 'yon. Ok, she may not be my closest friend sa TNTC but compared with my other friends in our class last year, yeah she counts. Actually, I consider anyone na taga-TNTC sa section namin to be my close friends there kasi I also have classmates whom I consider to be friends outside ng TNTC.

I also thought that it's high time for me to join. Paano, I received five invitations already! Nakakahiya naman if I keep on turning them down more than ever at baka i-flood pa ako ng invitations (in demand ba ako?). Hehe, there goes my paranoia, which according to an online quiz whose result I'm too lazy to post says that I'm most likely to suffer that from a list of different disorders XD

Happy Deathday!
Your name:	Ayah Enna
You will die on:	Tuesday, July 13, 2027
You will die of:	Serial Killer Victim
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