ayah enna
A fresh grad who finds herself waking up after lunch (GMT+8, mind you). She is into videogames, anime & manga , certain book genres, a bit of music, and dogs. An introvert, she is generally slow in warming up unless she sees that a person has at least a common interest. She knows too little of HTML so she had to download this pre-made layout.
(It's really more of me being invisible, on SMS or using meebo)
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agosto 31, 2005
AS OF THIS DAY @ 3:50 P.M. GMT+08, I HAVE REMOVED THE LINK TO MY PICTURE. I WANT TO SAY "THANK YOU" TO THOSE WHO REPLIED ABOUT IT, HOWEVER IT WOULD BE SOME TIME BEFORE I POST MY PICTURE AGAIN, THIS TIME WITHOUT THE CENSOR BAR. I AM DOWN RIGHT NOW DUE TO MY ABYSSMAL FINAL GRADES IN ALL SUBJECTS AND WOULD MOST LIKELY BE DELAYED BY A TRIMESTER. I DO NOT EVEN THINK THAT I COULD ENJOY MY BIRTHDAY NEXT WEEK WITH ALL THE GUILT THAT I AM HAVING. I WILL ELABORATE MORE ON MY CURRENT SITUATION WHEN I AM FEELING A BIT BETTER AND HAVE ORGANIZED MY THOUGHTS. I AM CONFUSED OF MY ACTIONS DURING THE PAST COUPLE MONTHS, WHICH MAY HAVE ORIGINATED FROM SOMETHING EMOTIONAL IN NATURE.REST ASSURED THAT I AM STILL PHYSICALLY OKAY AND WOULD NOT ATTEMPT TO MAKE MYSELF DRUNK, HIGH ON DRUGS, SLIT MY WRISTS OR ANY OTHER FORM OF SELF-MUTILLATION... ANYTHING EXTREME THAT WILL HURT ME AND/OR OTHERS. I DO NOT THINK THAT MY SITUATION IS THAT BAD TO PUSH ME TO DO ANY OF THOSE. I SELDOMLY DRINK, DO DRUGS NOR HURT MYSELF PHYSICALLY; I CANNOT SAY THAT I ALSO DO NOT HURT MYSELF EMOTIONALLY). IT IS JUST THAT I AM HAVING A HARD TIME DEALING WITH THE MATTER... OR I THINK OF IT THAT WAY BECAUSE I DO NOT KNOW HOW I WILL BREAK THE NEWS TO MY FAMILY LATER. I WISH CAN GO THROUGH WITH THIS WITHOUT ANY OTHER COMPLICATIONS.
THANK YOU FOR READING,
AYAH
POSTSCRIPT:
FIRST, I HOPE NO ONE HERE IS SKEPTICAL THAT I WOULD NOT DO ANYTHING HARMFUL TO MYSELF. IT HAS BEEN THREE HOURS SINCE I CRIED AND I AM VERY THANKFUL TO THREE OF MY CLASSMATES WHO WERE THERE WITH ME AT THE TIME. SECOND, I AM SORRY FOR ANYONE WHO IS BOTHERED WITH ALL CAPS AND/OR THE RED FONT COLOR. IT HAS BEEN AN EMOTIONAL DAY FOR ME. THIRD, I WILL CHANGE THE LAYOUT AS SOON AS I COULD CORRECT WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE CODING. I TRIED CHANGING IT YESTERDAY BUT IT DID NOT LOOK AS GOOD AS PLANNED.
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